At the moment I attend a dual enrollment highschool, it's a 5 year deal, in which you start on college for free. I'm 19 and in my fifth year with just over 100 days left! (Thank the stars). So I started my first college art class weeks ago, and a guy I knew ended up having it with me. One day he was telling me about a show that was on the upcoming friday of the week, Prefuse 73, a DJ from Spain. I listened to a little bit of his music, sounded swell, so I decided to go. I am a recovering drug addict and took my old friend Vinnie and some guy named Carl along cause I was driving. Everyone else that I knew that was going were in different cars. Anyways it was a really bad scene for me to be in, because everyone I knew was drunk and on acid. Besides the people I knew that were all fucked up, I got offered weed and booze and asked for shit by other people. Truly felt like I was alone at this show. The music was swell but my experience was destroyed by the atmosphere I put myself in. There is a show on the 12th that I'm going to see, Rjd2 performing in Detroit. This time I am not going down there with any of my old associates, I'm going to bring someone who doesn't get fucked up and who enjoys his music. I already ordered 2 tickets from ticketmaster, and havent quite secured a person to go with me. This brings me to why I was talking about my school. It is in a college campus, just blends in. The high school, or middle college, blends right in with everything else. There is a computer lab in one of the main buildings that the middle college owns. A few weeks back I would be walking down the hall and the door to the lab is always open, so passing by I'd glance in for a split second. I saw a new female staff member whom I'd never seen working in the computer lab. Our eyes locked each time I'd pass for that split second, it was truly a strange thing. It had me thinking "Damn who is that?" Never really thought about it too much as I was more mentally occupied with other females seeing what was what and all at the time. Well a seminar that is required for me came up on my schedule, portfolio development for my senior exit presentation, and it is in that computer lab. So I met her for the first time a little ways back in the past, she gave me my starting materials for the portfolio and helped me finish a bologna Educational Development Plan. Through completing that with me she found out that my goal is to be a fully self supporting independent artist. She was like you know you can totally accomplish that and blah de blah. I had told her I was making and selling t shirts for the past week, my own designs/messages stenciled on shirts I got from GoodWill. I had them on me, so I showed her my huge package hehehe. She really liked them and pointed out a couple designs that were her favorites. She wears smalls, she is quite petite, so she asked if I could make them in her size. I had some smalls so I did just that and sold 2 to her for 20 bucks. After getting to know her (Liz) a little bit, found that she is very intelligent studying to be a micro biologist and obviously she is pretty with long brown hair down to her waist (drools), I would go in there between classes and converse with her even moreso. So the week before last I went to the computer lab to talk to her before my sixth hour started. I walked behind the table and sat down, pulled out my ipod (I always leave my ipod in my room) and looked up at the clock and then down to the back of Liz's head. I was struck with some major deja vu. I spoke right after it happened "Wow I just had the craziest deja vu!" She got up from the computer and we discussed briefly about it with me saying that when it happens, it makes me feel like all my actions are on track and lined up with what is supposed to happen. Then holding my ipod in my hand, I decided to ask, "What kind of music do you like?" She replied, "Everything..Jazz..... The last show I was at was Prefuse 73." I was astounded, I thought she was somehow fucking with me, I said "Are you serious? The last show I was at was Prefuse 73." Both, "The one in pontiac?" "Yep." "Just a couple weeks ago?" "Yep." "WEIRD." Truly a needle in a mountain of a haystack that she would be there because not many people know of him as he is from Spain, underground music anyways to boot. I said I was right about at the front of the stage when Prefuse started performing, she said she was too. We described some obnoxious people at the very front even. I do remember looking at her hair though, completely unaware that that was the young woman that my eyes locked with when I passed the computer lab. So upon knowing this, I told her that I was going to see Rjd2 perform in March. She knew a little bit of his work. I had been looking for someone to go with to the show as you know so I really wanted to ask her to go with me. It has been extremely difficult for me to bring up around her, nervous of how she'd respond. She is technically a staff member at my school so I was thinking that maybe it would be way out of line to ask her to go. I told people about the situation, they responded with, "You're both adults, just ask her." So I was in the lab and wanting to ask her, waiting for the opportune moment the other day (when people were being loud and not paying attention to anything around them, or until it was just her and I in the lab.) So it became loud with people's chatter, and I asked her, "So are you going to the show?" She responds, "I don't know, are you going to Efterklang?" (A show she had just then brought up, that was being held at the same place we were both at before, a few days before Rjd2's show) I said, "I don't know. I have an extra ticket to the show I'm going to." She says, "Ohhh do you?" In a way that totally made me chicken out cause I didn't know what would've happened. I didn't know if she was interested in the ticket, or thinking "Huh this kid is gonna ask me to go with him, wow what a loser." So I left it at that for that school day. Kinda upset at myself that I didn't just get it over with. But the next day I was in the lab again and wanting to ask her, just didn't know how or what to do. I established something by bringing up the extra ticket, I knew that much. I was all goofed out and couldn't bring myself to ask, and felt like a fool, said "Have a good weekend." and went to my car. I wanted to let her borrow an EP that Rj made so she could hear some songs she hasn't heard by him. I was planning on giving it to her in the morning, then as I got to my car started debating just going back up in the school to give it to her, after I already said have a good weekend mind you. So I drove into the parkng lot behind that building and put the CD in a sleeve, got out of my car and walked nervously into the back door of the school. I stopped after I got through the door and was thinking "What the fuck am I doing? I'm an idiot!" Saw a man about to come through the door, and was just "Fuck it." and walked up the flight of stairs and into the hallway the lab is in. She was walking down the hallway! If I would've waited any longer, or went up when I did I wouldn't have seen her in the hall. I said, "LIZ." she turned around and I walked towards her and handed her the CD. Bumbling like a nervous wreck was like "dErrR, it's an EP, deRR." She asks, "Just random music?" I say, "No some songs you havent heard by Rj." So I'm standing in the hall with her and I say "So yeah, I'm looking for someone to go with to the show, I'd totally ask you. I don't want to be with using people this time. I've got that extra ticket, blahdeblah." She says, "Well, I'll have to see if a friend will go with me cause I wouldn't want to go by myself." Fuck me, I'm so indirect about shit when I speak, gosh darndit. So she says she'll burn the CD and give it back to me monday and let me know what the deal is from there. I guess what I've done is kind of test what her response would be to me asking her to the show. Because when I said, I'd totally ask you. I must've been subconsciously looking for a reaction from that. She didn't seem to mind at all or look at what I said as inappropriate. So now I've definitely stuck my toe in the water to see if I have a shot at going with her. Come Monday I am going to see her and be direct with my proposition, probably just ask her, "So are you going to come to the show with me ? Wow, to make a long story longer, I really would like to go with her. She has a very similar musical taste as myself which I've never met any female that has. Especially one that doesnt use drugs. I don't know how old she is exactly, she is 21 or older that much I know. Definitely early 20's. So that is my long story that I hope that at least one person reads and responds to. I know this is the True Love forum, I'm not posting this as, "I'm fuckin in LOVE with her dood.." Just curious as to what happens, if anything, between myself and her. Thank you, I'll update the happenings soon.
Well she said that her sister is moving and she has to help her with that. So I am not going ask about it anymore. People always make up excuses instead of saying no I don't want to go. There is a girl in my art class I was telling about the show last week after class got out. I was saying that I have an extra ticket and have been looking for someone to go with, so I suggested she check out his music and whatnot in case she is interested. She said "Everything." when I asked her what kind of music she listens to. I have been oggling her for a while in the class, and was in class today with her and she definitely seems interested in me. I didn't bring up the show cause I had to be sure Liz wasn't taking the ticket. So the art class is Mondays/Wednesdays so hopefully she shows up to class Wednesday and will go with me to the show. Time will tell. I know for a fact I'm going so that is all swell. I tend to always think after trying to get to know someone, or putting myself out there, "What the fuck was I thinking?" I'd really like to be with someone again. I'm going to try not to get my hopes up about anything special happening. Well that is that, thank you for reading!
