I Can't Do This Much Longer

You need to find your passion. If you find something that you are passionate about it draws others from the positive energy you send out.

Does not have to be world changing but it is going to change you.

Now go hunt down what makes you smile and greet the day with that and before you know it that smile and passion will infuse others.

 

You should try volunteering somewhere. You'll be amazed how much better you'll feel about yourself if you donate some of your time to people who really need it. Start working out, join an art class, join a co-ed sports team, go biking, walk your dog at a dog park, stuff like that will also make you feel much better. The worst thing you can do for your mood is to sit inside all day.

I've felt exactly like you before, so I know what I'm talking about.

 

loll

 

explore and enrich space; inner and/or outer.

 

Do something constructive.
Working towards a goal may give you some perspective

 

FTW!

I can empathize with the OP though. All I can say is that you have to abandon this negative mentality first, and then go out and do what makes you happy. You say you can't do this much longer, well then stop doing it and make some changes. Don't get trapped in a routine where you dwell on your problems, however familiar and comforting that may be.

 

I used to be there. A lot of people feel that same way at your age. It's a transitional stage in life. How lazy and empty one must feel when they retire after working for 35 years and they've not got a lot to do.

Many people in this thread have given good advice. You mentioned you had some friends 20 minutes away. Visit them. The longer you shut yourself in, the more comfortable it becomes, the less desire you have to ever go out. Trust me. Just muster up some energy and call them up.

Only a mean person would decline someone who's extending a hand. If these people are your friends they'll be happy to hear from you and see you. As for the rest, I agree with Top Notch. Enjoy your freedom while it lasts, for it won't be long before you no longer have the option to do nothing.

 

Yeah, I do that as often as I can. They don't want to during the week though because of school-nights so I'm always waiting for the weekend and then that goes by.

And TopNotch, it's insane. I just suck at making friends. It's not that I don't have any friends here; I went three years without having any friends until I moved here. It's sick. I just can't keep a conversation going or be myself when talking to a random (except on ecstasy). Now I'm looking forward to rolling all the time because sadly it is the time where I feel the best, can socialize with anyone, and enjoy friends, dancing, ya know.

I used to apply all my time to poker (mostly online). I'm going to start grinding it out again, start making some extra cash, and then start going to the casino that's fairly close to me. Also I'm checking out some gyms tomorrow!

 

I used to be pretty fucking crazy and use drugs and party for days. Eventually, people either become bums or they pick up and get a career. If you're tired of it, look into a career. There's nothing wrong with partying, because there will come a time when you can't, at least for awhile.

 

dude, it's never too late tomorrow is a new day
get out there! find something you like to do that has the potential to be a group activity or source for advice and learning.. look on meetup.com and craigslist, maybe join a sports team through a center or somethin for fun, a bowling league, anything dude. take a class in somethin, go to library.. etc just start talkin to someone. the more you do it the easier it gets. you can find the best friends by puttin yourself out there, ya never know til ya try good luck, keep us updated

ok i just saw your last post,
gym is a great idea
if you enjoy dancing and socializing while on e then you have that in you to begin with. you're still you on any substance. tap into that!! i used to think i suck at conversation, was very quiet all the time, but learned to just speak my voice and let it out.. you can't get everyone to like you or understand you but it feels better to be yourself and try instead of keeping quiet. just be you, the world needs you <3

 

yes but if you dont close your eyes days never end

 

force yourself to be outgoing and talk to strangers, that's gonna be a goal of mine as i'd like to meet more people myself.

im gonna make goals daily, start talking to at least one new person a day. then once that's done, two, then three, four etc

speech and being outgoing is very much a skill that you just have to get used to. approach people with a cool shirt and talk about that, or if they are in a place that you think is interesting, just talk about whatever is in context. you'll get better at it

dont be afraid of looking like a creep either, cause if the person thinks you being friendly is creepy, they probably aren't a friend you want to have.

i kind of felt bad, but this morning some guy did just the same thing to me, he caught me off guard and i couldn't really be friendly to him. i was walking out of my house and he was walking to the bus stop, and just yelled at me "Hey! What's up?!" and he was kind of far away so I was just on edge like wtf? it was funny, he turned and looked at a truck with a fire paintjob and was like "woa! look at this!" and then was all "Wow! it's such a beautiful day!"

...though i'm pretty sure he was either drunk or speeding on ritalin...haha

 

First of all realize that you are beyond spoiled by international standards, some people would kick your face in for complaining about boredom. PEACE.

 

Hmm very true, but your only talking from an economic standpoint. Every society and culture has both advantages and disadvantages, just because westerners (for the most part) don't have to worry about starving or dieing from the elements does not mean that we don't have our own problems... problems that can effect people greatly. Its a fact that with the emergence of technology our lives have become decidedly less social. Or at least social interactions have become more impersonal. Our technology is outpacing our ability to cope emotionally which i believe will become an increasing problem in years to come.

 

"Social" is a spectrum of choices.
Starving to death is not.

 

really though, realizing that you are more privileged only does so much. depression/loneliness/boredom is a facet of THIS society. people in other situations are faced with other troubles, we have our own, trivial, yet all the while debilitating problems

 

your absolutely correct. But I guess what I'm trying to say is that as far the individual is concerned mental and emotional health can be just as important as physical health. If you take away all the statistics and you look at it at a 1:1 ratio things change, for example whats worse, a man dieing of starvation or a man killing himself because hes a 50 year old virgin? The answer (at least to me) is that they are equally as tragic.... Now to the OP, I think the people who are encouraging you to get out and find some activities to get involved in are on the right track, not only will it help pass the time but it'll make you feel less bored and give a feeling of accomplishment which will help boost self esteem. You will also meet new people, you keep doing this and eventually everything will come together.

 

I know. After my roll I thought 'this is awesome. i'm still that person and there's nothing to be weirded out about'. Hasn't been working too well.

 

you gotta push yourself man. take it out of your comfort zone in sobriety. once you push yourself and break through the uncomfortable or lack of motivation to dance and socialize you'll prolly get the same gratified feeling you get while dancing and socializing on e

if not, go get some counseling. i went to one assessment session of counseling at my university. i didnt really get too in depth about any of my troubles, but just verbally talking about what was on my mind - like this guy actually wanted to know whats up - was super relieving.

 

CL is the perfect place to be an anonymous whore :hurray:

and then I found the girl of my dreams.. surprisingly through craigslist.. and life couldn't be better and getting even better...