set: happy and overdue for a strong trip setting: my room at night / outdoors substance: 50mg 2c-b, 250mg Ketamine I parachuted the bee and listened to some music during the come up. Set up a nice 4 hour playlist and waited for the effects to reach "lie the fuck down" level. Like LSD, one of the first effects of Bee is time dilation, so the first hour of coming up feels much longer, but by the end of it I'm still not fully there. I find bee takes 1.5-2 hours to come up fully, and at the one hour mark I am just filled with elation, energy, and a sense of "something deeply amazing is about to happen". The clean, pure euphoria is tickling at me, colors are getting a little brighter, but the trip is nowhere near begun. At this point I decide to insufflate 250mg Ketamine as I think if I wait much longer I might chicken out once 50mg Bee really starts going. Within a minute or two I notice the trip beginning to grow in intensity with great vigor, and the tomb-like pull of Ketamine urges me to lie down and let my awareness rest squarely on my inner world. I turn off all my lights, get naked, turn on my playlist, and get in bed. As important as the decision of substance and dose of substance, was the decision of album. This trip was not 2c-b + k. It was 2c-b + K + The Lamb Lies Down. Finally I had listened to this whole album in a state of tremendous openness, and it took me on a voyage through the stage masks of my self and the selves of all, and the all of selves, the selves of self, and the self of selves. This is a thematic album (ie, not a collection of singles, but like Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon, something to be listened to all in one go, as it tells a tale), and the theme was the nature of self, and the journey of one named Rael through his life, going through blooms and wilts, discoveries, joys, pains. Possibly the single best album of modern music I've ever heard. It is psychedelic in every sense of the word, in every iteration. It is an album for us, I feel. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xcPeWrAAT6I&feature=related"]YouTube - Genesis - The Chamber of 32 Doors 2c-b can sometimes be completely devoid of insight/analysis, however this is essentially ketamine's primary effect, so combining the two gave me a trip that held the atomic focus of ketamine with the radical openness and ego dissolvement of 2c-b. My trip revolved around love. I have had an extremely eventful past few days/weeks/months in this arena, and had much to digest, be confused about, worry about, laugh about, cry about, be excited about, hope about, dread about . . . I thought for a while about many girls that are in some capacity in my life, and as I went over them and began to merge with them and the situations began to unfold in my memory without being self-centric, the journey eventually reached the meat of love, the raw material of it, one may say the atman quality of it, in that it is both that which we experience, and that which experiences, a two-sided coin, ourobouros . . . https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86Xdngp5Tdw&feature=related"]YouTube - Genesis - Anyway My self was more and more whirled away by the spinning of the Bee, I became the music I was listening to, the track, was I the music and listening to the human? What time was it? This is not "today", there is no "here"; I was between the details, under the normal workings. Would my parents awake, hearing my music (it was in headphones)? This track is ending, will I be reborn upon the next? I breathed slowly and calmed myself down. What had I taken tonight? Is this a k hole? Why is it so strong? Wait, did I do a k hole tonight? I did! I can taste it! But something else . . . didn't I do 2c-b? Did I? I can't remember doing it . . . no wait, I did! 50mg at that! So I did 50mg 2c-b . . . and a k hole! That is what is happening! The two substances danced and twirled in my synapses, melding everything that was going on. I clutched at my bedsheets, telling myself quietly to let it happen, this is the journey you have taken tonight. Enter it and do not fear, you know both these substances, they are both your friends, now you meet them both, one within the other within myself. Like one of those infinitely regressing russian dolls which houses within it smaller russian dolls, I was an onion formed of self, music, substance, room, sound, event, memory . . . My genes, the basal chemical data of my physical being, unfolded before my consciousness, and it merged with that of my mother and father, and I saw in them myself, and in myself them, and realized that I and them are one, not just because our genes are shared, but because we have the same awareness, the same faceless player behind the eyes, the same wearer of masques and performer of dances. My father and I became one being, and my mind went like a lightning bolt through myriad interactions and events that have occured in his life, and I relived them through my awareness, and realized that he has the same fears I do, the same hopes, the same loves. He laughs at silly things, he sometimes hates people unfairly, he grows, he stagnates. We became one. As this spectacle collapsed, suddenly the image of my boss appeared, and I went through the same thing with him. All my interactions with him, everything I know about who he is and what he does, I lived through my own awareness, and then saw myself through his eyes in my awareness, and saw that just as I have judgemental thoughts about people and their actions in whatever capacity, from the immature to the invisible/interactionist, so to does he, and my father, and all being, and I saw my interconnectedness to every other actor in this play, and how my part in my role influenced their parts in their roles. Collapsing into my father and my boss was unexpected and unflinchingly humbling, and yet the message was that of unstoppable divinity; for it is a beautiful, yet trivial fact, that I am the father, the son, and the holy spirit. I am my boss, I am the people for whom I am boss, I am my teachers, my students, my friends, my enemies, my lovers, my taxers, my cleaners, my defilers. I am war and peace. I am giver and taker. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJ3eGROTtq0"]YouTube - Genesis - The Lamia In my mind, the same event occured for my girlfriend, she merged with my mother, and my friends, and my future daughter, and my grandmother. I saw the blush of lust on my young grandmother's cheeks as she made love for the first time. I saw the tears in my mothers eyes as my father broke her heart. I laughed with my daughter as she got her first A+ in university. The female beings in my life collapsed to one, and the prime Male and prime Female danced in my mind, and I saw that this dance was a spiral, always coming closer, never quite making it, a fractal process of approaching infinity/zero which never quite arrives but always is en route. The comic dance of hide and seek, the way we hurt each other and love each other, two aspects of one spectral being, believed to be split and forever spurred to reunite in all facets of life. How we search for love, the love that is our completion, the love that completes the other. The genetic strands extended past my family and into the planet, into history, into future. All humans, all life, one substance, one journey, one awareness seeking itself. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y4vh1HAD5jU&feature=related"]YouTube - Genesis - Lilywhite Lilith The ketamine expired after about 2 hours and I was left in the calm, serene waters of 50mg 2c-b, my visual field an assortment of dancing pixels, waving forms, gyrating shapes, undulating colors. I tried very hard to fall asleep after this soul-rocking journey, and it normally is quite easy even on a large dose of 2c-b, but the combination of ketamine made this difficult, or perhaps just the strength of the trip. I got dressed shakily, staring in wonder at my body, my clothes, my room, the "I" which stares in wonder. I went outside, the full moon illuminating the patchwork clouds laid across the sky, my town empty, 3 am, silent, cold, no wind, no noise, only the light of the moon casting everything in a pale spotlight of reality. I stared up for a long time, struck by wonder, the moon breathing, the clouds lazily melting between pastel colors. I went on a long walk, smoked a joint, which did the trick, went back home and fell asleep in bed. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fk4pTzAU5bg&feature=related"]YouTube - Genesis - Here Comes the Supernatural Anaesthetist This was a pristine ++++. It was like taking psychedelics for the first time again. This is medicine squared.
That sounds like a pretty amazing trip . You HAVE to do LSD+K at some point (don't think you have yet). It was at times like I was literally fading between dimensions in the most strange and awkward way, yet stunningly beautiful even in the most terrifying of moments and perceptions. You would probably want more than 250 mg. for a full acid trip though. I find once I come off the k, and recoup for a few that I want to do it again, until I'm a good way through the comedown. Good stuff man. I want to try 2cb at some point.
Wow, Mr. Writer. As usual, a truly amazing report. My Saturday was 46 mgs of the Bee and two light hits of Dmitri and when I post the piece of my trip report that I am going to be able to publicly share, oh boy. I wish I had had an experience like yours, but at a minimum, I can easily say that I recovered a repressed memory from childhood, took a look at the cores of my subconscious and now feel that my long term memory is more complete. Yours is the kind of trip that I think we psychonauts might be in this for. Kind of a view of fundamental truths and unity. How wonderful.
It sounds like a beautiful time, Mr. Writer .................... That should have been 250mg's of DPT, though This passage: I feel vibrate pretty deeply within myself as it reminds me quite a bit of my LSD breakthrough this summer. I was listening to some music, and it suddenly came to me as I listened to a song that it was all music, it was all the same, being created by an entity for an entity. Music being shared from one soul to the next, shared on. It was all the same music, played by the same matter.
I have but small doses of both http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=405767&f=117 Spicey, this was the juice, the meat, the good stuff. This wasn't fluff and much ado about nothing. This was the real deal, a total journey of psyche-delic power, a complete involvement of my whole mind. Cool that we were both in the throws of virtually the same dose of 2c-b at the same time I can't get enough of this one. CS: LOL @ 2c-b + DPT. LOL @ DPT + anything. LOL @ DPT. I am not ready yet
After experiences such as the one you relate, this song is a perfect culmination of the experience and makes absolute sense. :sunny: IT is all around you... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KRGBWgTNUs&feature=player_embedded"]YouTube - Genesis - It
i've got to try this now...i've done 2c-b+ketamine a few times, but never k-holed on top of the 2c-b peak. sounds amazing.
Very cool report Writer, you always give an interesting read. I've had a similar experience with merging with my parents and others who are close to me
