I’m sitting here…wandering what to write. I know I need to get something out there, all of these things I’m feeling tonight. I feel like I’m alone… no matter how many people that surround me. I’m trapped in porcelon skin, in this complex and fragile thing we call a body. Why am I alone? Why is it only me in here? I want to break through, shatter the glass doll that encloses me, escape like wind…that has no reflection in a mirror…no judgements or steps to fear. Only to whisper sweet whistles as it’s just passing by, cooling off the heat…swaying everything with its presence, making all the dead leaves fly, and all the cold hands meet. It’s there and it just wants you to know. It will remind you…so hey pay attention, feel the inspiration…go look in your backyard, for you it’s putting on a show. I cut my arm with glass…and watch the blood seep out. I feel the pain and know that it hurts, there’s red to let me know…this is wrong without a doubt. I hear the crunch when I step on dead things, and hear that person sitting next to me chewing up their steak platter. I look at the trees naked, and the fat set aside their plate. I feel like killing people’s grandma’s …just to show them that life really does matter. Just because it doesn’t show emotion, doesn’t mean it’s blank. I’m sitting here, and writing…trying to get something out there, but I can’t. I’m stuck in here, in this body, this room, this moment, wandering if these words, understandings you can make...Envious of the wind, I blow and write it's name accross the mirror <3 P.S. I would never kill or hurt anyone. I love everyone regardless of what I believe. Just to let you know I’m not going out killing people’s grandmas...just something I needed to use to try and help me get my point across. Thanks for reading
You love everyone and I'm sure everyone loves you, even if they don't always show it. There are a lot of people in this world to love; is it not selfish to ask that one person love you more than anyone else? To ask...yes. To desire...no. You won't always feel alone.
