I had a dream in which I was part of some kind of society and was being interviewed by a reporter, only I was seeing myself from the view of the reporter for some reason. I remember saying "you would think that in a place where everyone grows their own food there is less cooperation and everyone is selfish. This is bullshit. When everyone has everything they need, they are more likely to share. So we have a tribe like mentality here and everyone is your friend. In a free market world the guy walking down street is not your friend, he's the guy who's gonna steal your job or get the pay rise. You don't rely on cooperation but competition." And then I woke up.
What you said in this dream sounds awfully true. I think you're hoping and striving for something better and I hope you find it.
i wish more people had your dream. i wish alot more people had this dream. or better yet, get interviewed by reporters like this in reality. or even better yet, interrogated and then educated. are you looking for a meaning? like what it means for you?