serious mental health problem (no this is not a joke)

i have been struggling with the same problem for almost 2 years now. basically 16th birthday my friend and my father went on this thing at an amusement called the extreme skyler. huge thing like 200 something feet tall where u just go up and fall to the ground. anyway. before that i was like hahah fuck no ill never go on that thing. then after they went on it, well... basically tortured myself about it for a year. i think it had serious ties with my ocd, and like... idunno. i knew that i myself could not give a shit about going on it, yet this little suconcious urge in my head kept making me feel rotten and guilty as hell for not going on it, and telling me i needed to. it got really bad. so finally. about a year and 3 months later, i finally give in and say. ok. this is enough. i need to get this over with. so i do. i go to the park. and go on the thing with my dad. was i scared shitless? of course. did i enjoy it? hell no. was i proud of myself? hell yes. after i got off, i literally had never felt so free in my life. then i realized... oh.. shit... since it was dark they told me they could not have taken a picture or video, but at the time i was like whatever. then i realized.. fuck... i hope this doens't turn into another big thing... well. it did. basically that little urge in my subconious ever since has been making me feel guilty and rotten for not getting a picture or video, even though i COULD NOT. i really don't know what to do. i keep telling myself. its DONE. I DID IT. ITS OVER. but that little voice keeps saying. but wheres the proof?? wheres the proof??? you need a picture!! you must complete this task and make it all complete! personally i do not want to deal with this shit anymore! and personally i think if i go back and do all this shit again it will be like ohh u didn't savor the moment at the top so the picture means nothing... ooo u closed ur eyes so it didn't count... etc.. basically i don't know how to end this!! please help

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It's obviously ocd, Mucha. I don't know much about it, but I do know there are medications that alleviate that sort of thing, if you want to go that route.

See, if it were me, I would be saying, "Who gives a shit whether it was perfect? For that matter, who gives a shit whether or not I even went on the damn ride?" I've passed up lots of amusement park rides, and I don't feel the least bit of disappointment, shame, or guilt about ANY of them. I hardly ever even think about them.

But of course: I don't have ocd.

 

yeah, I think it definately has some OCD qualities to it. Counseling and meds will help big time. Depending on how severe this problem is or isn't, you may even be able to eliminate the syptoms with treatement. Good luck!

 

You could try meditation. I've found it's really helpful for my persistent anxieties. It's horrible, because it won't go away. I've also found that it's something you have to work like hell on. You need to tell it to shut the fuck up. You need to decide you're not going to put up with its shit anymore. I know that's a really abstract thing to say, because other people have said that to me, and it can be really frustrating, but all of the people who have said that to me are people who WERE anxious and conquered it.

 

Yeah it does seem to be like a kind of OCD, but I usually find if I ever have things like this, soon new things come along and I eventually forget the old ones. Like soon you might achieve other cool things, new things and you will have more great memories. And always don't forget that it will ALWAYS be in your memory, you don't need pictures or photos to prove things Cameras haven't always been around hehe

 

I don't really have any advice but hope that you are able to overcome whatever you are going through.

 

Ganja, I have a few reactions. First, before you take medication for your ocd, please try to find some skeptics who will give the non-med side of things. I know that although the system (big pharmaceutical companies, the AMA and the APA which are paid off by Big Pharma, the drug company reps who educate doctors, the courts, welfare agencies, the puppet media, and the cops) advocates taking meds for various mental illnesses, the true science of the matter is that the meds, for most mental illnesses, make the patient far worse off over the long run. Also, the meds can cause cognitive dysfunction, lasting neurological damage, even early death.
Second, please realize that you are not the only one who has kinda crazy thoughts. In fact, everyone has crazy thoughts. However, they might not admit it, and they do not act on their crazy thoughts. They let their crazy thoughts drift away, and do not worry about it. So Ganja, the fact that you are having these seemingly unusual thoughts is not really bad. It's ok. Just accept the fact that you are having the thoughts. But concentrate on having a different reaction to the thoughts. Instead of worrying about the thoughts, just shrug your shoulders and let the thoughts drift away. No big deal.
Also, I note that ganja is part of your name. For many people, ganja can be a nice thing. I respect different opinions on the topic of marijuana. However, marijuana can become a gateway to mental illness. These days, medical students are indoctrinated to pooh pooh the notion that marijuana leads to mental illness, but medical education in psychiatric matters is controlled by the Big Pharma, and is not based on careful science.
I wish you well. You are a nice person.

 

Look, I have OCD and I do not go to counseling and have rarely taken any medication. Your dilemma is a simple one

put yourself through it one more time. It's maybe a minute or so of being scared. I dont even think it sounds like OCD, and I certainly don't think you need medication over basically what is your compassionate side. You said so yourself, you felt guilty about not going on it, and that you 'couldn't give a shit' about being on the ride.

I think you might suffer more from hypochondriacal thoughts, rather than OCD related ones. Get your ass back on that ride and get it over and done with.

 

Why do you feel that the symptomes that Mucha describes do not sound like OCD?

 

Somebody who decides to cover their hand when opening a door, doesn't do it because they are worried about spreading germs to other people- they are worried about getting germs on themselves

much in the same sense a person with OCD wouldn't feel guilt and remorse for their actions (like in this example), and instead would compulsively reiterate the problem due to an their own subconscious desires.

That's why. And I mean no disrespect to the OP.

 

So people that suffer from OCD find their unorthodox behaviour completely justified?

 

Certainly. You try telling any OCD sufferer they should stop what they are doing, i'm sure that will go down well.

 

So how did you find out that you had OCD?

 

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I got a suggestion that is very different from what others are saying though I agree with Imaginary Being about your situation not being OCD. Just doesn't sound like that to me. I suggest instead of spending money on counseling or drugs you instead find some way to go to a developing country or some part of the USA that is in extreme poverty/misery. Work there for even a short period of time trying to help others better their lives...or even to just survive. There are many organization that offer the chance to go some place that needs outside resources and help...Katrina was one, First Peoples Reservations, Haiti, any area thats been hit by natural disaster or ongoing hardships.
You go there and reach out to these people, work with them side by side, get to know them on a first name basis...you won't need to prove a damn thing to anyone including yourself about your courage or self worth. Opinions may vary about what will help you... since you tossed this out to the world of the net this opinion is just one of the things you caught.