Kundalini awakening and people without higher-end emotions?

Please tell us about your experience.

 

I don't know really where to start; but didn't realize I was having a text-book Kundalini experience (that is - 15 years ago info on this was not as available as it is now) until I looked into/researched this physical phenomena I totally felt (during my meditation) at the same time I "received" answers.
The hour is late; but I will start by stating that I was sitting on a large rock outcropping known locally, just entering meditation, with questions but a clear, open mind. I felt something akin to electricity that did not hurt run through me over and over in a circle, starting with the base of my spine...as this happened I began to understand, know what I needed to know. I don't know any other way to put it really.
I have felt this at other times; but not many, since this point. At times I needed to stand strong, do right (but it was hard), etc., I've felt the snake (a nickname for Kudalini)
there for strength, power and/or answers.
One last thing - once when I was terribly angry and wanted someone to LEAVE MY HOUSE, I felt it come come up my spine and out the top of my head. no lie. That one kinda hurt - lol - but the dude...he got scared (don't know why ) and left with quickness.

 

I can't quite imagine what electricity feels like. Is it ticklish? Uncomfortable? Itchy? Does the electricity synchronize with music?

I got that kind of feeling a few days ago, minus the electricity. I was stressed out and got a pain describable to what you say, for split second. I never had that feeling before and I used to get very angry.

I have a very low amount of negative emotion lately. Today, for example, I don't think I felt a negative emotion even once.

 

It felt like something running along up my spine, down my arms, then back again in a warm and slightly tingly way...not uncomfortable really; but then not totally comfortable either - certainly nothing I was used to...that's for sure. Since then, I've know what was happening; however, I guess the "easier" it is for someone to do something, the less they feel a need to do it. Does that make sense? I guess for me it turned out that way because I was seeking answers, and have found out (most) of what I want to know (and some things I don't want to know. )

After my serious Kundalini "episode" (and my pain didn't last but momentarily either) and I was literally ready to kick me some butt (but didn't have to - lol)...I remember feeling a mixture of almost giddy right after that; and NO negative emotion for a while afterward.

Sounds like you are on your way. I've always felt when a person is drawn to something, it is for a reason.

 

When do you normally get this electric feeling?

Did you eventually get the negative emotion back?

You said you advise caution. How can I be cautious?

 

The "electric feeling"...you putting it like that reminds me of something else that has been happening to me for a few years now, on and off...which I think may well be associated somehow with the kundalini. At night, when I am almost asleep or either actually asleep, there will be this BZZZZZZZ, that I actually have felt through my body, and heard it/felt it to wake me up! I do NOT like this. I think in ways it just a sign of these strange time, the electronic pulses of the earth, or something is happening. I'm not young, and certainly have not figured it all out...but, I'm a bit furthur up the road than when I began.
First...this feeling is felt during meditation, almost always...more itching then...

YES, negative feeling(s) come back, but with practice and just somehow knowing that you need to Pick Your Battles, it is easier to control your emotions, rather than the other way around. One's kudalini lets one know they are wanting/ready(?) to fight that battle, be it whatever it is.

I don't know how to express the seriousness, the true need to be careful when dealing with your snake.

Know yourself well, my friend.

 

So...how is my self-control going to be when I first get kundalini syndrome?

My self-control was poor, and occasionally after meditation, it improves a lot. I think my self-control has improved because I know masturbation is a waste of time and I haven't masturbated in five days. This is amazing for me, I usually masturbated three or four times a day. I hope to never masturbate again, nor have sex unless it's for some sort of gain.

But still, in other areas such as mathematics, it's very hard to get myself to work. I am working towards being able to do boring stuff like mathematics.

 

From reading your last post in the thread I can tell that the meditation is already creating a positive change for you, no? So keep it up...Getting a Kundalini rush isn't going to save you from your self control issues. People who meditate for years still contend with ego, self control, urges, whatever makes us human and imperfect... That said, a regular regimen of meditation will put you on the path to gradually bring yourself in a place of balance and contentment, where you will be more aware, feel more, and enjoy the now. The common misconception for beginners is that meditation has an end goal to reach, a magic bullet. The truth is that the benefit of meditation is in the journey itself, the regular practice of it. If you want to experience great kundalini rushes, meditate daily with no expectation but to take the time to treat yourself to a meditation session. Don't be frustrated, or disappointed by feeling that you are not getting anywhere fast. When you do have that kundalini rush, you will know. Also, if you are meditating because you believe you need to adress some issues you are contending with, start your sessions asking the universe to show you the way with resolving those issues, in good faith. If you are interested in reading about the benefits and insights gained from a daily meditation regimen, you can go to my blog where my friend posts a daily entry after doing yoga and meditation for an hour. It is less about techniques and more about what you get to feel, and experience and how it impacts your daily life. It may gain you a good insight on the EMOTIONAL benefits one can gain. It may take several posts for you to get into it. The guy writing this is pretty much a master by now, if one can call themselves that, and what he writes is from the perspective of someone whose life has been drastically changed. Here's a good entry you might find exciting... Relating to Chi/Kundalini: http://www.raphaelprotti.com/2010/11/08-11-10-an-incandescent-ball-of-life-force/

 

It is not.

Because of the power of belief, the power of the mind, we may find ourselves consumed by our own fantasies. We may dream for example that we have attributes that we do not in fact possess, such as an unique ear for the voice of god, or for the voice of evil.

 

Does kundalini awakening cause paranoia? My level of suspicion is nicely balanced right now, I don't want it to increase or decrease.

I feel very positive, yes. I feel that I'm nearing the peak of positivity and when I reach the peak, that's when my mind will decide to awaken.

I am worried about ego loss. Will my high self value and suspicion for others disappear?

About self control...I think that has improved a lot. I haven't masturbated for many days and I'm no longer jealous and I also accept the fact that I will never let myself have sex with anyone.

A kundalini rush happens quickly, like a bullet being shot by the trigger being pulled. But I didn't say this is the end of the journey. I don't disappoint myself, unless I keep wandering off and can't concentrate. That happens a lot.

I never felt the need to do that. I read the post and I'll read some more later, then.

 

Suspicion is a measure of viciousness, whereas recognition is a more reliable guide to safety. Yes, if you have a tendency to paranoia, kundalini will exacerbate the problem. Kundalini is not a remedy for anything, it is a wholly sensational experience.

 

Well...you see...I'm not paranoid because my suspicions usually turn out right and paranoia is fear of something that doesn't exist. I appear paranoid to others, but really, they are just under-suspicious.

So...if I do get paranoia from kundalini, how do I deal with it? Also, are there any examples you know of that include paranoia from kundalini?

 

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I noticed that something has happened to me twice recently. While I was meditating and deep into it, I hear a sound is loud, sudden, and goes right into my ear. I don't know what the sound is like, but it scared the hell out of me and I jumped.

Another thing...I feel very calm today. I keep staring off into space and all I feel like doing is sitting there all day.

100% agreed. I used to view womens' bodies, scents, sweat, etc as special. But now, I am aware that they are just bodies and have nothing special about them.

 

everything is sex!!!

 

Rather desire, the desire to be.

 

Why do you feel that suspicion is required? Why do you feel you appear paranoid to others? For my own part, I don't find you paranoid.

All paranoia is generated by kundalini, as I say kundalini is the power of imagination.

 

My parents think I'm paranoid.

Suspicion is required because I have been suspicious of everything all my life and found out things few people know.

Alright. I have a question. Does kundalini awakening cause synesthesia (mixing senses together)?