Why is it so Damn Hard to Make The Decision?

I crave for a change, for a fresh start.
After a decade in advertising and digital marketing (yeh yeh tv, google, facebook, blogs, twitter, banners and all this SHIT) I have had enough! I don't find it interesting anymore.

I crave for a change, to reconnect with nature, with the road, with the tau. So why is it so damn hard to make the decision, to take a bag, to hitchhike, to wander from place to place, to get to know new people, new countries?

It's always about the fears, the wishes and the fears.
36 is too old to become a rainbow guy, a hitchhiker.
What people would say? He lost his mind, just throwing it all away...
Should i take my laptop with me?
Will I be back? And then what?

 

I might be only 14, but I can be 14 and wise, right?

36 is still young, man. And age is just a number. It doesn't limit your options. As for what people think of you, who cares? Don't live your life to please anyone, because for one thing, life is for living, and living the way you want to live, and for another, the only people who are worth pleasing will be pleased just because you're happy...what makes you happy won't be of significance to them. If they truly care, they'll trust your judgement and respect your decisions.

Your body and soul are very similar in that when you need something, they tell you. If your body needs food, you will feel hungry. If your soul needs nature and the road, it will crave it, just as it's doing now. Your heart is clearly telling you to go for it whilst your mind is telling you not to; your mind is influenced by society, but your heart is influenced by love. If you have a love for nature and the road, then go live the dream because it may be the only chance you have!

Life is too long to spend doing something you hate and too short to put off doing something you love. Chase your dreams and follow your heart man, it can only lead you to good things!

Wishing peace, love and happiness your way,
LPM eace: <3

 

Thanks LovePeaceMusic
Apparently we don't get wiser as we grow up only cowards.
The only thing I'm missing is one step, one Yes.

 

your feet upon the earth and on your way - ok - then listen for another yes because twice is nice .

 

Thanks ticoo for your yes

 

rather , the important second yes comes to you actually when on the road . it's the real confirmation . it could be some little bird that does it - whatever . chirp . rainbow tweet .

 

It's never to late to follow your heart. And I should know, I was older than you when I went back to my natural path on mother. May your journeys be safe, may your path bring you to enlightenment.

 

Sounds like a great second yes
A few practical issues are bothering me right now:
1. to sublet my rented apartment or just packing it all and leave?
2. to take my laptop with me or totally disconnect?
3. am i being over dramatic?

 

If I didn't have a one year old son my ass would already be on the road. A friend of mine and myself were supposed to do this the summer before I knocked my woman up. And man I have regretted not doing it since. I met this guy name Leif who's a old school hobo, he was from somewhere out in the midwest and had arrived in my hometown from CT via hitchhiking. He was probably the most free man I have ever met in my life. He had been in every state except Hawaii, and many different countries. And he didn't hit the road until he was like 30, and he was 46 when I met him. Said it was the best decision of his life.

 

Thanks luvione. I know I'm being pussy, but you brought tears to my eyes

 

Thanks MosesReeds. I could be that guy To be border-less, on the go, discovering new places, sounds like a dream to me. A good friend of mine left Israel after he got released from the army, and since then for about 15 years have been travelling around. I always was very jealous at him, looked at him as the free spirit that i could never be. Could i?

 

I'll throw in a yes..
And a few answers.. though, my opinion.
Pack it up and leave.. though, having a place to fall back too is nice, but it leaves crap to worry about. I hate having to always worry about my vehicle when I'm 3 miles away from the nearest road and I want to stay hidden for a few weeks. A place.. would be more of a worry.. why worry?
Laptops, are nice.. but a pain to worry about too. I found it easier just to wander into an Apple store when I'm in a city and check up on emails and stuff. Plus, the extra 5lbs of a laptop could be food, or hobbies.. in my case, that's my rock hammer.

Find yourself a road dog (person.. and maybe a canine too), good for company and watching over stuff. When you have to run into a store, and leave you're pack outside.. yeah.

36 is never too old. You got 10 years on me brother, but age doesn't mean crap. Wisdom is greater then age, even though it comes with age.. supposedly. I've traveled with people twice my age, and hung out with people twice you're age that get around with their packs.

Have fun in Amerika first.. see some sights, get used to the life-style. Then work on getting out of the country. I've done the entire south side of the nation from east to west. Working on most of the north this summer.. after that, getting the hell out of Amerika before shit hits the fan.

 

1. to sublet my rented apartment or just packing it all and leave?

Do you feel as if you'll be going back there once you discover/rediscover life on the road?

2. to take my laptop with me or totally disconnect?

Do you have any other way to keep in touch with your friends/relatives? Do you want to remain at least slightly connected with society? Do you want to continue taking advantage of modern technology or do you feel your life would be richer without it?

3. am i being over dramatic?

No, it's normal to feel this way when making such a big decision. After all, you're abandoning what you know to chase what you believe will make you happy. But chill, where there's a will there's a way and if life on the road turns out differently than you envisioned, returning to your life as it is (or almost as it is) is still possible.

Peace, love, and luck.

 

We all get rather bogged down by responsibility and what we should do. If you are feeling wanderlust and can do so, then you probably should.

I have rarely ever heard people say they regret trying something new, if nothing else they usually learn something from it. I have heard far more people say the regret not having done or tried something they wished to.

Good luck.

 

Its not hard, youre making it hard. All anything takes is a positive attitude and a bit of initiative. At 36 you should have enough of an idea of where you life has been and where it needs to go. If it feels right then do it. Just need to take that first step and deal with the consequences as the arise.


:cheers2:

 

No my dear, you are not bein a wimp. Tears are not just for children or sisters, we all have a right to have tears. Change is scary,
but free will is empowering. Sure theres times when it isnt all roses and kindness, but these are learning experiences. There is a saying " God doesnt put more on your plate than you can handle."
I have had many heartaches in this life, but it makes me stronger, not weaker. I am blessed to wake up every day on this beautiful wonderful planet.
Be true to yourself, true to your path, it is the only way to live. And for goodness sake,,, Have FUN!

 

Thanks SandDollar: I agree - I will leave the apt., no laptop, and will find a dog road
My destination is Europe, though America could be great.

 

Dear LovePeaceMusic. Thanks for your response. I think i should give up the thought of returning to my life as they are now, and create something new
Where will you spending this summer?

 

Thanks Heat for the perfect 'elevator pitch'.
Me too have rarely heard regrets of trying something new, and i sure do have many regrets about things i should have or could have done.
All the best, Guy

 

Thanks luvione.
To have fun???
I'm so bored right now with things i do, with myself, with my repetitive bla bla bla thoughts. I'm aiming to make a change.