I hate my life.

You're an adult, and I assume you're healthy. The fact that you have nothing is scary, but it also means theres nothing to limit you. You don't have a kid to take care of. You don't have a house to pay off. You just have the bright blue sky, the sun, and your wits.

There are always options.

 

Polk county is a shit hole to say the least. I think if I had friends that gave a shit or just someone to hold me and tell me everything is gonna be alright it wouldn't be so bad. I used to be so talented, I played guitar, bass and violin but now I don't even feel inspired anymore. I feel so alone so empty and useless. I don't even feel pretty anymore.

 

You are absolutely right. But I am afraid of being alone, that is my biggest fear. If i leave i will b all alone

 

Are you not feeling alone already? You have isolated yourself from friends, family and possibly your partner. Maybe if you work on those then the joy will come back in other things in your life.

Wishing you the best
Take care of you.

 

If your life's so unbearable, maybe you're alone anyway?

The benefits of being alone can be strength. Then in the future when you create new relationships, they aren't out of codependancy, but mutual respect.

I'm not in your shoes, I don't know what you should do. But you probably deserve to be happy, and you're the only one who can give that to yourself.

 

One can't be happy with others, until they learn to be happy by themselves. I left Florida with people of similar mindsets, but I experienced a lot of time alone. Sometimes it's hard to come up with an agenda or motivation to do stuff alone, but once out there, it's nice not having to worry that you're actions might make someone else unhappy (ie, relationship baggage). I stood a whole day somewhere north of Santa Cruz last year after being ditched, just juggling on the side of the road cause I couldn't figure out what to do.. and well.. having people smile at me being goofy made me happy. I hated being alone, hence why I probably stayed in a miserable relationship for 8 years.. but I came to terms with it. Just had to figure out what I used to do when I was a kid before relationships came into play, pick up a sling and start launching rocks at tree's, and whistle annoying tunes through the streets. I did a lot of walking.. but I do that anyways.

Polk County, haha.. that's the worst one next to Escambia.. or something like that. Man you have some fucked up local legislature stuff going on there..

 

Yeah I know tell me about it...and meth. I called the cops last week because I went outside to do laundry and saw the next door neighbor in our yard and when he saw me he jumped over the fence(our yard is fenced in and we keep it locked) and the cops didn't even come out. I had to call three times and still they just drove by didn't even get out of their cars. I wish I had the balls to just pack a bad and start walking but I don't at least not yet.

 

Hmm, maybe you should reconsider the walking part until you're outside of meth county.. on that thought. I've watched some insane meth crap.. I've been close to stabbing a few of em cause of it. I gave a meth head an option once who was gonna rob me bare fisted.. he bid me a good day after I tapped my throwing knife and rock hammer on either side of my pack. I spent the rest of the day laughing..

 

life sux all over only u can make u happy

 

Get a Dog......

 

walk it off pussy

 

Expect much advice from the gurus of happiness but don't doubt that they too suffer.

 

Everyone suffers, from time to time. Life's a bitch, so slap that ho:tongue:

 

Stop the world. I want to get off.



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I'm so sorry you are feeling so down, Mary.
I've never been in your shoes so I don't have any magic words to tell you.
The only thing I can guarantee is to give you all the support I can, and to keep good thoughts for you in my heart.

 

You're really going to give her a %100 of your energy for support?

 

just draw!

 

I will give her all the support I can. I won't measure it. I have been concerned and sending good thoughts since she posted some scary shit the other day.

 

I wasn't asking if you were able to quantify your support, i was asking "are you full of shit?".

That's nice, but is that really all the support you could give her? and how solid is your guarantee?

It sounds like a heavy crucifix, do you really think you could carry it even if you wanted to?

 

I have a dog