Depersonalization

I need some insight here
I have smoked about 7 tiems before, and all of those times I got that nice feeling - euphoric, giggly, safe, (except for the very last time, I had a panic attack, and depersonalization, but i didn't realize that at the time) but last night I smoked (for the first time in two and a half years) and I definately had a separation from reality, and from my body. It was interesting, but I was not euphoric. This morning I did not feel that as much, but i was still feeling strange, and then I kind of got nervous, and I thought I was going crazy. I remember for about two seconds, everything was waving. (that was the only hallucination that I have had) I was getting freaked out that this was not going away. I have been feeling a little better, and i do feel more grounded. When they say depersonalization means that you feel you are 'observing yourself', I know I am not nessecarily doing that, but I am not 100% in reality. It's just really annoying, and I am worried that it will not go away. I think it will go away bye tuesday, but this is just a horrible feeling, probably the worse thing I have ever felt. is this normal? I've just never heard of depersonalization happening with marijuana. I just need some insight. (don't laugh!)

 

It used to happen to me. I have no idea what causes it but you'll definitely come down from it soon enough.

I do remember that it started to happen when I wasn't getting enough sleep, nutrition, and just smoking so much of it.

Not sure how normal it is but if you have a family history of mental illness then I would seriously cut down, bro.

But really, dw, you'll come down from it.

 

no history of mental illness, but my mom and i and my brother have some anxiety problems. When I was high I started to get a panic attack like I last did, but I calmed myself down, and didn't resist it. I turned the burning in your chest into a warmth in your heart. My heart rate went down. So I was really happy about that. I absolutely know I am not going crazy.

Thanks for reassuring that I'll come down from it

p.s. I've been ignoring it and it is kind of going away

 

That's happened to me many many many times. I actually enjoy it though. It's like being caught between reality and a dream. Sometimes I'll be somewhere public and I'll just get these strange thoughts/emotions/feelings, as if I'm not really there. I'll think to myself "is this really happening? Because it sure as fuck doesn't seem real".

 

yes absolutely. It is very cool, but I don't like it because I didn't know what was going to happen next, and it as not something I have ever experienced, or was expecting.

I am feeling like, 99.9% normal now. literally, 99.9% it's great.

 

I am also in a slightly uncomfortable setting... that might contribute?

 

Setting plays a role in it and also the current mood you're in. Weed has a way of highlighting whats already there.

Glad to hear that you're feeling better

 

i used to smoke a lot of weed when i was younger, but ever since i ate a box of triple c's when i was about 17 i havent been able to smoke weed and feel right... any time i smoke now i have a panic attack or get real paranoid thinking people are looking at me and thinking they are making fun of me or something... my palms and head sweat immensly... but before those triple c's i used to smoke down... it seems almost impossible to say that those had some kind of effect on me mentally lol but hey it could happen i guess

 

It happens to me when I do not eat enough, or drink enough water.

 

Triple c?

 

cough cold and congestion i think... its a otc drug with dxm in it... if you eat a whole box of it then you trip the fuck out... not a good trip imo... i hated it... i was all fucked up as in i couldnt walk and was constantly puking... i think i was about die for real

 

they took them off the shelves i think or you have to be 18 to buy them anymore cause so many kids were getting fucked up and dying from them

 

triple c's are retarded to use recreationally- there are SO many DXM only products, why would you choose one with an additional deadly ingredient?

anyway, I had depersonalization disorder for over 2 years... it's gone away now but I lived with that uncomfortable sensation 24/7... was all triggered by a weed brownie, and i was too afraid to smoke again but the feeling persisted... eventually i started smoking and doing lots of drugs and it's gone away now

 

believe me that was the one and only time i ever did that... it was kind of a peer pressure thing... and yes i myself will say that it is one of the most retarded things to ever do... i was 17 young and dumb... i really am lucky that i didnt die that day

 

havent really tried any other dxm drugs since to be honest... are there any out there with less lethal side effects that you might recommend

 

I'm really glad you're feeling better! did you get depersonalization any other time? It was probably because you ate it too. Is it wierd that I felt this with 4-5 hits of some good stuff? Not awesome stuff, just good.

Now I still have that feeling in the back of my head, but it is getting better. I've noticed that I am sensitive to bright lights and fast movements.

 

sometimes weed makes me really apathetic does that have anything to do with this haha.. but that might just be me because i recently took a 3 week break and nothing changed?

 

I know when I smoked to much one time, I started flipping out, everything got really load and I felt like I was falling off a cliff I could not sit still I kept walking around my house I would walk in my room then I would go down stars and walk around the living room go in the kitchen I tired drinking warm mill to calm down I tried to take a shower but we had very little hot water, I found out latter I got my meds mixed up too and took to much, and that might have something to do with me flipping out, ever since then That falling feeling comes in and I have to move around to stop it. it hard to explain

 

lol

 

If you started to think you were crazy on pot, you should probably keep looking into it. Maybe the weed just helped you realize you were fucked up. it's happened to me, don't go blame it on the drug then keep going about being crazy if you don't like it.