just need to let out some thoughts

get a job and pay for your own. get a school loan and it pays for insurance.

let me ask you this...do you have a specific plans and means to carry it out? do you have a motive? is the plan actually practical and possible?

 

Good for you for working on this! I think it's a good first step that you went to see the councilor, sorry you're freaked out about it though.

If you keep taking positive steps, I think you can get yourself into a better situation soon.

Maybe you could call one of the suicide helplines and first ask them what their confidentiality policies are. If they can be completely confidential, you can just lay everything out and see what they have to say. Hopefully they will also be able to tell you what your councilors can keep confidential and whether or not you can be forced to go to hospital based on what you say.

Trying to go on with the semester like before won't necessarily get you back to normal. School is hard enough as it is, it would be hard to pass all of your classes while going through major depression. It would also be very stressful to even try.

Going to the hospital wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing.

You have an appointment with your therapist tomorrow?

If your therapist can't prescribe meds, maybe you can get an appointment with an md or psychiatrist who can.

It sounds like maybe the ideal thing right now would be for you to be in the hospital, in so far as they could watch you 24hrs and make sure you didn't do anything to yourself.

Whether in the hospital on not, being on meds at least in the short term sounds like a good idea. Lying to the md/psychiatrist or whoever is prescribing these could be a problem though. Electro-convulsive therapy is another option. I don't know much about it, but I saw something on pbs that claimed it was actually better than meds for both major and moderate depression.

Hopefully there is an academic option that will let you prioritize your health without creating other problems. I don't know what is involved with the medical withdrawl. I don't know if that means that you can't stay in the dorm for the rest of the semester and that you have to pay for the full semester without getting any credit.

The safest thing right now sounds like going to the hospital, then worry about arrangements with the school after you are in.

If you won't go that route, I would say at least get some kind of treatment (meds, electro convulsive) and also do some talk therapy. It is probably best to pull out of school all together, but I would say at least see if you can drop some of your classes and take the minimum course load for the semester.

You might be better off repeating the semester later on once you get the depression treated. Very easy to end up just failing all of your classes while stressing yourself out in the process.

 

It may be just better for your parents to know that you are depressed.

It's better to get the care that you need and not worry about the consequences than to not get the care.

It's not the end of the world if they find out you're depressed. If you must, just lie and say you had your appendix out, one of your lungs collapsed, you had some strange illness, etc. The main thing is that you get the care that you need.

your councilor or one of the hotlines should be able to help with a lot of the questions that you have

hang in there sister! we're routin' for ya!

 

Everyone here as given you decent advice. Just quit focusing on your anxiety issues and go about your life the exact same way you did before your axiety started. It sounds hard, but it will work.

Tell anyone the way you're feeling. Talking to counsellors won't do any good if you lie to them. You might as well not go.

Just share how you're feeling with counsellors, friends, and family and go about your life. Quit thinking about being anxious. Once anxiety starts one continues to be anxious because they constantly think about being anxious.

Forget about it and go about your life. In the mean time talk to people about how you feel.

 

check fuck yourself in a hospital..

you cant take constructive criticism very well, you just suck at life..

 

tisk tisk orison

 

I will not do my homework
I will not seek profession help

I will however Chat with the hippies see what they think....

 

lol. this particular subject may require a bit more tact and delicacy. just sayin'.

 

Note To Self, Next Time I'm Having A "Bad Hair Day", Do Not, I Repeat

Do Not Seek Sympathy From Squirrel Boi....



Cheers Glen.

 

orison doesn't got to listen to any1 round deez parts.



check,
it sucks it is happening for you, especially so far in life with no answers (and so on). the way it works is, you cannot get over things if you do not let yourself. there is no reason other then themselves that someone feels this way. i mean, there is no way at all i would say it is easy, and can prevent every thought.. that depends on your own power in the end...
but if you don't want to think yourself crazy, and get lost somewhere in your brain then not be able to come out.... you should evaluate your fears, learn things that curve your anxiety, write,
as well it is
a bad idea to lie when you are going for help.

on johnny's paper his question is 2+2
johnny - "ms. smith i am looking for the answer to 2+9"

shit isn't going to help him more then a bit lol.

 

well today i told my roommate about how serious my thoughts were, and how i lied about that to the therapist.
she told me she really thinks i should tell them whats really going on tomorrow, which im going to do. she said she would come with me, which will definitely help.

im probably going to ask them about medication, and whether they can make accommodations for me missing classes and such. i really dont want to go to the hospital, but my roommate told me that if thats what they think i should do, then that might be the best thing...

 

they probably won't make you do anything since you have no actual detailed plan to commit suicide.

 

oh and orison, not that i would ever wish anything bad on anyone, but try having something really traumatic happen to you and see how YOU feel half a year later...

and telling a suicidal person that they suck at life is pretty awful.

 

this sounds really good. you have a cool roommate. going to the hospital might be a hassle, but at least you will be safe.

 

well in my opinion medication is not anything to help just a sugarcoater, but if that is what you think will help you then go for it.............
yeah definitely tell them what's up, no need to feel embarrassed/scared .. overcome dat anxiety!

hey hey you do not know his life :eggnog:

 

Orison's a veteran. His family has also been flushed out of peoples attics and public parks for more than half a century.

 

ok... so he should know better than to be a completely douche to everyone...

 

im not really into taking meds but i think for now it might be good... better that than nothing...

 

No.. never..

 

check, I think getting pissed at orison is one of the most constructive things you can do without professional help. LOL, but also seriously.

Then take the courage you find from getting pissed, and use it to face up to some of your own shit. For example:

Fuck what your parents think.
Fuck what anybody else thinks.
Fuck your fucking classes. Take a fucking incomplete - you've got more important things to worry about right now.

Think: Why are you taking those classes? To please your parents? To please your teachers? To maintain your social standing?

Who's in charge here? What do YOU want from YOUR life? And what do you need to do to get it?

And how hard would it be to do those things? Harder than killing yourself?

And also btw: If your parents aren't the kind to understand that their child is a basket case and needs some time to sort things out - they don't deserve any consideration. Fire them and get new ones. Fall back on friends, friends' parents, anybody who has the love, guts, and gumption to do more than stand around clicking their tongues. But ya know: You might want to give your parents a chance first - they might not be the hardasses you think they are. And if they are, they deserve for you to give em some hell...

Get pissed, and take charge!!! If anybody gets in your way, blast em into the ditch!!! Jeezus, at least you have some options. You're not in a prison cell in Guantanamo...