So I'm rolling my ass off and I'm just gonna kmeep typing I hope no one I know irl sees this but I guess someone probably will. So today was st patricks dsay parade and we all got drunk but later when we went out again after I ate broccoili casserole and sausages with my grandparents and we went out and bought five good rolls and went and sat in the basement of this building. Now I've rolled a few times before. I've had some good pills and some pipes and methbombs once, but the first time I tried x I had a few lines of pure molly. Fortunately this tasted the same as the drip from that did so I new it was good. I guess this might be turning int a trip report now... So I've been feeling rather depressed for a while and I have a lot of anxiety, to the point that it really interferes with my weed high. To deal with all this I've been taking benzos and thery can give me this deep feeling of inner goodness, feeling as if it was the way I was meant to be. I really love benzos, but they are not a solution. They take away my an xiety and deprssion temporarily and make me feel really good, but they don't solve a lot and I always need more. Tonight, on MDMA, though I feel like only the first time I rolled. I think it has made∑ me figure out how to love myself again and reappriceate life and everyone and everything in it. I was sitting on a bus that's been part of my routine for years and I just realized how much I love that bus. I sit there spilling my coffee on myself every morning and afternoon looking at these people I don't really know but see everyday. That bus ride is my daily meditation and I realzied that feeling so happy on the bus. I even told the busdriver how much I loved the bus. Now I have a reason to get up in the morning again. INstead of waking up feeling awful I'll wake up knowing I can go sit on the bus feeling like I'm rolling. I might want to write more but my attention has shifted somewhere so peace all. <3 MDMA e: wow I'm back I chased 5-10mg of JWH-018 and some kif from my grinder a few minutes back. i jast went to the most wonderful place but I'm back on the amazing internet, the global village of etards I've used quite a few drugs, opiates and benzos and all for escape, psychadelics for exloration, etc, but nothing compared to a really good roll in terms of fixing yer brain. Except now I've got a little headache so I'll take a bit of this huge ball of acetominophin from codeine axtractions. yay pills!
that's awesome you had such a good roll. Quality MDMA is pretty amazing. No other substance provides such positive self analysis of your relationships and life while still keeping your ego fairly grounded.
I'm glad you had a life changing experience on MDMA, it's what everyone needs every once in a while imo. A nice good roll night to explore your inner self.
Yeah. I've still got two more so i want to try rolling with someone I love now. I'm not sure if it's a good idea though. My gf and I smoke sometimes but she's not nearly as into drug culture as me. She's had some bad reactions to drugs and is on seroquel. And by bad reactions I mean really crazy emotional reactions.
I had a small but a bit messed up roll tonight with some dealing chaos but some of the people I was rolling with are trying to have a big mdma trip tomorrow. I still wanna do a bit. Should I be fine with some 5htp or 4hydroxysomething in the morning and a low dose? Also has anyone heard of 1,3 dimethylamylamine? I have a mixture of that random mild stimulant and some seretonin replenishing substance. I was thinking of takign some of that to make my seretonin more balanced+ make the roll better. it's a bit jittery though.
Well we took some b12, 5htp and something my frtiend said to be seretoninergenic and help with mdma and split up a bit more than a gram of mdma. It was a bit weak but we had some rolls, got kemo weed, hash and edibles and cooked all my food. Was alright, but no more E for a while for me.
