But then i smoked a joint to the dome and

try seeing avatar 3D on acid. now that's an experience...

 

animay makes me LoL

 

i would had. i have no acid or shrooms

 

so what was the epiphany...that's all i really care about

i saw it, though i was sober, and it was pretty good the religion spoke to me...but if you would like to articulate your epiphany(ies) i will listen

 

I have not thought this through well enough yet but here goes.

For a long time now i have been thinking about how much there is that we do not see.
Every now and then i would make a thread here about it here and there, and get input. I have not made one for a long time.
The original idea was 'parallel universes', and instead of seeing it as loads of different versions throughout space, i considered it more as layers. So consider how a cell is something we can not see, but it builds up a tiny piece of material, which then builds up a different - much larger, possibly vital structure... and then the next layer is penetrated and you have an apple in our current level. That cell, most likely does not have the abillity required to comprehend what it was, it was just a process doing what needed to be done. Possibly just like us.
I began thinking for all we know, we could be a tiny piece of a material building up something in the next layer, for example a shoe... but more then likely something completely unimaginable.

So an analogy i heard and kept in mind was how a fish swimming in a pond is unaware of what is above the surface. The layer and the fish's current capabilities do not permit it. Yet it lives, underwater. And what happens when we catch one and pull it out, before it dies, does it understand we just broke those barriers and although they may be eaten shortly or let go, for a glimpse they reached the next level. (brief enlightenment?)

Very tiny bouts of HPPD pointed out a valid point. Sometimes in bright outdoors, i would see static/snow like shiny particles in the air. I am now aware its pretty normal as a small occurrence - but at the time, i was questioning if maybe i was seeing pollution/dust/w/e particles in the air.
Considering our air is not built up of just oxygen, there is so much we don't see, and would not know about if it was not for great geniuses throughout our time. I am still under the impression, that there is an infinity of what we do not know, and more importantly- is knowing the real answer. Animals do not know what we do... Fuck dogs cant even see most of what we can. Animals are capable of living in harmony with its environment, just like we once did.

So, the latest thought, global warming. I had accepted it. I accepted that be it as a natural cycle, or something we contributed to, the earth was changing into something we probably would not be able to adapt to. The way i saw it, my generation would probably be the last one to live its entire lifetime without paying too much of the consequences. Latest events made me accept that it may be much sooner. Yet everyone is still breeding and pretending there is no problem, like as if their kids will have a beautiful world they can live in.
But i accepted it, i honestly think we deserve it, and thought good, wipe us before its too late. The fact that most of us do not admit we are parasites to nature is exactly how it got to be this way. And the best thing i love about stereotypes is that they are not accurate... And for all the existing humans in this world, sucking it dry, there are those who have learned, and began reaching the next layer and they will too be destroyed by the actions of the others.

During the movie, i easily referenced and tied the two situations together. And i got carried away from the plot into my own thoughts with beautiful visual and auditory stimulation. I understood that if this global warming effectively wipes us, and most species of life out, we may be doing more damage then we think. There is so much we do not see that could be getting wiped out too, and everything that could have been. I like the idea that Mother Nature is simply doing a System Reset, it is just getting rid of the malfunctions before it runs again... After all history shows us its happened before... Only that this time its possible (i am unsure how believable mainstream scientific data is) that we caused it, AKA suicide.

This whole movement, the Consumerism. The mindset. And its influence on each other. Those who don't have it want it, those who do have want more. In the movie The Age of Stupid, a genius solution was proposed. A credit/limit of how much oil we can consume. A certain level will be decided upon, and those (like most of Western World who use phenomenal levels) will be required to gradually decrease, wean off of it. Where as places who under use, like poverty struck areas or rapidly growing economic systems will be able to gradually raise to that fixed level. So eventually we are all equal on terms of how much we consume. I strongly support this idea, but have little hope.
What it means is downgrading. And although i would have little trouble downgrading, i do not see how those who are making more money then me would get over their sense of entitlement.
Consider a world were everyone gets enough food, water, clothing to live with, instead of developing retarded conditions such as obesity and extreme consumerism while the rest of the world starves.
I really do think that if we survive as a species, future generations would look back, and quoted '' call this the Age of Stupid', just like we look back at the holocaust which at the time was just a life of the time.

The only way for us to survive, is to downgrade, and be much more like the animals that we watch on tv, the ones who live at harmony, because for everything they take they give back.

Love over Fear. I kept trying to understand it, convincing myself it is the only way... But all the evils of humanity would raise a exclamation mark and i would just push the idea to the side. I now understand its the greater idea. There will always be a few exceptions, but the general, the general is the most important.
So does that mean we are entitled to extinction, because the majority of us do not take the time to use our abilities, the incredible mind which can absorb information, digest it, and create infinite outputs due to it. We all incredible, but simply many of us do not use it. We live to a imaginary system which is dictated to us, and we are so used to hearing this that we don't even consider it anymore, we simply accept it.
I think we are capable of so much, its a pity we may go just because of the current mindset of our people. We came so far, and simply could not get over the minority who did not have good intentions within, and had the power to act to their intentions into such levels where as now it has become a deceitful campaign fed by ignorance/naivety and inflicted suffering.

I was simply deeply concerned that Nature remains intact. Because i love it. It gave me life, it gave me everything i needed. I can sit and cry while looking at it, i go out of my way to get to it when i can, because when i go outside of my house all i see is what man has done. I accepted that eventually i will leave civilization and go live with it. This is why i just hope it will be able to recover from us, and perhaps repeat, and succeed in the next cycle. Because for everything discovered, it is still the most wonderful and amazing thing, and from recent space exploration, it is quite uncommon too. The way i currently see it, there is the one end of the spectrum, a instinctive creature fully capable of adaptation and survival within its environment with little to no cost. In the middle, intelligence. The ability that puts us above the first, capable of almost anything. Maybe it is the step stone to the end of the spectrum, which i would imagine as the ? Or love/enlightenment stage as it is so commonly called. Either extremes could live, while the middle is somewhat setting itself up for its extinction.

But then there is also the fact that just like the cell in the apple, we may be performing a purpose. And although this unfairness and suffering seems like something that should be solved, it may be a necessary process/experiment which we are unaware of, since we, like the unintelligent animal species do not have the ability. And having it may hinder the process.
And even then there is the very likely possibility that this is all just bullshit pigments of my head, nothing is real, and i am simply a imagination of myself... simple...meaningless...madness lol.

I guess to some of you I be sounding very hippie-ish and even mad, but what mushrooms helped me understand is that there is no normal, and that reality is simply a name for something most of us can relate to, and it is neither negative or positive, so i am not very bothered if seem waaaay out of it, i am just exploring the obvious and not so, and sensory input such as visual wonders, auditory masterpieces, and mind altering substances are simply my tools, with the added bonus that they feel really fucking good

 

my friend told me about this psychatrist who was talking about post avaitar depression. how much bull shit is that