My first time rolling was about three weeks ago and last night I decided to buy a tab and either use it soon, or save it for a concert on Halloween. I don't think I can wait that long. I'm really eager to try E by myself and this would be a great opportunity to try it. Here's why: A. I'm a fairly shy/reserved kid. Even when I'm rolling. I feel my experience wasn't as strong as it should've been my first time simply because I didn't want to dance and shiz. I was rolling, but I wouldn't even get very talkative; just engaged with everyone else's conversations. It seemed very introspective to me which is what I loved. At home, I can go crazy with music, and then take time to think as well. A part 2. I've drank more times alone than with people, smoke alone all the time, and have popped dones, percs, and oxy all alone. B. I have an amazing light show set up. I have this 3-foot long bar of light that flashes all different neon colors. Very cool even if you're not on a drug. C. I'm a virgin who probably won't have sex anytime soon, so I could wank it. I'd like to know how good it feels with ecstasy. Enough said. D. I have subwoofers in my car. E. I'm basically guaranteed a good night. I have weed, cigarettes, orange juice, an xbox, etc... These tabs are supposedly "pokeballs" containing more MDMA and thus more potent/pure. I don't really pay attention to names very much because I'm a skeptic, but it seems like it should definitely be higher quality than the first time I rolled.
Ugh. For some reason I don't roll very hard. May be my body type... I had to take two my first time. One doesn't do much.
"I've drank more alone then weith people...." that sounds depressing... lol drinking alone i have no external stimuli (people specifically) but it does happen time to time, i like havin a few beers for sure... You will have a good time no doubts about it, you'll have time to seriously think about yourself as you do seem quite reserved.. but you sound happy about it all and seem to have a fun set up goin on sooo.... Peeeeeeeeace
yo.... dude invite 2-4 lovely ladies over,,. pay for their rolls.smoke. drink. by the time the nite is over you probably wont have to 'wank it'..even if you 'could' do it yourself.. sounds like a great opp. to lose your virginity and help with your shyness/ social life... PEACE
Hahaha. For some reason i get really generous when i roll and i give away Molly like fucking candy. I gave away $300 worth at the fair..... But yeah dude. Take more rolls. Take like 2 then wait a little bit then take 2 more. You will roll HARD and feel amazing. Take them with a girl friend of some kind too. Pay for hers.
Haha no, it was never for a depressive reason either. Every once in a while I'd find my way into some alcohol, and then just play halo and pass out. I like it. As for the roll, it was a big letdown. These "pokeballs" were a total rip off. $15 and it did hardly anything for me or four other friends of mine. No worries. I will end up rolling soon again but I'm not going to waste it with myself again.
You said the first time you raved was 3 weeks ago don't tell us how you roll. No Xcuses, Go to a rave !
From reading your post, you do seem like a fairly depressed person. Are you, by chance on any SSRIs or some other anti-depression medication? If so, that will definitely cause you to not roll as hard, or at all. Also, what kind of rolls did you take? With all the bunk pills going around, you should always check www.pillreports.com to see if that stamp/color has been reviewed to insure you aren't buying bunk rolls. I guess I would kind of consider myself as a fairly shy and laid back person at times, but I think ecstasy is, without a doubt, a party and social drug. The few times I've planned on doing it alone, I planned out an evening of events to do (soundtrack preperation, glowsticking and poi dance routines, games, etc.). By the time I start peaking, I end up calling friends or going out because I am just exploding to be social and hang out with folks. I can understand the idea of you wanting to just get on Xbox Live or something while rolling since it's enjoyable to do it when drinking or smoking, but ecstasy is not ment for someone to sit in one place and chill. You'll probably not get the full experience out of it. Also, the mind can be a very powerful tool. I knew someone that took quality rolls on three separate occasions and did not roll at all. She was the nervous / shy type and didn't really want to try it, but since all of us were doing it, she decided to as well, and did not roll. If you are looking to just do sometime new by yourself, rolling might not be your cup of tea. But if you do get a hold of some quality rolls / molly, I would totally recommend finding friends or some type of social gathering to go to, preferably a rave or a concert. My first rave and roll was definitely a life changing experience. Absolutely epic experience!
LOL! i'll be the old lady here and say, "Sounds like a good idea!" Try it alone and see what happens. Maybe ensure you have a pet or stuffed animal or pillow or something huggable nearby . . . you may be surprised that if you get a good roll going that you actually do crave human contact, and not necessarily or just for sex either . . . Regarding difficulty rolling: Are you a big/tall/large person? Lots of body weight? Body weight seems to be a factor. Also, it seems that some people are just naturally very sensitive or insensitive to MDMA. i weigh like around 120 on a really fat day, am sensitive to MDMA and can roll on 65 mgs (starter dose) but have a friend who weighs in at just over 250 and it takes close to half a gram to get a good roll going for him . . . i'll also be the old lady and say, i know it's tempting but see if you can wait another 3 weeks. i honestly feel 6 weeks between exposures helps to maximize effects and minimize tendency towards abuse. Takes real self-discipline though, especially in the week or three right after the roll. i know. Good luck and good times whatever you decide. Keep us posted. . .
Op I'm a very introverted, shy, to myself kind of person but when you get around a bunch of other people all rolling, on the same level and who are just completey accepting of you (even if its only for the 4 hour peak) it makes you feel on top of the world. That may have been one of the reasons you didnt roll hard. MDMA more so than maybe any other drug gets significantly stronger in the right atmosphere. I went to my first rave solo and had a blast and met so many chill people. It doesn't matter that you're a virgin and stuff, rave culture at its best is far different than like club or alcohol culture. Like jungle child said it can be a truly epic, profound experience. Enjoy the music for sure but light shows, massages and more little tricks are all a good time and really easy to get, especially if you tell someone its your first rave.
Definitely truth spoken here. If you do tell people that it's your first time rolling or the first rave you've been to, you are likely to be treated like a king for the night. Way back in the day, I used to go to parties all the time with this girl that wore a birthday crown every weekend and told everyone it was her birthday. She was alway handed all sorts of drugs and was treated like a queen for the night. If you go to a larger rave, the candy and hardcore ravers tend to treat newcomers like (lack of a better word) pets. They usually make sure you experience all the fun stuff that is associated with rolling and raves. As long as you are willing to go out and be sociable with people, you are guaranteed to have an amazing experience! And if the rolls or molly are good. arty:
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Buncha questions. Well, I didn't have friends for the past three years and I've had a lot of change recently so it's a very odd time in my life. I just think about everything. Part of that is due to ecstasy. I moved to where I have friends, so I'm back to hanging out with people more often now. I have a really flat affect though. Don't get me wrong, my first time was awesome! I felt like I could connect with everyone and I felt like I never wanted to sleep again. I did smoke weed though, which often inhibits my socialness. But once again, being with people and engaging with them was awesome! It was also both me and a long time friend's first time to roll. I'm glad I barely rolled this past time when I was alone though. I only played one game on xbl (yes, it was boring) and I quickly became bored. I wasn't rolling hard, but enough to the point I wanted stimuli, and there wasn't much of it. About the body type, I'm very tall and skinny, lanky, etc...about 120 lbs. I'm a light-weight when it comes to any substance really, except maybe mdma now. I'm going to wait til Halloween (hopefully) until my next roll which will be for a concert of my favorite band. I'll buy two though and test my theory to see if one can be enough. All pills are different. Thanks for that link btw. Thanks guys!
