I'm about to go insane.

i don't like what just happened up above me

 

No I am calming down I definitely don't enjoy it.. But part of me wants me to freak out because then I will have a legitimate excuse tomorrow for posting these retarded posts..

That wasn't the reason why I was saying I was losing my sanity.. Lol I was just stating that I was losing my sanity, and apologizing for speaking retarded..

 

oh ok sorry i was confused by what you were saying. your legitimate reason was that you were bugging out. no need to get weird about it, we ain't gon see each other walking down the street tomorrow.

feel better, it is alllllle good.

 

Lol yeah but still I sound insane.. But I'm sure there is plenty of insane people posting on this forum anyways right?

I'm trying to feel better lol I need something to smoke.. But of course, my lighter isn't in the spot it normally is.. And I have no matches or anything just to smoke a normal square.. wtf.

 

best advice ever....
what's up razzle dazzle?

for OP:
Yeah go eat a little something, lay down and chill....good luck!

 

maybe you are, what's it matter? at least you're not a cube, you can try to sleep.
you can try and working things through with yourself as well so i mean, it doesn't happen again or does less often.


nyxx

 

Underlined 'U'

Anyways yeah I guess your right, I just don't want to turn schitzo or something and have crazy hallucinations all the time leaving me in tears in public places and such.. I'm sure you understand, I would end up commiting suicide or something.. I started writing in a journal awhile back.. Yeah this thing pretty much proves me insane..

But yeah, true.. but how? Whats your advice? Lol

 

yeah it was emphasis of you.

i have no idea how psychological disorders come about, but i think... i just think.. at some point before complete destruction of the thought process you can learn to control yourself. or at least the most important functioning aspects.

i have pretty heavy and reoccurring hppd. it does not make me want to commit suicide, maybe smack myself in the face, but i can understand what you mean.

my advice? i do not know how to make it much clearer i believe that you should work with yourself to get through your anxiety, fears, whatever it is that is going on with you. target what is going on with you first, then you can go in figure out how to get rid of these problems. well, perhaps you can't... you May do all of this.

 

ever not wipe your asshole real good, and it be a little crusty .. cough and crack your asshole? ....... That shit burns.. not thats something to worry bout.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKzqP4-0Z6M"]YouTube - Mudkip: The Insane Edition

 

it sounds like something that a volunteer firefighter would say i don't know it is just me


http://shinyponyta.ytmnd.com/
check this out: pokemon

 

mudkip is so cute
but good lord who chose to make that video..haha

 

nothing crazy though like schitzos have? I read some things and it seems like they just took a hit of salvia or something.. Like weird entities dancing around the room and stuff.. I would get scared then and maybe want to commit suicide because I mean they are so insane that would come accross their mind ya know.. It would be like if you ate 5g of mushrooms or something.. Or so the internet says..Lol
But what are your hppd's? The most I get of them is seeing the wall fidget a little, see thing out of the corners of my eyes, and feel things vibrate etc...

I think what I need is some freaking xanax or something.. Lol but my diet for the past week has been terrible, and before that it was perfect.. Lol I think I just need to start drinking lots of water again.. But I still questioned my sanity then because I get really scared at night..

 

And I always chose treecko

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UjqxHUuzDiY"]YouTube - Kids dont do drugs (and then go to the store)

 

when it first started happening i said 'do i need to go get xanax' but i decided against it. i dislike doctors, i dislike psychiatrists, and i also can get over things.

i do not know. i do not believe i am schizo at all, i did for maybe 5 minutes when i first started to have AUditory hallucinations. mine is, mostly of the day, breathing walls, large flashes of light, large flashes of color, trails. i get intense closed eye visuals maybe two days out of a month. auditory does not happen as much but it did happen for about a week and a half continuously and that was sort of fucked and odd but i got over it. when it happens it happens, i do not mind since i know what is going on.
uhh it does make me anxious but i have had anxiety issues since i was a young child. i don't question my sanity because i am a bit mad.

scared at night?? see that is something totally different. there are some nights i get uptight, that, personally, has to do with other things. this does not happen to you during the day? just.. at night.. like the night holds some sort of great key other then the sun being on the other side of the earth...








amazing orison hahahAHAHAHA i have so many questions for that video and the music perfect

 

I'm not really gonna go get xanax.. Lol I might try to get a couple sometime though just for nights like these.. But nothing I would EVER do everyday, prescription or not..

Yeah, but my problem is I haven't done many psychedelics.. I did acid once, and shrooms twice. Acid was only two tabs, I have not ever had a flashback on that.. And mushrooms ure.. The colors.. And some distant conversations.. Can't tell that half my flashbacks are flashbacks though because they are mainly distand conversations.. I hear them almost every night.. I also have this REALLY fucked up audio hallucination. From the diphenhydramine. I hear this REALLY loud and obnoxious squeaking gears sound and it keeps happening.. It happens at random and puts me in this fizzy almost every time..

And yes. Night time. It freaks me out. Whats the deal here? This NEVER happens during the day, or if I am with someone. I NEVER have bad trips whether it be some OTC, acid, or shrooms. If I am with someone or if its day. One night I did mushrooms alone.. I wish I hadn't ever done that.. But I did acid with my cousin during day, I was fine. Did shrooms with my cousin during night.. Was fine.. benadryl during day fine.. With friends though.. Benadryl during night, freak out. dxm don't freak out ever.. Weird..

 

And I wonder what that guy was on.. Lol seems like something I would do on a mixture of dxm and alcohol

 

maybe that guy wrote the music and then made a video for it, he seemed to walk out just fine.. But that still looked like something that you could ONLY pull off tripping absolute balls.. :3