LSD/DMT combo Ego Death/Mystical Experience

This is an older one - an LSD/DMT trip with my husband from Halloween, 2009, but i felt it might be worth sharing. Please note that at this point i did not have a vaporgenie and was simply freebasing out of a crack pipe:

As seems to generally be the case, when i combine DMT with LSD it is the DMT trips that are the stand-out parts of the LSD trip.

As we were coming up we vaporized DMT. i had some yellowish-white, oily residue in my pipe that looked like 15-20 mg max (though I am not confident at my eyeballing skills) and added another 45 mg. i had not yet had a breakthrough combining these two molecules in my brain and thought i'd try for it . . .i tried to ready myself for anything.

We had a dual-recliner couch to launch from and the recliner seems an ideal position. It already feels like you might be in a rocket . . .So, i took about three good hits before i had to surrender the pipe and torch to my husband. i was completely loosing it. My body was very frozen and slow-mo and the room was dissolving and breaking up into watery waves. i could hear the carrier wave sounding steady and building in the distance in my right ear. When i can hear that sound and i am still in the room i know on every level of my being that i am really going to be in for it this time.

According to my husband (i do not recall this at all), i gasped, "Oh God!" as i handed him the pipe and lay back.

i closed my eyes, relaxed a bit and BOOM! No lead up. No one minute of feeling increasing heartbeat, vibration, psychological pressure, etc. No struggle, no resistance possible. No heartbeat, no breath, no body. No ego. No self. No history. Very little memory. i did not remember that i had just smoked DMT and launched from a reclining position on my couch next to my husband of 21 years. i was dead.

i was dead and could feel the ecstatic, mystical energy. i was dead and did not care - it did not bother me. i did not have to relax into it or tell myself to try to relax and hope for the best. Timelessness, playful, insane, higher dimensional. No life as we understand it in this realm was here. Yet everything was alive, everything was synesthetic

There was frenetically and delightfully energetic and visible music here, very weird, ethereal and highly distorted. The music created the landcape or "reality." The reality was preposterously colored. The background color was a deep, saturated blue, having it's own inner light source emanating equally radiantly from each and every point. No light was coming from the "sky" or any particular direction. All areas of this reality had colors that glowed brightly with their own inner light.

The texture and layout of this reality I can only begin to describe as triangular or pyradimal. The land was not flat. It spiked and jagged up and down in triangular and pyradimal "mountains" all around.

Yet, the overall impression was one of being on a large athletic field for some unknown reason. Visually, I do recall seeing some white lines on the (like yardage lines on a football field) blue, jagged field. So,these white yardage lines created strips (though in a 3-D jagged mountain environment) of blue background reality.

There were playful entities everywhere! The fabric of the place was partially composed of moving, varying, 2-D, ayahuascero type art "primitive" figures. Very small, colorful figures, very small entities, dancing and moving around in small arc-like configurations all around me on this white striped, blue triangle-mountain field of timelessness.

This festive and good-humored realm didn't exhibit, it was The Perfect Synesthesia. Everything was synesthetic, with the audio input of the music being the focus. The blue triangle mountains moved up and down, left and right, pulsing synesthetically in time with the music. The tiny multi-colored, 2-D entity figures moved in upside-down shaped U arcs.

Although the surface of the "reality" and the tiny entities were 2-D, the fabric of the triangular/pyradimal landscape was deeply 3-D and hyper-dimensional. So, there would be little pyramid shapes popping up and out synesthetically to the music, while the 2-D entities would frolic on the triangular surfaces of the mountains. The mountains would be anywhere from inches to miles high. They not only came out of the "ground" but also the "sky," the "walls" and the other mountains themselves.

i saw a four-legged, 2-D animal-like entity arcing near me and thought of cats. As soon as the thought occurred, a small off-white stick figure like entity appeared holding a square-shaped "purse." Out of this purse arced an orange, 2-D kitty which started dancing and prancing in arcs. All entities/objects were smiling, radiating joy, rapture and energy. The Perfect Synesthesia in a timeless, numinous, stunning, higher dimensional realm that was farther beyond the world of the living than we are from the Andormeda Galaxy.

After a few consensual reality minutes i began to come down. At first there was no change in the vision or ecstatic feeling. Instead, it involved a partial return of ego and memory. The moment i realized i was on a DMT trip, the synesthesia became intensely tactile as well as visual. All of a sudden, aspects of the music started being perceived by my reconstructed self as strings or spider webs dripping and vibrating onto my face and head. This was my least favorite part of this experience. i am not a big fan of tactile hallucinations. Nontheless, i am very grateful for this particular experience as it was yet a new way to experience synesthesia.

i began to come down back into my body. i was amazed. i was ecstatically energized. i was alive! Absurd. Unbelievable. Each breath was a sweet miracle. Even better, my soulmate/husband was right there next to me. Bliss! "It's great to be alive!" i gasped.


Later on during the trip we came to the peak period and decided to vaporize DMT again. Due to visual distortions i had trouble vaporizing the 35mg plus residue and got a poor first hit. With my husband's help i was able to get a monster second hit and decent third hit.

i lay back, closed my eyes and saw ripples of blackness. No real color. i felt myself floating up and out of my body. The ripples were fading and the blackness was becoming complete. i was floating. My ego/self were gone but i was not dead. i had no memory, no history, no self, no mind and no ego. It was just that these things did not exist, had never existed. How could something be lost or dead that had never existed in the first place?

i was floating in a sea of thick, liquid warmth. . . floating and rocking. There was nothing to see. It was mainly just a feeling of warmth, comfort, floating and rocking. Everything was taken care of. i had no needs or concerns or self. i was no one, nothing, not even a mote. There was no thinking or language here. It was all about a feeling.

i can only surmise that i wound up back in the womb somehow. There was no birth or light. Just darkness, comfort, floating in viscous liquid . . .a most unusual experience indeed.


The rest of the trip was wonderful, but again, it is the DMT that made it perhaps one of the best trips of my life . . .

Peace & Love,
Spicey Cat
Purrrrrr!

 

Amazing trip report! Did your username originate from this experience.

 

Very nice report. It amazes me that people can describe these experiences.

For me, the experience is so far from my normal state of mind, that it's hard to even describe to myself what happened. (I can't describe it in words or visually in my mind or anything. I just don't have vocabulary for it in my normal state of mine...not just verbal vocabulary...nothing.)

But, when I read some reports, like this one, I realize that it can be described. I can read it, but can't go the other direction.

 

Thank you so much. No, my username did not originate from this experience. i am a crazy cat lady and have seen cat entities before and since. i love the spice and (he he) like ketamine a bit too, as well as many other psychedelics. Spicey Cat seemed like the one to use . . .

Spicey Cat
Brrrrp!

 

I've yet to see what I call entities on dmt I've seen little orb things that seem to standout from the background and kind of "dance" and like blinking eyes but no full on being. Maybe what I described technically counts as entities. Certainly never seen any cats or aliens.

 

Got two words for you my friend: Glass Vaporgenie

Dose high enough and vaporize correctly and i'll bet you'll see entities. They seem to be a hallmark of the DMT experience beyond a certain dose level. i could not begin to speculate what that might be for you. For me it is in the 30 mg range. Of course, using the Glass Vaporgenie, i start to full-on breakthrough in that range too . . . .

Peace & Love,
Spicey Cat

 

yah vaporization is something I will attempt next , probably a makeshift lightbulb tho.
I definitely pushed the limit with the bubbler I can't imagine or wanting to get higher, I basically blacked out. I dunno ive read some people don't really see entities with it and speculate its more personal perception. I did see things that were certainly distinct from the background and kind of dance which ive read McKenna says the gnomes do. It is different everytime though but always maintains that perfected fractalized look. It also seems to be a full on like 360 degree experience for me. Like on most hallucinogens you direct your gaze somewhere and then move your head and its completely different visuals. Dmt seems to maintain the visuals wherever I look.

 

You sound really, really close. There may be no entities for you, i do not know. Perhaps it is just a matter of memory issues.

Light bulb ain't that great. Although it wasn't my fave, i had better luck vaping using a crack/meth pipe.

i look forward to reading your future posts.

-Spicey Cat
Purrr!

 

Whenever I smoke DMT while on LSD the DMT visuals look 8-bit and pixelated, really cool.

 

so how much did the LSD contribute to the experience? what was your dosage for that?

was there music playing and if so does it sounds severely distorted?
do you generally have music or not on a DMT trip?
how long does it last?
and finally, spicey cat, do you have a salvia trip report?

 

Hi porkstock41,

The LSD was about 6 hits of weak blotter on zero tolerance. It produced an amusing, mildly strong trip. The heart of the matter for this experience though was clearly the DMT/the combination of the two.

Sometimes, when i'm stone cold sober and about to launch with DMT, i feel like i'm launching "from the ground," but if i am somewhat altered/stoned, i'll say i am launching "from low Earth orbit" or "from the far side of the moon." Well, these launches were like from geosynchronous Earth orbit. There's no way i could have had these experiences without the LSD but no way in hell i could have had them without the DMT, if you know what i mean.

Anyway, here's a link to the Salvia reports i just posted - more insights into my user name. Hope you enjoy:
http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?p=6426866#post6426866

Peace & Love,
Spicey Cat
Purrr!