Is There Something Wrong With Me?

Hi, I'm wondering if there's something wrong with me. This is probably not going to make much sense, and I'll probably jump around a lot since I don't really know what to say. But yeah, hope you can read the whole thing and help me out.

For starters, I'm 15 years old, almost 16. I'm a guy. I've only had one girlfriend, and that was 2-3 years ago. It lasted a couple weeks, but we were friends and it didn't really work out. We went back to being just friends. Since then I've never dated.

So yeah, it felt too awkward since we were friends, so we never kissed. Yeah.... I've never kissed anyone... >.> Anyway, I'm wondering if it's more than that. Here's where it gets kind of random, as I don't really know what to say, so I'll just type....

Sometimes, I feel like.... like..... well shit, I'm not even sure. So, yeah.... Umm, obviously I've never had sex, but I've masturbated (duh). Don't get me wrong, naked chicks really turn me on, but when I do it, sometimes I imagine I'm a girl, and in my mind I'm a girl masturbating. I know I'm a guy, and obviously I'm jerking off but I'm pretending I'm fingering myself like a girl, and that's what I'm doing in my head.

Uhh, well, sometimes.... Well more than sometimes, often times I like to wear.... stuff that guys don't wear. I've got a sister who's 17, but she's super busy so I can go in her room and stuff without anyone noticing. I sort of... wear her stuff. Not her shirts and stuff, but I wear her panties/thongs and bras. And.... I sort of had some "sexual fantasies" about her (in my head she's masturbating, but I'm also with her, sometimes as a guy and sometimes as a girl).

So uhh, I think that's it I guess. I'm wondering if there's something wrong with me, or if this is sort of.... normal I guess. IDK. Can you guys help me???

PS: Sorry if this is in the wrong section or something, first post (obviously).

 

No, nothing is wrong with you. You sound like an avg 15 year old exploring your sexuality, .... so fantasize away, jerk off to your hearts content, ...but try not to leave a mess on any of your sisters stuff

 

REALLY???? I've been thinking there's something wrong with me for months, that makes me feel way better!
Of course not, she's got tons of stuff and I mostly wear the ones she doesn't wear a lot (and I never cum on them if that's what you're saying)... :z

 

that shit's normal. don't worry about it.

 

Really...? It doesn't seem normal, but I don't talk to anyone else about this kind of stuff. Hope you're not lying. :x

 

this is not exactly the best site to ask what's normal

 

What do you mean? D:

 

read the other threads and ask yourself if the people here sound normal :eggnog:

 

Well every forum has its trolls, but the couple replies so far seem honest enough (and thus normal... right?).

 

i wear my sisters stuff sometimes too and im 15 yrs old,it turns me on to wear her panties and i jack off while wearing them sometimes.

 

I don't know on average how many guys at 15 do this, but this behaviour is probably very normal. When I was 15 everything seemed sexual. A sexy woman in a commercial can have you running for the scotties. As long as your sister fantasies stay in your head, I don't think any of this is a big deal at all.

 

well I guess I'm the one who isnt normal...my sister was quite a bitch and I never imagine her sexually..

I have murdered her in my dreams...is that normal?

 

K, making me feel better now lol, thought I was a freak or something...

Obvious troll is obvious.

 

See Aww Shit?

So normal, that your post has been up for a few hours and already someone has piped up to say they are pretty much doing the same thing.

1/2 your class is probably up to similar stuff, but you dont know it coz you are all too busy thinking your freaky to let each other know. Give it a few years and you'll be high five-ing each other at the pub pissing yourselves laughing over the shit you get up to.

 

You're not a freak. You're a normal 15 year old boy. Just chill out. Everything is fine.


Also, BBAD isn't a troll. You took his post out of context. If he's a troll, I must be a dwarf.

 

Well, everyone discovers their sexuality differently. Do you feel feminine in any other parts of your life? If it's just during sex then it's probably nothing to sweat about - we all have our "weird" fetishes. However if its something that you feel outside of a sexual context then it's possible you have some kind of gender identity issue. I wouldn't panic or anything but if it gets to the point where you feel uncomfortable being a male, you should seek some therapy to help you decide what to do next.

 

^^Not really. Seems as if I was worrying about nothing then. I don't have anyone to talk to about this, so I don't know what's normal and what's not.... Anyway, thanks for the help everyone!

 

She's 17 your 15? The scary part comes when you finally work out what goes on in her head in relation to you

 

So I got my sister a job at the place I work this summer while she was back from college and somehow a coworker started talking about incest which reminded me of this. Took awhile but I finally found the site AND remembered my name/password.

Anyway I'm still turned on by her but very rarely and since she's moved away for college I obviously haven't worn any of her things. I have bought a few for myself (shoplifted most of them just to avoid embarrassment) and wear them regularly, it feels great. What's even more confusing now though is I DO feel feminine in other parts of my life, but I'm also extremely comfortable being a guy. Which reminds me of metro or whatever they call flamboyant straight guys but that's just not me. Like I'm super masculine but if I COULD be a girl I totally would (not for just the sex stuff but every single thing in their lives).

Anyway just an update that I'm sure no one wants. Whatevs.

 

Mick Jagger would approve. Try not to become gender specific with items of clothing.. its not a big deal, unless you make it a big deal..