I just do, it turns me on. I can't leave it behind. My heart is full of light, and I think that's my natural state... but over the years my mind has picked up so much darkness.. and I like it there. It serves it's purpose, it makes me strong. It gets me high. Will this morbid fascination hinder my advancement as a person? Or is it a needed part of me? Shadow is cast from light, and light needs darkness to exist. What am I to do with these struggles in the lack of religion or ideology? There is a spirituality to me, but it is so raw and unguided. And it's against my nature to follow any set in stone theology that would save a normal person from swimming in this chaos of thought. Will I find my absolution in nothingness? Or am I just wasting time? What does any of this really even mean?
it means pass the dutch. i get it. i live with it. but i dont bathe in it so much, remember that complete darkness can be iscolating, suffocating and lack of vitimin D causes depression
Eh, I'm pretty sure I've moved beyond depression. I was depressed for a very long time from teen years upwards. Right now, I'm not happy with my current state of being.. but I'm not remotely depressed. Actually, quite optimistic and hopeful. And I disagree with you. I like being a contradiction of light and darkness. My humanity needs some system of checks and balances.. and seeing as I'm too confused to actually believe anything it's working for now.
darkness might be seen as yin; undisturbed, mysterious, cold, subective, shady, pasive feminine. Where as light might be bright, hot, aggressive, invasive, masculine etc. In these times, i think it's importand that we shift away from a overly masculine world filled with war and environmental destruction into a feminine world. so I'd say, your darkness is good. =)
I didn't write this. I was in the river when this post was made. All I love is pussy and wild turkey. And later I might take a dip.
