Worst Trip Ever

Last night I had the worst trip of my life. Everything started out good untill I started to feel really depreessed and lonely. Then out of nowhere I started crying and I couldn't stop. All I remember thinking was how much I wanted my trip to end. I couldn't stop thinking all these bad negative things that I normally would not think. This went on for about two hours then as fast as it came on it stopped. I stopped crying and I felt happy again all of a sudden. I will never trip on shrooms again.

 

never? don't say that. give it time...mushrooms have a tendency to be a little bit more intense in a slightly negative way than other psychs, the next batch will probably not do that

but if you feel that is best for you, go for it, and let lucy reign

 

Hey, it coulda been worse.

You could have ended up naked in the streets at 2 AM, frantically waving down cars so you can inform them that the world is ending. Then the cops would show up and you would run away screaming because you can't be locked up in a jail cell knowing the secrets, could you?

 

In my head it was bad...never again, never I don't care what anyone says, never.

 

I've done shrooms several times before this and I have never had a bad trip. And I was at home.

 

I know the feeling of not wanting such a night again, but in the end at some point I felt like taking another mushroom trip and it went perfectly well. Just wait until you feel like it again, I think I didn't had them for about two years :biggrin:
Pretty normal to want to stay away from them for awhile after a bad experience

 

It definitely could've been worse. I've pissed spiders and shat myself. Just hang in there trooper!

 

I had bad vibes about this trip. You seemed a bit nervous almost like you some doubts from the beginning .

I am just glad you are fine now.

 

Man, that sucks but sometimes your mind needs to show you those things... you'll be aiight.

 

The thing to ask yourself now is, "were the thoughts accurate and relative to my life?"
Most often bad trips are the result of us not wanting to face or acknowledge aspects of our self. Those can be some of the most rewarding trips in the long run.

But I have also gotten stuck in negative thought loops that had no substance in real life, and it really does suck big time.
Mushrooms do seem to be more prone to inducing negative experiences than any other psychedelic.

Take time to process the experience if it was a self-revealing type of trip. If it was just bad thoughts that you know had no basis in real life, let it go and move on.

 

Some of them were and some were not, it was really confusing

 

Sucks doesn't it. and I bet that the worst part was the intense emotion attached to every thought whether it was appropriate to the thought or not.
At least that what happens to me on uncomfortable shroom journey's.
Emotions so strong they cause physical pain.

Take time to process it but don't become overly obsessed, it was after all a drug induced experience.

 

can you describe the thoughts?
You said you were alone and depressed.

Are you depressed because you're lonely?

It doesn't have a negative thing. If you can turn it on it's side and see the 'humour', it's quite alright. 'Loneliness' feels like such a negative word but maybe it's not so bad.
It's paradoxical that so many people are alone -
Many people, on the internet, sharing their lonliness, together....

Maybe you want to be in a relationship like everyone else seems to have...
Maybe you are in a relationship and still feel lonely...

*hug*

There's no need to feel unloved

 

shouldve taken advantage of it and worked through those subconscious feelings....the mushrooms took you to a place of potential growth and healing, the best thing to do wouldve been to embrace it- and dig deep down to possibly realize and make peace with whatever the truth behind those emotions was.

 

just curious, how much did you eat?

i've only eaten 3.5 grams or less, but my strongest trip on a particularly potent eighth resulted in an hour or two or something like you describe, on the comedown.

my friend and i ate an eighth each (his first time - a mistake) in my backyard one summer day. all was great until he decided to face-plant into my pool from the deck..with all of his clothes on. after we went swimming, we were attacked by bugs. for real. i live in the middle of the woods at the time. so we go inside, and just get bored kinda, have nothing to do.

i looked in the mirror and "saw all this sadness in my eyes" that's all i could say, but it felt much deeper and more meaningful. we both noted that we felt like we yearned for a female presence. maybe we were scared and 'wanted our mommies'
i also thought my dog was lost (he was never chained up, but always came running when i called. i guess that day he was just on an adventure of his own)
we were laying on my kitchen floor just moaning and making "bleeeeeeeeeh" sounds. it felt kinda good to embrace the darkness. i dunno, this is all sounding weird, but it was.
then we walked around kicking dirt and complaining about hearing machines and noises. (they were real as well, bulldozers and shit in the distance, when i live in the middle of nowhere)

not to hijack your thread, maybe you can relate to this^^

i never determined it to be a sign of anything important. my friend has some issues, and it was irresponsible of me to feed him a whole eighth, especially of those shrooms. he tripped "too hard" from half a hit of L

 

I ate three grams. I just had really negative thoughts about my life. I had doubts about my whole life. I realized how much I hate my mom and I realized how much I hate the town I live in and the people in it

 

I do have anxiety proplems, but I have pretty much had it under control lately. I think that's why. I haven't had shrooms in years and since then my anxiety has gotten worse.

 

but were the negative thoughts accurate and true, even if it's hard to admit to yourself?
That is where learning and growth can occur.

My most recent meaningless "bad" thought loops was after I dropped my 16 year old daughter over at a friends b-day party. Got home and ate three grams of shrooms. About two hours later I got obsessed with the thought that my daughter was being held against her will and being raped.
Total nonsense as there was a lot of girls and boys she has known since 4th grade, and I knew most of them. Rationally I knew that she was just fine, emotionally I was in torment and could not shake the nonsense thoughts no matter what. 3 hours later she got home and she was fine. Then the thoughts went away and I enjoyed the rest of the experience as best I could.

That is what I meant by nonsense thoughts that have no basis in reality.
From what you say it sounds as if you were presented with some hard personal issues to deal with. Mushrooms are really good at doing that. They dredge up emotions from the darkest corner of your soul and put them before you and kind of say "what you gonna do about it?"

 

But easier said than done when it's unexpectly gets to you after having tripped a few times without any trouble.

 

ive tripped more times than i can count, and i've had just as many so called 'bad' trips as i have had good trips...

i dont fight where it takes me, i flow with it and embrace what comes however painful or seemingly negative it may be.

it is what it is, and so shall it be, you cant turn it off so why not face it and embrace it?!


i do understand OP's feelings though, and sometimes the realizations from those trips came later, in the moment though i know its hard to see the forrest from the trees...i dont mean to sound flippant or arrogant by any means, and i feel bad for may queen in a sense cause those trips can really fuck with your head, be strong lady and don't fear the shrooms- they are your ally.