Im afraid to smoke again

Discussion in 'Mind Games' started by Lexx1123, Oct 5, 2010.

  1. Lexx1123

    Lexx1123 Member

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    hey everybody,
    this is my first time ever posting something on this website. i come to you

    guys for support and some suggestions about this problem i have everytime

    i smoke. I started smoking about 2 years ago, ive never had problems with

    paranoia or acting stupid. i usually just smoke and relax, hang with some

    friends and just enjoy myself. i stopped smoking right before i graduated

    highschool, i was looking for a parttime job and just wanted to be clean for a

    couple of months. i was worried about drug tests and all that good stuff, so

    my friend told me about K2. I smoked it and it was amazing. i got wicked

    stoned and it felt just like weed. The 4th time i smoked it, i smoked in my

    room for the first time by myself, it was like 2am and i was pretty bored. i

    took 2-3 hits from my bong and was already blazed. thats when shit started

    to hit the fan.... i was so high that it felt like i went from using 5% of my

    brain power to like 80-90%. i was thinking so much, so much that i actually

    hurt my self. something in my mind was just taking over me. i started to get

    this ringing sound in my ear and soon that ringing sound transformed into pain

    throughout my whole body. any move that i made felt like my joints were

    gonna pop. worse pain i have ever felt. i couldnt keep my mind off this thing

    that was taking over it. it was literally a battle to stay sane. i layed on my

    bed and tried not to move a muscle. the pain stopped but i was still getting

    mind raped. i tried to play a video game... bad idea, i put on some

    headphones.... bad idea. then i put on the tv. this seemed to help distract

    me from the evil thing that was in my mind. When im high i tend to over

    analyze EVERYTHING. like i cant help but try to find an answer or figure out

    how something works. it can be how a football play works, or how the

    goverment works. i just think so hard all the time. and it finally got to me

    that night. but anyways, the tv seemed to be the best thing that helped me.

    i ended up falling asleep 3 hours later. i woke up and i was shooken up

    badly. i told my friend and he said that it might have been the k2. so like 2

    months later i tried smoking weed to see if it was the k2. i was with my friend

    this time. again i got super baked and went to hooters. i was trying so hard

    not to go crazy, the pain wasnt there but i started to shake and twitch a

    little. good thing they had the football game on or else i would have had an

    incident in front of all my friends. me and my friend left and for some reason i

    smoked again. we had like 2 bowl packs combined. we went to his house and

    i started to feel the pain again in my legs and arms. so i told brett and he

    started to talk to me to calm me down. the high wore off and i went to bed

    fine. if he wasnt there i would have went crazy. that was the last time i

    smoked. it was about a month ago.




    so am i smoking to much? it wasnt the k2 because the weed did the same thing to me.
    how do you think i should go about this situation?
    i still want to smoke because i just love it. :)
    has anyone experienced this b4?
     
  2. KCMOHempMama

    KCMOHempMama Member

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    for real i wanna read this but .. its making me dizzy w no spaces.. :(
     
  3. Lexx1123

    Lexx1123 Member

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    fixed it :)
     
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  5. hebrewnational00

    hebrewnational00 Senior Member

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    Hey man, I read your post.
    I have never heard of this happening to anyone. But let me say this. Your body knows best. Pain is a signal from your body to you, that something is wrong. Listen to your body. If smoking makes you feel horrible, obviously don't do it.

    As for being paranoid, scared and what not... I was in the exact same situation. I was a very heavy smoker for about 6 monthes. Things started getting bad for me. I took a big break for 3 monthes I was completely clean. Then when I wanted to smoke again I was very very paranoid.

    The trick is, you need to use it and not abuse it. You need to be in control and you need to draw the line before you let the it control you.

    I fucking love weed. I think people need to understand that it really is important for it to be used responsibly to actually benefit from it a lot. Don't let people talk you into shit, or tell you that your body is WRONG and what you feel incorrect. People know nothing compaired to what YOU know. You just really gotta dig for what you know is the best way to go about this.

    I guess smoke a small bowl pack, see how you react. Up the ante a bit next time, etc.... As long as your in control. Draw the line before fun turns into something that contradicts the reason why you even like smoking in the first place.

    Good luck
     
  6. easygoing

    easygoing conservative jerk

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    If getting stoned affects you like that, stop getting stoned. It's supposed to be fun.
     
  7. spirits...

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    i agree. stop for a while. there really is no need to get high so why don't you quit for a little while and see where you go from that
     
  8. LovelyHippie

    LovelyHippie Member

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    K2 is suppose to be really bad for you anyways. So is K3. It sucks.
     
  9. LovelyHippie

    LovelyHippie Member

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    I didnt like it at all.
     
  10. Lexx1123

    Lexx1123 Member

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    thanks for the help guys, i think i might just smoke a small pack. and if i still feel like this then ill just quit. thanks so much.

    ps. I posted this on grasscity too and got accused of "trolling". took so much shit from them. people here at hip forum seem to be alot better, and understanding.
     
  11. braininavat2

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    As said, no point in smoking if you don't enjoy it. I loved weed when I was younger but just get paranoid now. I really only smoke when drunk and its offered. Just no point in going out of my way to get it.
     
  12. TipsyGypsy

    TipsyGypsy Light of a Fading Star

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    I'd prefer it if you did what you wanted to do rather than what a poll tells you..
     
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