Pointing my telescope into the mirror and then disappearing

So, I've been growing quite a bit spiritually and as a person lately (just through my own life journey, not from tripping). I'm starting to think a strong trip might help me solidify a lot of the ideas and concepts I've been encountering (I've been doing a lot of reading about Buddhism and am going through a significant transitory time in my life). I've been holding onto some blotters for the same reason anyone holds onto them and I can tell the time when I eat some is nearing.

The blotters I have are pretty strong non-perf, plain white tabs. Two produce a pretty solid trip, one is mild IMO. I think I'm ready to take things up a notch and experience a much stronger trip (I've been tripping two of these blotters). I have 8 left. So how many do I eat? I wouldn't be opposed to ego death.

I have never experienced ego death from LSD though, just from a quarter of good caps. When I do go on this journey I plan to have my closest friend accompany me and let him trip 2 of the 8 tabs, which would leave me a potential 6 to either eat myself or save. Any advice/guidance is greatly appreciated!

 

Hmm I would eat about 4 - 6 to really go out there. If you eat 4, you'll have 2 tabs you can save for whenever. Or you can eat 6 and get really crazy.

 

Well you might be, but you won't have a choice once they're down the hatch

take 6, no question

LSD ego death is unlike tryptamine ego death . . . it's insanely beautiful. A deluge of visceral poetry floods everything and washes the universe in iridescent rain. pixelized karma and spinning mind

 

eat them alll

 

Glad to hear it's going to be quite different than tryptamine ego death. Although, I did find that experience to be quite humbling, I'm hoping to gain a lot more from this.

Hahaha

Looks like I'm definitely taking 6 then. Probably won't be for a good bit (maybe more than a couple months) but I'll post a TR after it happens.

 

I wouldn't say that it's always a beautiful thing. Sometimes it's the most disorienting and desolate thing that a human could go through. But i don't disagree that it is a beautiful thing, i just wouldn't always say that it's perceived as such in the middle or in the aftermath of an intense trip. But i suppose that it's the ego coming back in to say such a thing isn't it? It's almost like you know you're never going back to your old dimensions and you stop a second and you basically say "oh, shit, what have i done?" to yourself.

 

I know in the middle of it, that it can be perceived quite negatively. However, it is the after effects of the ego death that I crave, the rebirth. Like I said, I'm in a transitional period of my life. I feel that a rebirth will be quite beneficial along with a death of sorts to adequately expunge the parts of me I want to leave behind.

I know it wont be easy, which is why I plan on allowing myself ample time to come to terms with my goals for the trip, facing all my fears before I drop completely into them. I know nothing can really prepare you for that experience, but I'm going to do all I can. I'm gona go into this experience without regret and as prepared as I can be.

 

Yea man i mean everyone is different. Do what feels right for you.

 

Can't wait for the TR

 

wtf... this is not the topic.. i mean your on to something there, you need magnets and crystals though...