you know i have posted on many sights about trying to meet someone...ha... some of you will say that love doesnt come when you look for it... or want it. well unfortunately i work so much all i do is go in to there and home for a few much needed minutes in front of the monitor before a bath and bed ready to enter the continum again... where i live doesnt afford me many oppurtunities to meet alot of like minded women... there was a time that i was willing not to be me for the sake of finding that special someone but i cant do that anymore i have to be real to me first... some of you good folks give me hope like apllespark and yogi(aint they the sweetest?) but then sometimes i get down in the dumps cuz i have a monicum of things against me...lifestyle, future goals, etc. etc. i also realise that race plays a big factor as many of my fellow afro americans think im some sort of sell out cuz i dont choose 20 inch rims and cadillacs... even though im half native american i get rejected by them bucuase im not a pure blood! so im stuck in the middle... i want happiness too... i want to enjoy a kiss for no reason and the closeness of a chosen mate.... to feel the magic from making love....enjoy the ups and downs of child raising and in and outs of maintaining a long - term relationship... so at times i wonder what if anything am i doing wrong? i read about women who want nice men,sweet men, whatevr the case and somehow i feel overlooked! why is that? in keeping in conjuction with the forums i am just expressing myself... but all comments are welcomed... i know there can be good vibes and love beuyond a physical attraction... i mean sure i love sex who dont but damn i would just like to meet a girl that wanted sex and more... you know someone to talk to, to share your fears with, dreams with... more importantly the rest of my life with... i am celabate by choice... i want to find not "a" woman but "the" woman! i dont want to keep adding women to a hard to remember list ... nut instead find the one woman i can make love to solely for the rest of my life.... why is that so difficult or am i being unrealistic? has times changed so much that the thought of mating for life is comical or referenced to bald eagles and polar bears? where is she? i dunno just venting getting things off my chest... out of my heart!
this comment is true and false in a sense. I mean it's true cuz i have waited and looked for love many a time. But also it's false cuz when i wanted love and needed it i met my soon to be husband. so it's a matter of time and waiting. This sounds exactly like my fiancee I mean he masturbates before bed, in the shower, and all the while he has me right next to him and he wont touch me in any way. but also where we live isnt that great of a place but hey i still moved in with him cuz its a place to stay. Yea this is a definite yes...... Be you dont try and be someone your not. also i have learned that being honest to yourself and others will attract people in to wanting to be your friends maybe you migh tfind that special someone just by being honest. Also apple spark and yogi are some of the sweetest and most caring people on the forums when ever you are down in the dumps or get sad or whatever just think positive things about yourself. for example: I have a roof over my head food in my belly clothing on my back and I didnt waste money on unneeded things like rims or a chrome exhaust pipe. just keep in mind that oen of the main reasons people buy fancy/gaudy things is to get attention or to make up in area of life that they have failed at. and from what i have read you havent failed in life at all yea your struggling but who isnt? with happines you just have to be around different surroundings and try new things example: if you go to the same night club every week try and go to a different night club or maybe join a fitness club or whatever your pastime is. no your not being unrealistic at all. The media however is so overpowering that it's making yo think that hey being a slut is a good thing. In a nutshell Be yourself, be honest , try new and different things , and most important give love time it takes time to find real love. well i hope that I have somewhat cheered you up and hopefully given some decent advice. *HUGS* Fallen Fairy [/QUOTE]
fallen .... it is for people like you that i continuw to come here and listen to the thoughts of others and know that i am not alone... in my thinking anyways... its refreshing and thank you alot for your kind words on such an emotional powered post.... best of luck with the fiance....
