I think this is one of the words that best describes me. I go from up to down, to left to right. Can't keep the same state for a long time. Is always in a constant change. This all is to myself.. like to people in always the same, the girl with the smile on her face. But inside or when Im alone, I go from laughing hard to having tears running down my face. I actually don't know why it happens it just does, I start thinking on life, or listening to a song, reading a book, and I can get in a real depressive mood, the one where you feel like taking a bunch of pills and going to sleep to never wake up. And 5 minutes later Im singing on the top of my lungs, and dancing around, being all cheery and annoying. How Crazy Am I?? I think Im just one of those people that are really affected by their surroundings, like people, music, weather, everything that's around me can make me change my mood. Im used to being like this.. but what if one day I get a little too sad, a little to suicidal.. its scary. Its scary because if it was something that came from within me (or that I know it did) I think I could control my mood flings a lot more.. or just try to work with the problem.. meanwhile.. I just take a deep breath and sigh.
I feel ya.. I am very much like that. One min and the happiest person and the next am massively depressed. I think it has a lot to do with the environment and the people around me. This is going to sound nuts but I feel like if someone around me is feeling bad I take in their negativity too and it makes me sick my belly will swell up and such but then 20 mins later am happy-go-lucky.. I always thought it had to do with my sing too am a Gemini.. When am down.. what makes me feel better.. Coffee and the oldies. =) what about you?..
I suffer from depression and my moods were kinda like that where id start crying for no reason and not knowing why and started about comiting suicide, if these feelings do occur a lot and you do feel depressed may be it would be a good idea to talk to some body about it, ive been do several councellors and it has helped me through a lot, they are not emotionally attached so you feel you can tell them anything.
you know I honestly don't think any of yall are crazy! being aware of your surroundings and being emotional is beautiful! Ive had enough of people that dont know there feelings of incapable of feeling! not enough deep people anymore.....
that must be an old pic of Ian!! I saw him a few weeks ago in Erie... it was, well, intersting to say the least. Anyway I hear ya on being unstable... only my mood doesn't change for no good reason- I'm constanly bombarded with stress! New job, could be preggers, boyfriend's an ass, family in the hospital, ect. ALWAYS!!! I haven't gone 6 months since I was 13 with out a major life changing event happening, along with everyday stress. I try to chill out but sometimes it doesn't work and I tend to get really nasty with people. Music helps me control my anger, but it doesn't help the emotions. I'll sit and listen to music and BAWL thinking "yeah! I feel just like that!! WAAAAA!!!" So I know how you feel. As long as you really DON'T do something to hurt yourself, I think you're ok. I say about 3-4 times a week, "I want to go to sleep and never wake up", but I never DO anything about it. Hope ya feel better (get in one of your CRAZY moods!!!!) and keep safe, hun!! (((((hugs))))))
