Hi, I've been doing this for years but have wondered if I am weird or just sick. When I go to bed I find my mind is constantly whirring, so most of the time when I put my head to the pillow I start planning on killing people. It seems to rest me by thinking of different ways of giving death to others. My most common thought when my head hits the pillow is "I get this big gun...." Is that normal? By going through the minutiae of different killing plans I seem to relax (or at least distract my mind) & go to sleep. I know it sound sick, & I don't intend on killing anyone, but does this sound similar to anyone? Would love to hear other peoples ideas
"Yes, sounds like a troll to me..." No not a troll, just a very troubled 45 yr old man. I've been doing this for years & it worries me
Thinking about killing people gets me pumped, I could never sleep on a head full of murderous fantasy lol I guess it's fine as long as you don't act upon it but if it's troubling you then you need to get to the root of your fantasy. Sounds like maybe it's your subconscious way of manifesting unresolved issues with people, I know I have a hard time sleeping any time I have unfinished business and loose ends floating around, especially with other people. Maybe you should try some melatonin. No matter how tired I am, I usually can't just lay down in the dark and fall asleep but after popping some melatonin and reading for an hour I can't keep my eyes open. Um, good luck with all that...
Wierd - yes. Strange - yes. Dangerous - probably not. I periodically go thru obsessive phases in my life in which I learn to cope with a certain problem. One of them is getting to sleep. I have often planned pharmacy robberies with absolutely no possibility of it happening in order to drift off. Our minds all work in different ways and sometimes strange plans work in relaxing you and getting your mind off real problems. I will also sometimes try to name all 50 states. Don't worry about it (but for God's sake don't kill anybody
Peculiar maybe, but if you are aware of its "uniqueness" and have no intention of acting out on it, I guess there's no harm.
ever tried having happy thoughts or dirty ones, i fall easily asleep when my mind is in the gutter lol anyway, for now you're not welcomed around me with that kind of state of mind :S sorry
100% common! i say "common" because, well, what is really "normal?" i can't tell you what about you is causing this. i used to have that type of shit running around in my head, about killing people who abuse me in the past. in my case it was psychological. it only became less frequent, and finally stop due, my own psychological growth and development. meds helped a little with it as well.
