Verbal abuse and weight gain (hope this helps someone)

I was in a off and on relationship with this jackass. We first met my sophmore year in High school. We were classmates and he was the "class clown" and for some odd reason he would say the most random, goofiest, dumbest, funniest things I have ever heard (which is what attracted me most to him I love a man with fun and goofy personality). Anyways we became pretty good friends talked to each other alot, then came junior year when he asked me for a kiss so I kissed him on his cheek then he pushed himself closer to my face turned my cheek and kissed me on the lips and we started making out for a while and then he asked if I'd be his girl I said yea. So a few months go by everything is cool and then he asks me if I would have sex with him, I was nervous and a little hesistant but I gave in. It hurt like hell my first time, but afterwards when we had sex on different occasions it felt great. After the first 5 months of dating he starts acting weird everytime I try talking to him he would yell and scream at me, and tell me to get the fuck away from him! and Not to fucking touch him! He even told me that I was fat and ugly! He didn't even open up about our relationship to his family nor to his friends because back in high school I wasn't considered pretty or cool, I was looked at as being very unattractive. But yea he would always talk down to me and at times my friends would find me in the hallway or in the bathroom crying over him. Then to come to find out a coule of months later he has been cheating on me so I broke up with him. Whenever he depressed me I looked at food to comfort me, hell I used to could eat a whole box of pizza and then turn around and eat a whole thing of hot wings to myself. Then a year or 2 later during my freshman year of college we managed to hook back up for a few more months till I find out he's seeing another girl on the side again so ofcourse I broke up with him again but this time I suspected that I was pregnant (because my period never came)and I was asking him if by any chance during sex did the condom break this jackass replies to me N O shut the fuck up about the condom shit, if I wanted anyones baby it would not have been with you! Then he finishes by saying we cant afford no baby right now so if your pregnant get rid of it! So I decided to email his message that he sent to me to the girl he was cheating on me with (as a result she dumped him), thankfully I wasn't pregnant but I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarion Syndrome, due to my eating habits. I kept eating and eating hoping and praying the pain he caused me would go away as a not ony did I have Polycystic Ovarion Syndrome I was 5"7" weighed 245 lbs, but I hooked up with him once more for a few more months then just got tired of him and called it quits. Ever since he left my life for good I built up better self esteem for myself I stopped eating alot and found a new way to solve my depression rather then eating my way out of it I exercise and diet everyday I went from weighing 245 lbs to now weighing 194 lbs. I still continue to exercise b/c I want to continue to tone my body more and reach my weight goal. Anytime I think of he pain my ex has caused me I work harder.

 

What a waste of semen. I'm glad you're moved on from him.. you don't need shit like that in your life.. I have eating issues and PCOS/pre-diabetic as well. He doesn't deserve you.. please don't ever hook up with him again, he doesn't even deserve the cheap thrill.

 

thanks so much damn I wish I had never met him

 

It's ok.. it sounds like you've learned from this situation. You cross paths with certain people for a reason and it sounds like you've come out of it a stronger, smarter person. As much heartache and bullshit I went through with previous bad relationships, I wouldn't change it for the world bc it helped shaped the person I am today. I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have those learning experiences.

 

you know what your right because of the pain he's caused me I look for a man who will treat me with respect, dignity, love me for me, not afraid or embarrassed to be seen with me etc. and at the same time aimed for higher obstacles in my life like my career choices, reversing my pcos.

 

Good for you Just remember.. do it for YOU, no one else...

 

Girl you got that right

 

What a douche. Tell your dad, let your dad kill the son of bitch.

 

You're beautiful, smile beautiful.