2 years Relationship help (long)

Me and my boyfriend are pretty young we are in our teens. We have been going out for 2 years and A lot had happen between us over time.

We met online through mutual friends. He left me for his ex girlfriend. Ever since we met (online) he told me he loved me. We talked on the phone for 7 and 5 hours a day for 3 mouths before we met. Meanwhile he was still messing around with his ex girlfriend and this other girl. Before we met he made out with the other girl and he was trying to choose between me and her. Then once we finally met and he went with me.

After we had met. I felt it was right for me to have sex with him we both were virgins so i felt i had to make my mark so we did it and I loved it I don't regret it(we still have unprotected sex till this day and its just sex or ****ing .. I want to make love..). Meanwhile he was still friends with the other girl but he stopped talking to his ex girlfriend till this day i find weird.

Everything was great until he befriended a girl who i had a bad pasted with.
They became friends, like I stated... and she introduced him to her friends. He never met her or her friend because like me them met online but he did planned on meeting her( he didn't because that would have killed me and his dad told him it wasn't a good idea). I felt betrayed by him for doing that in addition he hit on her friends. This happen in january and till this day there isn't a time when i don't think about it or question if he was telling the truth about him not liking the other girl. I told him I didn't want him to talk to them and he got mad because he claimed I was "taking away his friends" but he would stop talking to them and then start talking (lying to me) to them this went on till May :-( and he finally stopped.

( i feel like he doesn't get the pain he put he through.. He acted like he loved her and dogged me and throw away my feelings)

It became hard for me to trust him. Till this day its hard and I have weird feelings all the time.. I hear so many different stories. His family says he loves me but there is a difference between loving and being in love.

He asked me if he could go to prom with (the girl who he was choosing between me and her) he didn't go. But He went to the mall with her because she is going off to college. but It was kinda okay because I hung out with a pass flame of mine who came into town. (three days before for he went out with her)

Idk everything is good for a week or two then something happens. IDk what to do I love him soo much but I hate him at the same time. What should I do. (I've tired to cheat on him like make out with a guy and flirt but I couldn't do it I never want to hurt him) I think we have different views on what's right and wrong. Idk
Just help me with advice.

 

Your relationship sounds like a mess. I would start by writing down your entire relationship from the very first to the present, then read it to yourself once a day until you see the light.

 

Break up.

 

This guy is not worth your tears.Leave before he does.

 

i think you should break up too