Multiple sex partners and relationships hot and steamy with a touch of guilt

Why is one partner never enough? I have convinced myself time and time again that I can do the relationship thing and every time I try I fail. I wind up breaking someones heart when my intentions at the beginning were good and real.

It is not like the guy I chose to be in a relationship with and honestly convinced myself he was the one, wasn't a great lover, he was one of the best hell that is one of the reasons I chose him. I tried to behave and did things like take dance to entertain myself and low and behold there is my instructor who dances so close and smells so good and next thing you know we are ripping our clothes off having hot steamy sex in my living room. It is the story of my life. I have never had one night stand in my life they always turn into relationships so instead I wind up in multiple relationships.

I love men and sex so much that I have this fantasy of creating my own Cult of enslaved lovers that depending on the day I can choose the flavor I want. I am not sure if I have intimacy issues because I long to have a partner that I can settle with and love. In fact, I feel like I do love them I love them all.

Another thing I get no personal pleasure from this perhaps that is the problem an orgasm is rare and on occasion. I can easily make myself orgasm and I noticed once I have reached that state with a lover it is like next....like a challenge of sorts.


Anyone have such experiences?

 

Maybe you should stop concerning yourself with the relationship and just be single for a while?

 

Prison.

 

mmm buttsex..

 

You sound like a girl with a nice appetite for sex... You should probably stick to the one night stands even though you seem to like relationships. Can't say I blame ya. Have you considered polyamorous relationships where you can have several partners?

 

i dont think anyone would be okay with that

though i do seem to know a girl who is a lot like you... im wondering where this goes. good thread

 

Find someone who is ok with an open relationship.