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The first time i did mushrooms i took an 1/8. I wanna make my story short. Afterwards I pretty much went insane. I had delusions and such.Though i was god for a little while. Now a year later I hear voices. Im on meds but if i dont take them and smoke pot i lose it. Whats wrong with me? One doctor tried to say I was skitzo and another said i was Bi-polar but a pharmasict told my mom that I just got messed up from the drugs. What could have gone wrong with me? Will i ever be the same?

 

I don't think it was from the mushrooms. My brother is skitzo and hears voices and shit, totally paranoid all the time. That's what your case sounds like to me. Are you on medication?

The mushrooms could have made you break through to have the symptoms, but you may have always had the medical problem although it didn't show. My brothers father got a serious injury and that's what brought out his skitzophrenia, he has been every Looney Tunes character ever since. Yes,, all of them,, at once.

 

Im not paranoid all the time and yes im on meds.

 

He's not paranoid all the time, only when helicopters fly over him or electronics talk to him..

 

anti depressants and anti psychotic meds and much more likely to fuck you up. That is something the pharmaceutical company's don't want you to know, but they are.

Mushrooms could have possibly brought something up in your mind, but maybe that is something you can work past, and learn from. Mushrooms have a way of being a gentle teacher I find.

You should check out a show called Frontline: The Medicated Child, it's a PBS report that might make you think.

 

You most likely had a pre-existing medical condition. Take some time away from drugs, it will help you clear your head. Learn about yourself, find out who you are, and dont worry about what other people think. Your head will clear, give it time.

 

Will the voices and delusions ever go away? And should i stop taking my meds?

 

Before you take what I say to heart, remember that I am not a doctor and I do not claim to have expertise in this subject. I am speaking solely from opinion.

The voices may go away or not, I don't know. With time you may learn to cope with the voices more effectively... I wouldn't recommend going off meds just yet. If the voices and delusions get worse, dont be affraid to get help. Just remember, whether professional or not, others can only make inferences and opinions about what is going on in your head. Research the drugs that the doctor has you taking... find out why you are taking the meds. After learning as much as you can, make your own educated decision about what is best for you.

 

Your safe bro, just stay safe and smoke a shitload of weed. Move if you have to feel safe. Worked for me. I just stopped caring about that. I wore off i guess?

I wish you luck. :cheers2:

 

I didn't get messed up from my last trip, but I am sure as FUCK way different. I feel traumatized though.

 

auditory sensors/receptisites (misspellss.. ugh) and memory sensors are floating around. that what shrooms are good at doin. they mix ur auditory,visionary, n memory sensors. and thats how u could taste that color, hear that chair, feel that thought, and such ..
u guess whats really freakin u out is that u probably experienced synesthesia (the combining of two sensory modalities, such as seeing sounds) - thats pretty much what i mean.
maybe when u experienced this, u had a traumatic experience, that caused much pressure, and u get these "flashbacks" of the traumatic experience. there is much more i can say,

i remember my first time ever, experiencing this "seeing sounds" i got pissed on anyone that talked. i pressured the people by me to not make ANY sound out of their mouth with all the force and i aggression i could. they left me a lone in the porch i was at, to my request: just let me live in your porch for a little, i wont bother. and tripped hard...

what can also be an option is that its because u had no one to entertain u, and u were talkin none-sense to yourself, in your head. it is not one of my favorites, when i talk to myself in my head, goin 100000 miles per hour, and faster n faster. its not a voice, or u talkin in ur brain, its all the "sense" in ur brain revealing in a big chain reaction.

i never heard what u r sayin. might not be caused from shrooms at all. (if u didnt mix it with anythin..) it might be all in u, u might not be the best idle to trip.

 

Traumatized definatly described the way i felt, along with a "oh fuck, how did this happen?" way.

 

i dont think shrooms caused it but may have opened a door......if you're not a skitzo you may be a sensitive.
i've learned to block everything out.i've had doc's say i was a skitzo but i'm not i used to see the dead and hear them talking to me.i never had an imaginary friend i had many friends who didn't want to cross over because they felt they needed to protect their family.
so i'm just saying..you could be a sensitve...could.
but idk..

maybe i was a skitzo..who knows
but i'm fine now,haven't really seen anything or heard voices unless i'm tripping on soemthing..


i really wish you luck and i hope that someday you find the answer you're looking for

 

Aliens say, we would like to go home but some idiot smoked all our fuel..

me sitting on floor clinching dmt pipe..

 

whats a sensitive?

 

Um, yeah?

 

a sensitive is someone who is per say pyschic
but i dont like that word and "being a sensitive" is better
imo

 

What am I thinking?

 

not like that
lol
i was a sensitive as a child and i only spoke and saw the dead
i cant read ppl's minds or tell your future or the otherr "psychic abilities" ppl claim to have.

but like i said i could've been a skitzo
idk it was so long ago and the only time i can see them or hear them now is when i trip so...yeah

 

o.o ummmmm.....