Lately i have been racking my brain wondering how a mother or father could just ditch there own kids... basicly erase the kids out of there life for good not even a phone call on their b-days.. well this happend to me erased from my mothers life like that with out even a thought. Well because of this bitches inconsieration my life is pretty fucked up... caught in the middle of two families one or the other not both... Father or Mother... how do you make a choice of that magnitude... How will i live with my self if something happends to my baby brother (only 8) because of my asshole brother mark (15)... how will i live with my self if she lets something happen to my baby brother.. am i suppose to be there to look out for him... am i suppose to fight for him.. even if means going to court... Will he ever know the truth about what happend to me... will my mother lie to him or tell him that she kicked me out... If i call there will she let me speak to him letting him know that i didnt leave or abandon him??
I was given the option to live at my friends house or move to Idaho with my father about a year ago... after I fucked up a few times. It was extremely hard for me to understand how my own mother could do that to me. I got arrested twice besides that I never really did anything wrong. It is hard to understand and comprehend your parents decisions sometimes. In the end it has worked good for me living here. When im 18 I will move out for sure though, as it has always been what I've wanted. Don't have to deal with peoples trivial rules, such as not bieng aloud to have sideburns.... My grandfather also lived over near my parents so I would get to see him nearly everyday, he was a Father to me more than anything, he passed away about 3 weeks ago and I hadn't seen him in a month, I only wish I could have spent more time with him, no matter how fucked up your family is to you keep in touch with them, as they are your family. I blamed my mother for a while, making it her fault I didn't see him enough, her kicking me out and all, but It's not her fault I didn't keep in touch with him... thats my fault and I have to deal with it now. anyways thats what I've got to say and good luck.
Aww honey, my heart goes out to you. With my parents, my father didn't want my sister or myself, so it was clear-cut who we would be with. Parents can play nasty games like you're going through to get back at one another, to hurt them, even if they don't intend on hurting their own children. Believe me, I went through it with my parents when I was a child. It's an extremely hard decision for you I'm sure, to pick one over the other. Look deep into your heart, what does it tell you? Listen to your instincts, and go with them. I wish you much luck, and I hope that things will work out for the best. Much peace...
I am sorry I completley feel for you. My dad went between not ever sending me a birthday card when i was a kid and trying to kidnap me from my mom, it was always all or nothing with him. I undrstand on the sibling part to I have 2 little brothers who i adore and think of everyday but I had to make a choice not to see them anymore or take their calls because of the parent we share and my physical and emotional safety. I am glad my mom protected me and kept it at nothing as long as she could. You should try and call your brother or send him a letter make an effort not for his sake but for your heart. Good luck to you and remember that your parents actions have no reflection on you as a person. Sometimes I have a hard time looking in the mirror because I look exactly like my dad but I know that my heart is nothing like his and that's what I have to make matter.
I've experienced the same thing in my life... but early in life i realized my dad was a fuckin asshole and i never really have cared to see him, i've more or less have put it in my head that he's dead. havent gotten a b-day card from him in like 10+yrs..... he didnt come to my graduation(i didnt invite him, but my mother let him know becuase she though it was best if he at least knew) Last time i saw him was 2yrs ago when i attended my brothers funeral and had no other choice but to see him. i have 4 brothers and 2 sisters on my fathers side, and all of them are more or less dead to me, one actually being dead, but he was the only brother i ever wanted to see again(fucked up how life puts little twists in like that, huh)
