Something I Think About A LOT

Have any of you ever taken the time to consider how everything that has happened in your life, no matter how small it is, may have had an impact on something important that is happening in your life right now? Like......if ONE thing in your life had been different or if you had acted differently in ONE situation, regardless of how insignificant it may have seemed, something amazing that you have experienced or are experiencing may have never came to be.

I don't know if I explained that in a way that makes you think about it as deeply as I do, but I think about this a lot. Mostly because of the fact that I'm pretty happy with my life right now, since I'm in love and actually planning for the future, instead of just drifting along like I have for so many years. Anyway, I think about the fact that if I had never started using drugs, found Hip Forums, gotten kicked out of rehab earlier this year, grown up without a father, etc. that I would've never found my lady. Hell, even if I had a more stable work history and had a steady job, I may have never found my lady. Even if I did find her, we may not have connected the way we did if some of the things in my past or some of the things in her past had been different. If I'd lived in another state/country, things may have been different enough to prevent us from finding eachother. You never know.

I don't even know if any of this makes sense, but thinking about things like this makes me very thankful for everything I've experienced, both good and bad. Shit happens for a reason, and it's stupid to regret anything that has brought you to where you are in your life, and where you will be a few years from now, which I guess is the main point I'm trying to make.

 

I said sometimes thats nothing could of been that bad in your life, if youre here right now to testify to it..

 

every time i move i'm in another dimension
everything i do changes what i want
i see a choice i make explode in thousands of pieces
every time i choose i become a shard


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8exZ0AM0Eus"]YouTube- The Faint - Forever Growing Centipedes


i could step outside and walk in any direction
everything i choose erases ghosts of potential
but it makes some new ghosts that i can fill
i can just choose one
as far as i can tell

 

i understand ya i feel like i have that awareness almost anytime i do anything. and that either feels empowering or debilitating at the moment. i usually go for empowering but i've had my moments of stand-still, it's like coming mind-to-mind with multiverses and freaking out hahaha embracing our possible choices and where they can lead is one of the most important parts of feeling at peace with life. and it always helps when you can look at something awesome happening right now and look back at all of the choices and events that brought you here! i'm happy you found your lady :grouphug:

 

yea dude, i've thought the EXACT same thing. there are the things that have obviously had a large impact on our life - you growing up without a dad, me getting kicked out of college my first semester of freshman year - but then there are the tiny little things that may have had an equally large impact. you bend down to tie your shoe and because of that don't get hit by a car crossing the street.

i've heard that in a lot of songs/movies. not the most original idea i guess, but it's really cool to think about.

 

I try to define myself by the things that I do and the choices I make rather than the things that happen to me.

Sometimes it is hard to differentiate between the two

 

perhaps they are both at once
or none at all

 

In some other universe you didn't stop to smell the flowers and you caught that bus which made you find the lotto ticket which made you a millionaire. There are endless possibilities.

And now you ask yourself: Am I in the right one?

 

that's interesting to think about too (that is if we are thinking a similar thing)

what if we don't really make any choices? what if we don't have as much free will as we think? what if things happen exactly the way they are "supposed to?"

hindsight is 20/20, but who's to say that if you could go back in time that you'd even be able to change anything? maybe you'd never be able to choose differently.

 

I think about it from time to time... seemingly insignificant turns precipitating major life changes... and the unknown factors of being observed by someone who would be in a future position to determine whether I get a job for instance- and remembering a thoughtless remark or tone of voice and judging me to not be a good fit for instance... there's all manner of possibilities- and you can look at it historically too...

What if Lee Harvey Oswald had sneezed when he fired the second shot at the Kennedy motorcade in Dallas? There is no limit to the "what ifs"

 

if i wasnt such a fuck up in 5th grade then i wouldnt be such a fuck up now

 

Yeah this has crossed m mind alot. Lately I seem to be breezing by with things that happen and just wait to see where fate takes me. I don't seem to be getting very far lol.
I do have some things which I would have done anything to replay time, things that I do officially regret, and know for a fact that my life would be better. But I like the way tns puts it, it makes me regret those things a Little bit less. Yeah I am a loser right now and I blame psychedelic mushrooms. I do have amazing memories and good video games though so things are pretty tits actually.

 

If I was never suspended freshman year of high school for terrorism I would have never wound ended up changing to the high school I did, I wouldn't have met all the people who have affected my life in miraculous ways, I probably wouldn't have become such a stoner as back when I had gone to public school I only smoked every few weeks to a month, and all in all I believe my life probably just wouldn't have been as awesome. So even though that one event caused me a lot of pain and grief for quite some time, it honestly worked out for the better.

 

A few seconds here,a few minutes there,a look that might never have happened under ANY other circumstances--a turn of the corner too soon or too late,a collision of wills,random seating at an event that you may not have planned on,a decision made or not made. It goes from second to second,minute by minute,hour by hour and every large or small decision can be a life changer-and you ,your circumstances and the people around you would be completely differant. Some directions or changes in life we are ready for and some we are not. The possibilities are endless and the missed possibilities were opportunities or dangers not seen.In some cases lamented and in others lauded. Ain't life grand?

 

suspended for terrorism? is that something you shared on here before? maybe i'm just clueless or have a bad memory :/

 

why do you blame mushrooms?

 

Because he is a loser right now.

 

Well first the bad mushroom trip made me crazy, then it made me retarded. I am currently in the retarded loser stage yes.

 

it's all in your head
find something funny and laugh about it <3

 

Yeah, I do think about it pretty often, although I don't plan a whole lot for the future mostly because everything gets thrown off the rails whenever I try to put structure to anything. I think I will be "drifting along" for a long while yet, maybe always, but I don't see it as a bad thing. I like the constant change of life's scenery and settling down is a pretty forboding thought to me. I always set my sail the direction the wind blows and I'm usually relatively content with my life situation at any given time.