Grimiest shit you have done to get your fix..

pawned my moms engagement ring. she was divorced at the time. she even let me have it knowing what i was doing it for. bad times, bad dope habit. awful drug....

 

nicotine is a harder drug to kick imo..... i have not been taking oxycottin since I was 11yrs old ever hour on the hour , with only so many breaks in life between.
I have a legit script of 20mg OC and I dont even take them now, unless its an emergency and I take a few now and then to keep opiate in my steam case of random screen , but i know when im going to the doctor, Ill take 5to10mg the day before.
When my dad was dying a yr ago now, I had my own script and plenty of left overs , it was time for me to take the deeper end of opiate use, pushing 200mg a day for a few good months. That a considerable amount of time. When I came off them fully I had nothing more that a few chills and the same aches and pains i have now. The only difference then . I was nice and high.... They did nothing for my carpal tunnel only making it worse in my opinion. Many time taking narcotics I push myself over the level of normal human power, lifting moving thing, the superman effect. When the dope wears off. Kryptonite.....

You can be happy not having them and more happy when in real pain and they work with low mg consumption..

Ive sold much property and possessions not for drug use alone , but to survive... But within the last couple years i had sold music equipment to buy marijuana , even though i grow my own buds..
Im in the process of selling a $190,000.00 home for $35,000.00 so I can buy drugs and other adult toys..

 

Orison, I always see you mentioning that nicotine is more addictive and all... Well yes, this can be true, but remember that we're all different, with different chemical makeups and receptor densitys and abilitys to rebound chemical production and all sorts of other things.

For example, many people spend their whole lives without being able to quit cigarettes. I smoke every few months, and have smoked as much as most, often more than a pack a day, for as many as 6 months on end. I can stop just like that. I might have a down day, then I'm right back. (to be fair, the normal me is a bit sullen I suppose, but I don't crave nicotine)

Some people, like you, can use opiates however they please, and not lose control. There are many people who can't do that. Of the population at large, maybe opiates are very addictive, or maybe not, we can't know because most people don't get sucked into heavy use and become addicted, it requires a certain personal makeup and certain emotions to feed it.

There's people like you with opiates, but i'm not willing to take the risk and take enough to find out, it does swallow lives. It was stupid of me to ever smoke ONE cigarette, but I happen to feel no more craving for them than I do when I come off snickers bars. (And by that token, snickers are addictive to some people...)

 

yeah that why I wanted to say yrs of smoking , compared to a few years or months of drug use...

Im convinced that a well planned diet and exercise . new lifestyle rountine can kick a dope habit. just as it can kill a tobacco habit.

Id like to use the institutional living arrangement for a sec and civilian life to army life... getting out the army I was high and living on a drug, adrenaline, eating good, sleeping on time or not at all. When reaching civilian life, I find these things no longer exist. I go crazy with lack of things to do. This addiction to opiates is really about lifestyle too., I can understand the pain part, but a person with moderate pain. And like myself, I have severe to mod pain . Im a veteran with all kinds of phantom pains. the pill addiction is like the civilian life. Sit on your ass, do nothing , rot away..
Good exercise and a routine away from the things that make the disease consume you. be those family life. Maybe try some other activities with family, get them to eat better, sleep better, exercise. ect. This is how you can beat the addiction to opiates... While Im not saying dont consume them at all. because opiate are very good when used right.. Your just going to have to except part that pain, and appreciate when you do recieve some opiates legitimately .

 

dude how do you live with yourself??

drugs will always b there, you have to find that special something within yourself ,.

give it up....

 

i agree.... thats just grimey.. people have control.. and if anyone is going to shoot up.. they NEED to know there life is going down the drain. NOBODY shoots up and has a happy, fulfilling, enjoyable life.. I sniff 6-9 bags a day and I will never shoot up but i am no better at all, my life is fucked. I am, however, proud to say I never stole anything I always pay for my habit, $560 a week with no job (crazy huh) .. good luck.. u shuld change ur disgusting ways (stealing from the people who love n care for u)

 

I once bought a pack of cigarettes entirely from pennies I found in my house/car, I'm a pretty greasy mother fucker

 

Well now that everyone totally derailed OP's topic...I have nothing to add. Shitty thread.

 

ive stolen my grandmother's darvocets. but to be fair she had said more than once that she hated them and hated how they made her feel.

 

those darvocets are now collectibles. you should sell them on ebay.

 

Sold my book collection when I was 15 to get well. And when I was 16 (before I started doing well and got my own apt) I told my rents I was taking a girl out and needed money. I actually just got a check from 4 years ago when I was a shift manager at taco bell that I never cashed, which was awesome