Yeah so couple months back I ended up trying X. I only took 1 pill. I was at my house with my closest friend and we were just chilling on my couch waiting for it to kick in, music at the ready. When i started to feel really energized and happy I turned on the music and it was simply amazing. I was loving it, best I've ever felt. But, about halfway through the experience I thought my mom was coming down the stairs and out of nowhere I had terrible, terrible paranoia/fear. Much worse than any paranoia I've gotten from pot. This was strange to me because I had no idea anyone could freak out on X. Whoever it was ended up only coming halfway down the stairs and then went back up. I freaked for nothing. It completely killed the buzz and I just didn't feel nearly as good as before that happened. Though, still feeling it. I have tried it again several times, and taken more than that (With higher quality pills to my knowledge), but, I have never gotten anything like that incredible euphoria and sense of bliss as the first time (As in, not even CLOSE), before I freaked out. Is it possible I lost the magic or something like that from having a bad experience my first time? Or is the first time really that much better than uses afterwards? Also, I don't think it was mixed with amps or anything, cause I had a pill with some in it another time, and it was still nothing like this.
Hahahahahaha at the title of the post! That honestly had me laughing for a good minute before I read. Your story and content made it a bit more reasonable. For many people the first roll is the best but it shouldn't be like that much better. I'm guessing you are just getting adulterated pills or pills with just low levels of mdma. You can try taking 1 more than your normal dose of a tested pill and see where that gets you. Also copycat pills often circulate shortly after a good brand comes out. So just because you had a certain color and logo that was good doesn't mean that same brand will be good in a few months. I think the magic is lost about after 10-15 rolls for some, I've been doing it for 6 years and i need more now but can definitely still feel the magic.
I understand why you might think that, but, a few weeks ago I had 2 higher pills of higher quality than the one I had my first time, and it got me really high, but, it was like there wasn't that rolling part of it. Like, I had insane eye wiggles, and looked like I was looking through the back side of a pair of binoculars, everything felt softer, and colours were a bit more intense, but, there was no rolling part of it. Like, the essence of what MDMA is supposed to feel like just wasn't there. And a lot of people were saying this was a really clean pill going around locally. I dunno, maybe they just don't know what they're talking about. Maybe I just need to take a loooong break? I mean, I've only been doing it about once every 2 months, you would think that would keep me from getting a tolerance.
Yah it was probably adulterated or like I said a really low level of mdma. just because someone tells you its higher quality don't mean shit. Here is a brief list of chemicals that have similar effects to MDMA : Mda mdea methylone mbdb mephedrone mdai tmfpp/bzp 6 apb Many more drugs can be found in ecstasy pills, Perhaps even your first pill had some extra amphetamine in it or something, couldn't tell you for sure but yah ecstasys contents can vary dramatically and its quite easy to test what's in a pill but its a bit more difficult and expensive to test how much of thats in a pill.
Pills are hit and miss. Get some molly and you'll know if you've lost the magic (I'm pretty sure you haven't). First time I rolled was new year's last year... I've done it quite a few times since then (should be rolling again this new year's haha), and I haven't lost any magic at all. You just need to be in a good frame of mind and with the right people, put on some goa trance or whatever you listen to and let go. Try being in a place where you don't have to worry about your parents coming down the stairs and seeing you on drugs... not the best thing to have in the back of your mind, ya know? Also I don't think it's possible (for me) to freak out like that on pure MDMA, unless you've redosed a bunch of times. Sounds like the pills had some speedy shit in them. I usually wait a minimum of 1 week between rolls, but two weeks is optimal.
Sounds worryingly like BZP to me. Nice high for 45 minutes or so and then about 6 or 7 hours of weirdness.
No, that couldn't of been it, it only lasted like 3 hours, maybe a bit more, and I slept fairly easily.
I hear rumors of people loosing the magic after only one use, the first roll is always the best, but I have done it dozens of times and I still get effects. but as others have said, I think you just need to find some Molly.
My first roll was not my best nor have I heard about anyone not rolling after 1 use. I have heard of the phenonema though and others who just simply end up not enjoying the drug. Also certain medications can reduce the effects, namely anti-depressants.
I wonder if the whole 'loss of magic' count only happens when rolling very frequently. I've probably rolled like 20 times in the past 7 months with magic loss only on the very last time I did 250mg... it was nice to know you MDMA.
