I am a female who has always identified myself as straight up until a year ago, when I started getting turned on by lesbian porn. I had a threesome once, but didn't enjoy it much ( I think it was mostly because of the reasons I did it, and because of the environment.) I do think about girls sometimes, and it does turn me on....sometimes. Other times I'm completely attracted to only men, and the thought of being with a woman disgusts me. My boyfriend is completely supportive of my confusion, and has promised to be here for me no matter what. I just get completely horrified and scared at the thought of being gay. But everyone who is gay/lesbian says that they've known they were since they were young, where as I haven't known that and am only questioning it now. I think if I were gay I wouldn't be attracted to men at all. I suppose I'm not looking for answers, but for someone to at least bring a bit of clarity to what I'm saying. Thanks T
You might be bi but have just suppressed your second half all your life. Or you're just confused. I think it's more likely that you're letting your fears consume you and you're worrying about it too much. Why are you afraid of being gay? There really isn't anything wrong with it, it just happens to be a different perspective on life some have. You will love who you love, and it shouldn't matter what genitals they have. Depending on how old you are, it could be almost certain that you aren't bi. If you are bi/gay/whatever, you should have it figured out by the time you're a teenager. But I guess it's possible that you just haven't known until now. A lot of perfectly straight girls get turned on by thinking about other girls. Now do you picture their body? Or do you picture yourself with your head between their legs? lol If you can picture yourself spending the rest of your life with a girl, then you might be bi. It doesn't seem like you do though, so... yeah. Here's my advice though. Why worry about placing a label on yourself? We are all sexual creatures, and there's nothing wrong with experimentation. I consider myself a normal human being, while others label me as "bisexual." Just do what you feel is right, and take life a step at a time. Free yourself!
