I was sitting in class behind this girl that i went to elementary with, and i just let everything go and did a sort of free thought writing thing In my journal. heres what I found after reading through what i wrote: _--stuff about Sophie's World-- -- " i want to gently, softly, slowly lift her hair back, exposing her tewnder, pale neck and whisper fantasies in her ear, and travel her shoulders with my fingertips, delicately making circles and light bites on her ears. Hold her arms by her wrists, overpowering, then slide my hands in hers, fingers matched up, entwined, like tree branches. I want to touch my fingertips to her forehead, then slide them through her silky, cascading hair, following it through to the ends, then pull my hands back and restingthem on the crook of her neck, between her cheek and shoulder. pause, at her warm neck followed by a kiss on the lips. Pulling away, feeblyfinding their way down to her breasts, where my thumbs softly brush over her nipples, right through her sweater. hands go down again, grasping her hips, fingers through denim beltloops. A firm grip, a firm kiss. one hand slides up, dancing on her shirt until it reaches the top button. Calmly, with curiously, daringly, button after button come undone. My fingers warm up belly button as I kiss the middle of her chest, between ribs and breasts, lips to skin, soul to soul. " ---stuff about High Art--- guys i think im gay lol This si the first time I let my mind just drift there and just write about what I'd never say. Any of you ever experience this? wanting to come out witnessed through a passing daydream?ha that soul to soul shat is really cheesy
i love it. it made me think of a certain girl. great imagery. that's the sensuality that i daydream about when i think of her... it's beauty in its rawest form *sigh*
that is sooooooooooooooo hot. i've written things like that about girls before without thinking, it's one of the best ways to see where you stand on certain touchy tubjects such as this. there's too many things to worry about when you try to approach something regarding love or passion logically and make sense out of it. i know from your posts that you've always refrained from labelling yourself as more than bi-curious, and there's nothing wrong with that... but this piece you wrote shows you obviously have some sexual or at least sensual feelings toward women. embrace the fact, there is scarcely anything more beautiful than the bond two women can share. and uh, if you ever want to explore that further, i'm available...
ha. ditto psyche. that was very nice..."grasping her hips"...something about "grasping hips" always gets me.
oh and to think it could be real too. I mean, the only thing standing in the way is the taboo of the actual "gay action". Her and I always back each other up in philosophy, building theories from each other from across the room. today we chatted in a class where I sit in the seat behind her, and I couldnt break the eye contact. ahh guys maybe I shouldnt come on here. it would be so much easier to deny it all, but then you damned hippie chicks open my eyes to the normalcy of it. thanks for the replies
man that was fucking awesome. I really enjoyed reading that. I write things like that myself... maybe I'll post some of it here one day...
of course others have gone through this. your insides showing their true selves when your guard is down. i don't think we get a choice in who we care or are attracted to.
