Late at night, when I'm alone, all this stuff swirls around in my head. My ex got raped and I feel responsible for it, my current girlfriend was molested before I even knew her and I've somehow found a way to make myself feel responsible, I have a lot of enemies around town because we're the only ones who will stand up to "the cool kids" (who happen to have molested my current girlfriend before I knew her, so I refuse to mess with them anymore), and I have this other feeling that I don't know what it is. What the fuck. This shit doesn't happen to people in real life. My ex was raped and she got pregnant without telling me when she was out of state for a long time. She gave up the baby to make sure I wouldn't leave her even though I told her not to, so I feel like it's my fault she lost her baby. And she never let me see him, or be there for the birth. During and after that time she got her kicks out of making me feel suicidal by making a game of picking me up and knocking me down. Then I got my new girlfriend and she's great but she has this psycho ex that won't leave her the fuck alone. And i want him to go away but I can't tell her to make him leave. She's going on vacation by where he lives this summer and I'm terrified he's going to hurt her and yet another instance of rape or something will be on my conscious. I'm 17. The fuck? Honestly. God damn.
No offence, but are you an emo? You are obviously not responsible for what happened to them. How come you feel like that? All you can do is being supportive, which you apparently have. Does your current girlfriend's ex talk to her against her will or she doesn't mind it? If it's the 1st option I'm sure there are ways for her to get rid of him (erase his contact; not pick his calls up; tell him to fuck off; etc.)which makes me wonder if it's not actually the 2nd.
I know how you feel I always use to find some way for everything to be my fault. Its not your fault that any of this happened. Your ex shouldn't be playing mind games with you, because you didn't force her to give up the baby. Don't feel bad that she did though, honestly if I were raped I couldn't ever go through the effort of being pregnant and wanting to take care of it. I would have had it aborted. I think you should talk to her family back were she is going and tell them that they need to make sure they keep an eye on her for her safety.