I am supposed to graduate on Sunday, but I'm not sure I will be able to because of a tenth of a point... Possibly a hundredth. I am so afraid I can't even bring myself to email my teachers because I'm afraid something I say will influence how they see me, and thus, my grade. They know how important this is to me. I hope they show mercy on me... I did try very hard... This will be the third time I am delayed if I don't make the cut. Last time it was held back because of three tenths of a point. Before that, it was because I didn't have all of my math credits because they didn't offer it when I really needed it. So much is riding on this... Money, survival, my sanity... I'm supposed to be married next October. Before I can do that, I have to move to Maine with my fiance, secure a job, finish the wedding plans, and pick out and move into an apartment. I can't do that if I have to waste another semester here learning shit that has nothing to do with my career choice. It IS a waste. It's all graduate school prep and I'm not going to grad school. I have sacrificed to so much. I am 23 years old, and I have no friends (well they've all moved away- I still have them, but I can't make any real time for them), no car, no driver's license, no savings, no job... I live in a household that is on the verge of a domestic disturbance call almost every night. I think if I can't do it this semester, I'm transferring to a tech school. Half of my credits won't transfer, but I can't stay here repeatedly banging my head against the wall and getting nowhere. I'm out of financial aid. I don't want to take out any more loans for this multi-platinum private school anymore. A tech degree will at least get me out into the workforce... even if it will only get me so much money. I just wish it was over, though. There's so much I want to do with my life, and I have been dying to get started for over a year, now, but because of this school and its standards, I have been trapped here, trying desperately to claw my way out. This is the end of the line. Either I walk away with a bachelor's degree on Sunday, or I walk away, period. This school is sucking the life out of me. I need to start moving forward instead of running my ass off and getting nowhere. I am so afraid. Please don't let this happen to me again... Please God in Heaven if you can hear me, let me out of this purgatory! Set me free so I can do some good in this world and be with the man I love!
Wow, that is some stressful shit. School is very important (believe it or not). I think you should send your teachers and email and let them know how concerned you are, maybe they think you don't care or something. They might give you an extra credit assignment or something. I'm sorry to say this (correct me if I am wrong) but it sounds like you are getting married to run away from your problems, if so getting married is not always the best option. If you are truly in love though, just hang in there and soon you will be with him. I'm sending you good positive vibes and keeping my fingers crossed for you:grouphug:
Thanks for your concern, but I take marriage very seriously. Don't worry, I wouldn't get married just for that. I actually feel really bad that I'm leaving my family with all of these problems, but at the same time, I can't just stay my ass at home for the rest of my life. I could probably do them more good if I was out and not sucking off resources (though I would never suggest that because then my mom would feel bad). I did do some extra credit for my physics class and it added an extra point to my average. biochem prof doesn't believe in extra credit, though. I've been up both their asses for two weeks, though. They know I care. I just reluctantly sent them the D-Day letter asking them for my grades and how I wanted to know so I wouldn't be showing up to my graduation in full cap and gown and then be turned away because I'm not on the list... It doesn't help that I just found out that this is just a ceremony to mark the occasion, and the actual graduation (ie: when they finalize everything and send diplomas out in the mail) isn't until the 26th. Now I don't even know if my profs will have their shit together until then... and I might be on the list to graduate on Sunday, walk the stage in front of family and friends only to find out a week later that I didn't actually graduate... This place is so fucked up.:willy_nilly: I go to a small private school in the Finger Lakes. I am hesitant to say the name on the off-chance they google themselves and sue me for libel or some shit. They're very stuffy about their reputation.
I went through a similar situation with my family. I finally decided that I had to worry about myself and just packed up and left one day. The best thing to do in any situation like this (in my opinion) is to follow your heart, in the end your family will understand. School is so fucking stressful dude, I'm dealing with the University of Phoenix (they suck balls) I think they are ripping me off and over charging me by at least $1000. So now I have to also transfer. Stress sucks, wheres the xannies when you need em'.
For reelz... Don't know what happened, but just felt this sense of calm come over me... Either it's a good sign or stress exhaustion has reached its peak, lol. I think maybe it's going to be okay... Obviously things work out and you're always "okay" in the sense that you are still standing... I don't know anymore. I wish the suspense was over, but I guess I can handle it for now. Fiance is visiting tomorrow. Maybe that's it.
your fucked!:sad: you have not heard of all the shit comming down upon the university of phoenix? have you been living under a rock or something? oh, man! you are just sooooooooo very, very, very, fucked! bale out now before your a total goner! firefly, my heart just aches sooooooooooo motherfucking badly for both you and mayqueen! :sad: this sounds likes, both of you have been fucked over by this scam, that a lot of private colleges are pulling over the last 5 years are so, of ripping off the states and federal governments out of grants and loan monies, by stringing students as long as possible for their degrees, and milking both the government and students for all the money they can squeeze out of them untill the students drop out or, run out of money. firefly, i pray, for your sake, i'm wrong on this matter after everything you have sacrificed for your degree! if i were in your shoes right now i would be sweating blood and shitting bricks with fear also! LUV, YOUR IN MY THOUGHTS AND I'M PRAYING FOR YOU TOO! ok ladies, let me try and offer hopefully, some help here. you both might want to look into, "thomas edison state college." i got both my baccalaureate and masteraureate degrees from edison state. in both of your cases; if you have 60 or more units of college credit; there is one hell of a very good chance you might be able to receive an associates degree with no extra course work. so firefly, you might be able to get an associates in sicence degree from edison state and, save yourself the time and money of tech school. here is edison state's weblink below: www.tesc.edu
UGH!!! I hate higher education. It is nothing more than a fucking diploma mill. Its an institution that exists to make money off the naive. I graduate in May and I am going to be about 20,000 dollars in debt. Its going to SUCK balls. I feel for you!!!! I hope everything works out dear!
