i joined this site for a particular reason... that reason is i need the help from fellow stoners to determine, then demolish my paranoid thoughts that i get when i smoke weed. i used to love weed so much, i smoked it everyday, i loved the feeling it gave me, i love that its an herb (not man made!) its just overall the greatest thing. this one day during the christmas holiday of 2009, i did mushrooms. this wouldnt be my first time doing mushrooms, i've done them about 5 times before that, and i love them aswell. i used to chew about 4 grams + when i did them. but this one time i only chewed 2 grams and had the worst possible trip of my life. i dont know if it's because i have anxiety as it is, but something triggered it and i pretty much had a none stop panic attack. what i thought about has effected me everyday single day ever since.. i can't even smoke weed because all i think about is my trip. what i thought about when i was tripping was that drugs are bad! it hought that if my mom found out, if my friends from school found out (which is dumb, because they do shit like this too) they would dispise me! i would be considered a menace to society, what i was doing was not acceptable and i would be put in a drug rehabilitation center.. thoughts like that just kept racing through my mind. i cant do any drugs anymore because all i think about is how drugs are bad! but i love drugs. i love expanding my mind..i cant even do that anymore! summer is coming up, best times to trip! fml. helppp!
While drugs can be used as a catalyst to "expand" your mind, certainly they are not required. Additionally, even when drugs are available, they do not always prove helpful to the user and may hinder intellectual and spiritual progression rather than hasten it. Just be honest with yourself. Drugs are bad; drugs are good. It is not a black and white issue, you need to accept that first.
This is one of the reasons why I hate the fact that weed is illegal. I feel it creates more problems and makes people paranoid just because of the social stigma. If you are paranoid then you have not made peace with yourself. As long as you accept weed in your life as a good thing you will not be paranoid.
If you are paranoid then you have not made peace with yourself. so true! thats a really good way to put it. i will have to work on that.
Take a break, come back when you miss it and appreciate it for all the good things it does. Everyone has bad trips but it's not the drugs fault it's the mood you were in before you took it.
noo i was in a great mood before i took it. its my stupid friends fault, they decided to turn off the lights and listen to trippy stoner metal
Take a nice long break and let your mind figure it all out. Why did you get so stuck on the fact that people would find out? Is it an underlying thought? Why do you care if people find out? Maybe if you really do care than you shouldn't be doing drugs until you can do the more privately. That feeling of paranoia can come to all people tripping, and the only thing you can do is take a bit of a break and let your mind relax. If weed makes you paranoid and zoned out, then don't smoke until you feel ready once more.
i guess myabe because i'm scared of what people would think of me.. i like to think i dont, but i realize now that i really do
I read this last night and thought it was relevant. http://www.lexido.com/EBOOK_TEXT/THE_GAY_SCIENCE/THE_GAY_SCIENCE_THIRD_BOOK_.aspx?S=175
