I usually have no desire to trip unless I know Im gonna have to deal and fix somethings about myself, I love the person I've become from psychedelics and havent felt the need to do them for awhile. I don't think any of my trips have not had "bad" moments. I've felt this pure fear you speak of once when I started loosing grip on lsd in a forest at 1 am lol, scared the living shit out of me...nothing else (marijuana excluded) has caused this fear in me.
I think you know better than I about yourself, but I just wanted to say that reading over this list it's probably easy for you to just say "Yeah, I had that shit man". Self-diagnosis is the easiest type of diagnosis to make concerning anything. Either way, you're strong and you'll make it through, I know that much. As others here have said, always around to talk.
Oh Pr0ne that makes you and I both who've been through that mighty list of delusions. They aren't so scary after a while, a trip's a trip and this world is filled with mind blowing mentally-wack shit you'll never be able to really understand or know. Really makes me appreciate the elegance encapsulated in the words "mind over matter". Every snow flake that drops from the sky is completely different and new, and yet still just a flake of snow. I've personally given up trying to categorize and "man the trips", the fist will be pried open every time.
damn, i was planning on smoking dmt on L in a few weeks but wasn't sure if i can handle it. now i don't think i could. i've already seen what too many psychs can do to me, and i don't like it. best to walk slowly among teachers.
you are on the path to nirvana... nothing has a permanent essence. the theory of dependent co-arising in action nothing left to do but smile smile smile because now you know you dont know and knowledge is power... but wisdom is progression
Just as a recap, pr0ne!!!! INCREASE DOSE I told you I couldn't wait for this to happen. It did happen relatively soon too. Take my advice, its what you gave me... There is only one thing to do with an experience like this. And since there haven't been to many people here to have a really bad trip I might be able to give some helpful advice. Learn from it, that is all. Don't let it do anything else major, because right now your feelings about what happened are very strong. Just relax and think about what happened. It happened for a reason and it is a good thing it happened. I feel that this one trip is the single most important one you have had so far. Thank the psychedelic gods and INCREASE DOSE! :/ j/k. Don't do that I do have to say this though, "I told you so".
I did, I even KNEW it was coming. Its a wonderful thing though, having a seriously difficult trip. More learning here than at any other part in my life.
i was having a pretty difficult time on 4 hits of L yesterday. i started to fell guilty about tripping too much and lying to my GF about it. i couldn't stop worrying about when she'd get home (like 5 hours from then) my negative thoughts were manifesting as physical discomfort. i could feel my thoughts spiraling downward, pretty fast and pretty uncontrollably. i couldn't talk myself out of it. so i changed my setting. went walking in the snow for like three hours and that was pretty awesome. not to say it was a bad trip at all, but i see how it could have went there. i probably could have used it as a learning experience if it went really bad, but i'm glad it didn't
That's one thing I like about tripping. It feels more substantial when there are bad parts. In anything real you have to take the bad with the good. I always used to think that a mushroom trip feels like 6 months of life compacted into 6 hours.
this road is like a razors edge that narrows as awareness expands. i feel it too. it is a good thing prone, in it you have the oppurtunity to feel and explore new depths within yourself. what works and what dosent. you gotta charge up your heart and your highest vision of a better way and share yourself with your community. what else is there to do? love the breakdown, its what you've manifested for youself to give you the oppurtunity to break through. lovin you prone.
I guess we are all slipping. I had my first bad trip this weekend on 2ce, I will probably never take 2ce again and I am taking a break for a while. Of course after I watch Alice on mushrooms... But I am taking a break from psyches otherwise as well. And I am on the same page that I am not ready to publicly talk about my experience, maybe sometime, but not now. Prone, you know as always I am here for you. Hit me up if you'd like.
Win some lose some, increase dose & hope for that winner winner. Lol JK, very counter-productive life style if you don't even have the mental capacity to make amends with all those wacky feelings that are going on during your trip. But the good news is - Now that you are well aware of all common delusions, you don't need to act them out blindly. The cores (some combined with others) of basic delusions - Fear, Power, Jealousy, Lust, Greed, Hate, Laziness -- You'll see them acted out in raw performances on these specific branches of drugs if the person falls unconscious during their ego-death transition. I seen this girl tripping demand everybody in the room to give her their money. She did have pinchy fingers too. Zero surprise. This is one of like 25 examples I could probably sit down and think of too of people acting out a delusion while tripping. Mind over matter with tripping, I promise. And smile.
More enjoyable things to do comes with an open mindset, 2C-E is hit and miss, you could try things like diphenhydramine, ginger, or just not eating anything at all before the trip. If that doesn't work I guess your body can't handle it
