First trip... Started off great ended horrible

So 2 weeks ago I bought an 1/8th of shrooms...
I have been reading on them and though I was ready to take them. Keep in mind I took these for enlightenment, not cool visuals or the anything.

My friend and I drove by the mountains were I would soon be tripping. I was ready, I had my iPod playing The Beatles, and has a bowl of weed packed. I was told to bring orange juice to chase down the shrooms, but as I ate them they honestly were not that bad. I ate them all and smoked the bowl about a ten minutes later. I was not feeling anything unusual for about 10 minutes, so I continued to walk around. I saw this ditch and in there was what looked like a shrine of some sort, so I walked there. As I was walking there colors became more vibrant, and the bushes looked as if they were swaying back and forth.

I went back up the hill we were at and started walking more, until all of a sudden my body felt as if it was getting heavy. I told my friend that I wanted to lay down, it was hitting me more and more. The spot I was at really weird, and I was getting bad vibes from it, so I asked my friend if we could leave. We walked back towards his car until I saw a spot to lay down that looked perfect. I lay down and spread my arms and legs, then all of a sudden I felt a connection with something, it was beautiful. It was like I was sharing peoples experiences and learning from them. I slowly started sinking into the earth, I felt like I was the ground. I felt vibrations of the earth and was experiencing a strong sense of euphoria.

A hour later we walked to another spot, since my friend was taking pictures and asked if we could go to another spot. I found another spot and laid down again. Once again I felt the same thing, but this time I felt a really warm feeling. I felt as if I was feeling true love, I kept telling my friend I was experiencing love for the first time. As The Beatles were playing I actually felt the music, I felt love going through every fiber of my body. I wanted everyone to experience this, it was so beautiful, I can't begin to describe what I felt. I was care free laying in the dirt, looking at the scenery, touching the ground and feeling the earth. This went on for about 2 hours, untill we left, thats when it all went bad.

We left in his car, which I did not like at all, and all of sudden I got in a kind of loop, He would talk and say the same thing over and over. He took me to a park to let me finish the trip. The thing is, we never left the car. I remember he walked out of the car and stood on the trunk of the car, and I was laying in the back seat. Everything felt like it was repeating, then all of a sudden I "realized" I was dreaming, if you get me. The reason I thought this is many times in my dreams, I will do the same thing over and over and over. So when he walked in the car to see how I was doing I didn't really make much sense, since I thought he was a dream character. When he was talking he wasn't making any sense, so I though for sure this was a dream. I thought it was weird that everything looked so vivid, unlike most my dreams, which are always foggy. He ended up getting bored and said he was going to take me on a drive, I didn't care because I thought I was dreaming, and was trying to go lucid. As we were driving I though, the only way to go lucid is to do it, so I looked out my window and thought if I'm dreaming I could jump out and fly.

So I looked out and jumped out, luckily we were not going that fast. I remember the impact and I was confused why I didn't fly instead of falling. All of a sudden people got out of their car and asked me if I was ok, but they were all giving off bad vibes so I tried to make my self go somewhere else, like think of a new scenery, but I couldn't. I remember being in a ambulance and trying to think of a new place to be but I couldn't and it was starting to freak me out. Then I pop up in a surgical room, by now I started thinking that my world wasn't real and started thinking that I imagined my whole life, so I tried to imagine my self with the girl I liked but couldn't. Then I started to think maybe now that I know my life is only imagined I'm just going to be stuck in this hospital, since it is the only thing I can think of now. I tried calming my self down, and I eventually did.

I woke up the next morning in a hospital, and was told I car surfed. I couldn't believe because I swore it was a dream. My family was there and people came to visit, untill about the end of that day I realized it was not a dream.

I have realized many things from this experience. It not only has made me realize that hallucinogen's are not something to take lightly, but it has brought my family together more. My dad and I have a wierd relationship, he usually does not talk that much, and doesn't take interest in the things I do, him being a traditional republican man and I'm more open to new things. When he got the call that I was being transferred to the hospital, he though I was seriously injured and maybe dead, and he realized that one day I will leave the house and he did not have the relationship with me that he would have liked to have. My family has now put more of a effort to talk about things, and not just go about our day with little communication.

I have also been impacted by the beginning of the trip, I have felt the love of this earth and nature. I have always loved nature, but this helped me see the life and love in it. I have been seeing movies with violence and hate, and I no longer see the point of it, it is truly pointless. I feel more at ease with my self, and I don't look at this accident as a bad thing, only a experience to learn from.

If I ever am to do any more hallucinogens I will do it when I move out, and know I have somewhere outdoors to stay for a cool minute.

Thanks for reading this, I really needed to get it off my chest and tell people who wont be quick to judge.

 

Man, you should of just laid right where you were for the rest of the trip. I know the exact feeling your talking about, that "love from the earth" feeling, every time i take shrooms the only thing i want to do is lay in the grass and stare at the stars. Something about that just calls to me everytime. This is the main reason i prefer mushrooms over LSD, it just feels so much more natural to me.

Its a shame this happened to you, atleast you realize what happened and you are learning from it. And your experience was not all bad considering the stuff with your family.

If i have any advice its just be more responsible, i would never suggest driving and remember that things are still real and that your just tripping if you start freak out again.

 

Very interesting report highlighting both the benefits of psychedelics and the dangers. I remember having that exact same thought of 'everybody should try this' on my first trip and my body always gets heavy as well and often feels like its fusing with the ground. Shrooms give many people a connection and new found respect towards nature.

That really sucks about ending up in the hospital, luckily you didnt get seriously injured though. Psychedelics can definitely distort ones thoughts and perceptions, sounds like you planned your trip out fairly decently having a sitter and all, I dunno just a bad break.

Awesome you were able to take some positives away from the trip and integrated into your life such as working on the relationship with your father. Good stuff!

 

It can be difficult, depending on how hard your tripping, but when I have been in this type of situation, it is important to think "Flying makes sense right now, would it make sense if I had not taken a drug? Can I normally fly? In this case, you even said you realized the distinction between this "dream" and your usually foggy dreams. When in doubt, even if it turns out your dreaming, turn and ask the guy your with if you took drugs (This is assuming who you are with is not a total jerk and is interested in your general well being). And as I rule, regardless of circumstances, I usually disregard any belief that I can fly and that I should empirically test that belief by jumping off our out of things. Be safe All in all, you seem to have taken away a good outlook.

 

That is too bad man. Glad you are ok.

My first trip was sorta similar. The first half was absolutely incredible, but the second half was really confusing -a mind fuck of sorts. I thought that I was stuck in shroomland permanently. I also felt like I had died or past into another life. Weird stuff.

I have never had issues while riding in a car. In fact, I have found car rides to be absolutely amazing while tripping.

I guarantee that if you were to repeat tripping, nothing like this would happen again given you provide yourself with the right mindset and environment.

 

Very nice read, It tends to be easy to lose your sense of whats real and not you just got to keep reminding yourself that what is happening is actually real even though it may not feel like it.

At least you were alright and didn't jump out the car at high speed or did something even more dangerous. I bet you have learned a lot.

 

Sounds like a good trip to me! Just make sure the car door's locked next time

 

Yea I realize I should have stayed there, but there is nothing I could do about it now. Next time I will for sure stay with nature the whole time, and stay the hell away from cars haha.


Thanks for all the feedback guys, I really appreciate it!

 

Damn this report is frightening! I am glad you are okay man, next time stay in the wilderness! Its all about set and setting