I just can't seem to find myself in this selfish, self centered world. All I want is to be good and care about others, yet I feel I never get the same in return. People visit me when they need something yet all I need is comfort and kindness and can't find it.
Try doing it without attachment. If you do good things for others and expect good things in return then you will be mostly met with disappointment. If you do it expecting nothing in return the universe will surprise you once in a while when something miraculously drops in your lap. Peace Out, Rev J
here's some good vibe at ya! arty: I suppose you could try a commune, check out a rainbow family gathering, or move some place that you might like better. It may be just a cyber community, but you can find some community right here! Also, do you think you are depressed?
Why do you need to find yourself? What is it you feel you are missing? If you feel this world is selfish and self-centered, why do you affiliate with it? Understanding, of course, that what you apparently see as your world is not the world in it's entireity. If you want to be good, be good. If you want to help others, help them. If you wish to care for others, then care for them. But do not expect them to share the same feelings with you or for you. It's not that they are or selfish or self-centered It could be that people visit you because they really don't like you well enough to hang out with you. And it could be a lot of things. Maybe you're a bore. Maybe you have nothing in common with them. Or it could be that they just don't care. BTDT. As for the comfort and kindness, you can't find it in others because you don't have it for yourself. If you want to be good, be good to yourself first. If you want to help others, help yourself first. If you wish to care for others, then care for yourself first. Fuck them. You come first. You owe no one, and certainly not society, anything. But you owe yourself everything.
