Okay so me and my girlfriend of 2 and a half years are having major problems abou a year ago she started changing and not allowing me to use or smoke and that is not me so i started to use without her knowing which messed things up and she started becoming controllering and i started to feel less like myself and more that we were together just because it was easy or use to it she started kicking me out of our aptment over little fights things you should talk out and work out cuz your living together, that pushed me and i started to talk to one of my old lady friends bcuz she just tried to comfort me everytime and just made me feel how my girlfriend wasnt well i had sex with that girl and cheated on my girlfriend and after that it never happend bcuz i felt horrible a few months go by and we are fighting just as bad every day she would threaten to kick me out of where we moved to bcuz everyone didnt like us fighting well we split up after that for 3 weeks i moved away and i started using and seeing that other girl well i felt very happy to be my own person to be able to do as i choose whenever i want but i did miss her so much . We got back together and i knew she had talk to other guys when we werent together but she didnt anything she says and the girl i was messing around with is jealous and contacts her saying i cheated and what not so we fight and she hold that if i dont change my ways she wont be with me and off and on for 2 months i would live with her and be staying at my friends and grandmothers when we were fighting , we some what worked it out and im living with her we got in legal trouble so i feel like i have to stay with her till court so court works out but she has been threatening to kick me out alot lately i just got a job so it hard to have that over my head every day if i dont know if i will be living here she has just been holding things over my head she wont let go of the past but she acts like she wants us to work out she.. I dont know what to do anymore i want to be my own person to choose if i want to use drugs or not and i cant do anything like that when im with her, i also really care about her i did some very wrong things by cheating but she says she wants us to work so wouldnt she try to forget and move on instead of using it against me. Before this we were madly in love , we were always together never left eachothers side i looked at her and saw perfection past everything is that worth living like this to maybe have that again?
