There is a state of being for every letter of the hebrew alphabet. The first letter is Alpeh and the state of being is the first power. There is a picture for every letter also, this one is the ox. If you take the time to meditate on a ox, just fixing you, doing nothing else, you will get the experience of Alpeh. it doesn't explain what paperairplane told, but it's interessting to know.
one i thought someone was telling me to cut myself and i did, and then i knew it was wrong, actually, i didn't even though it hurt, i thought it was Cybele, I'm sorry that I associated myself with so many Gods, because I just don't know anymore, so much wrong is everywhere I read the Qu'ran, and I am sad that so much wrong was included there, and in the bible, so much wrong, and so much fear, and the government, I wonder what they are doing, they pretend this is all chill, and I do as well, but i am unsure... religion is nothing but love is everything, break free, dont do too much or let them see anything or let them think you are wrong... don't join the cults, what do i know that, i don't know anything i just have many words, i wake up, they surround me, devote yourself to this and that, there will be no evil, and all are free, this is ridiculous, so many cults, say this and this is the only way, they dont understand that nothing exists and none of it is remotely possible and they turn me against myself, deep in psychology, what do i know? this may be the lowest, everything is seen, straight out in the sun, picks out much of your life, but it must be done to get it out, people think they understand, people follow me, i am just passive... The voices were one thing, before, but now its people too, everyone challenges me, organizations, they say i am not crazy, so if im not, i didnt ask for this, this life isn't real, nor is any life i could imagine, all is emptiness, for the sake of love... Yomo means that to and includes everythig but spies are everywhere, so i take many deaths and much randomness, why should i have to alter my nature, its all beautiful it all makes sense, i give to everyone, i let much go, i say what i want, i dont care you are blessed you are a person, they may do what they do, in the shadows, but they can't hide that, what am i saying though, i feel sick, sick of this bullshit and of life, but at the same time, life is the very reason, its good just to write instead of to hurt myself and then its just what it is, and you know its as good as any holy book because what have they said but what everyone already knows and love is the only thing and love will probably ever be known but if you somehow find a way, building up the prima materia, you are lucky and all will feel it. but they draw me into family issues i dont understand, no one will talk about, maybe i will be cast into fears, i must do what i must do, i have no resistance, or particular attraction, or reason for life except to bring unconditional love once more, which the Yomo who is the Goddess has and instantly brought everywhere and lighted the sky and all imaginations with the wonder of the beauty of existence, and freed every slave, and laughed at all existence itself, and said I am you, revelling in the sacred chaos, spilling from the planes, relieving ignorance, ceasing the insults, the collective karma, it means nothing, doing is non doing, the buddhas, the lineages, all of it happens right now, i speak from inside of you, and i speak non distinct, justice, and truth, the rebellion will end when these are restored, when people are kind, because people want to be kind, all paths are paths of spirit, every single thing is love, is the embrace of the universe, its a strange kind of marriage, your dreams are so valuable, any way they come across, all have their own inner religion, all do, and it should grow and it is the same essence which changes for no reason for no reason theres no reason to fight or hurt anyone intentionally, and if you do it, think about it very hard, though it may happen, let it be only the last resort, try and be kind, this is just what im saying, why battle over land constantly and divide yourself for nothing but letters and sound why divide the east and west, we should all sit together, because there is medicine in it, in the nirvana of non existence and the love of fully living among the God who is Goddess, only then will there be true happiness pervading, stop saying the west is this and the west is this and that east is that, what do you know? the directions are nowhere... north and south the directions are no where, what is it all about, the shamans do their thing, many fall in the sake of humility, many are not heard, but the energy all comes together, and thats whats important, the energy, passes through every barrier every time a book made to control people, falls dead, and the spirits within that book live again I care not i embrace them all and you and all that ever happened to me I've been through heaven and all of it, and maybe this is still it, though none would believe me, people are timid as I am, few would believe the paradise which is right here, but that is what they chose to do and maybe the Goddess will inspire them to run rampant in the ecstasies of their spirits, because they are young and youth is eternal the tao is what you do, hold not to those standards by those books which sit still, which only come to fruition because of force, which speak of war and threats, the true religion we all hold and know and always have but in words there is an altar and all the altars are full, i am not even crazy within their devotional mazes, i see it all, the orbit and movement of the cosmos and I can only laugh and inquire and be tossed by the waves all the deities are one, all of them speak in their own way, when they must speak, if the voices tell you to cut yourself it is your decision, perhaps it is meaningful i do not know all the deities are one, all of them are different faces of the unseen divine, which is immanent and all healing the first lesson is simply seeing this, when God is pleased the jealousy will be removed from what we says, he will speak with some wisdom not manipulated for some strange idea of empire, people will never be like that even I who constantly remember, and attempt to dissolve myself into Her sacred being, I find only myself and the thousand thought forms weaving away, weaving my own divinity and right to be here, why? I have been so placed, because I care, I must sing love, I am not infallible, but like love I am just trying, I'm here for you in any way I can authentically be, as we all change so much buddhism is christianity, because buddhism is not buddhism christianity is buddhism, because it is illusion, a veil, a suffering the energies live within us, and the stories must be remade, I will do it if I must, anyone could do it, with inspiration, that is what must be done, the words will be guided and true, and they will be taken by all in their own way God loves all, and cares not how we live, he inspires the rebellion and also the injustice, God is a limit and also a great boon great joy comes from God and also great stagnation, maybe its a strange form of asceticism just to recognize God and Goddess both, Shiva and Shakti, but there is much good for the world from this I believe, and a greater reward in the end maybe but don't be influenced by rewards, the rig veda is only reward and reward, the gods so material it seems, but truth is not found there, or if it is, then it is a sad truth, but no the Yomo speaks she is above the page, she is coming a long ways, she is humble though she is all, she is bright and happy, st. john and i both, My soul is a candle that burned away the veil; only the glorious duties of light I now have. The sufferings I knew initiated me into God. I am a holy confessor for men. When I see their tears running across their cheeks and falling into His hands, what can I say to their great sorrow that I too have known. The soul is a candle that will burn away the darkness, only the glorious duties of love we will have. The sufferings I knew initiated me into God. Only His glorious cares I now have.
''One who doesn't know how to make an Aleph is someone who is illiterate.'' I read that years ago. And I can ! :groupwave:
I wonder- paperairplane- how you relate to Judaism? What you wrote didn't mention Tora, Moses, covenant, Hashem, Elokim, mitsvot, etc.- though it mentioned just about everything else(Cybele-saints-karma, etc.) Do you see Judaism as just some tribal, parochial, stuffy, stern("judgemental God"), pharasiac, "old"/antiquated straightjacket that doesn't- or can't- speak to you?
Well I grew up in a very Jewish community, near a temple and had many Jewish friends, In high school, on a whim I bought a book on Jewish Mysticism by Perle Epstein and it really fascinated me, the idea of God being within all things, all things being manifestations of God, and this eternal love, and mystical ecstasy which comes from cleaving to God, really moves me, I continue to study and practice as I grow spiritually, and I see all religions as one, all Gods as one, all of it is perfectly placed within the divine, without contradiction. Happy Hannukah! I think Judaism at the core is a mystery I can't even begin to say I understand, and it could be anything, really...
God is love, but why is life so hard, people so hard to reach, grace so difficult to grasp? God, I've done my best to find you, but youre so strange you seem to love this stuff God, youve made us crazy and given us the dramas God you must be a story in which we the letters have revolted against truth and settle finally again in love each burns with your essence each is complete in itself without knowing it, they all hearken back to you never really coming nor going just being
