i'm starting to miss my drug days

so yea, i smoked weed for about 3 years. i did x, coke and shrooms here and there too. and i got drunk at least a few times a month. about 2 and half months ago i had to stop everything because that was the biggest stipulation for me moving back with my mom (i HATE my dad passionately -- i had been living with him for about a year and a half). my drug use is what got me kicked out of the house, but i eventually came to realization that i love my mom more than getting high. for awhile, i was very happy being clean. i loved the mental clarity, i'm less moody, i dont blow all my money as soon as i get it, etc. the thing is, drugs are really all i know, especially as far as making friends and social interaction. all my friends have always been potheads, and thats who i get along with. there was never nothing to do, we always got high or went out in search of weed. now that i'm in a new state, i feel kinda lost. i dont know anyone, and i dont know what to do with myself. everyone at my school smokes weed, and the temptation is starting to get to me. when i talk to people at school, its always the potheads i relate to. the straight people are really boring. so yea, this is kind of a pointless post because doing drugs or drinking at this point would utterly destroy my relationship with my mom and obliterate any trust in me, but damnit if i dont miss my old life. can anyone relate to this? what did you do to get over it?

 

A juice cleanse got myself a boyfriend who understood me and went to drug treatments

 

well....i dont think i need drug treatments....a juice cleanse??

 

you can still use, just keep it under control. always in moderation. make plans to smoke only on weekends or something. its not like it has to be smoke every day or not at all...

 

Why don't you get some pot??

 

Just don't smoke near your mom. My parents aren't fond of it neither, and if they knew how much I smoke I'd surely got a discussion on my pants we had a couple of times before. Now I'm finally at the point of wanting to cut back some myself, so they don't have much to complain about anymore.
I fully understand your urge why to smoke and to who you relate most to at school and stuff, I relate to tokers more myself as well. If you're gonna toke again just enjoy but moderate. Best advice I know

 

Well you don't have to smoke weed but you can still hang out with potheads anyway. They shouldn't care if you smoke or not. Weed is a pretty harmless drug though, its not a hard drug, it shouldn't be illegal, so if you smoke a little weed you don't have a drug problem in my opinion. But yeah if you don't wanna do it you can still hang with chill people.

 

Haha, of course . I've some very good friends who hang out with my stonerbuddies as well and they don't smoke weed at all.

 

Green Fairie- I understand where you're coming from. I started doing drugs when I was your age. I'm 26 and stopped doing all that stuff 2 years ago when I found out I was pregnant. It was a good reason to stop and I'm glad that I did. There are A LOT of times that I would really like to go get high but I realize after a few minutes that it just isn't worth taking the chance of getting back into that old life. You're only 16 and have a lot of life left. I unfortunetly don't remember most of my younger years b/c I was too messed up to remember. Give it a little more time. One day you'll run into an old friend that never stopped doing all that shit and their life will be in the toilet and yours won't be. Then you'll give yourself a thousand thankyous for growing up and realizing life is more than temporary moments of euphoria.

"Life is not about how many breaths you take, but how many moments take your breath away."

 

There's nothing wrong with smokin a little weed. Hell....there's nothing wrong with smokin a lot of weed. You just gotta keep your priorities straight and be responsible.

But like everyone else said....you don't have to smoke weed to hang out with the potheads.

 

thats true. lol, i just feel like such a fucking goody-two shoes when i have to turn down a free hit....it just feels wrong. and i remember how incredulously i regarded non smokers who would sometimes hang out with me and my other stoner friends, like they were somehow intrinsicly different from the rest of us. its strange being on the other side of the spectrum.

 

It wasn't ever really all that different on either side, I am personally still just as bored, if the shit isn't there that is. I'm pretty social, I can hang out with most of my friends, but when it comes to being clean it just goes back to how it use to be.

The friends who were FUN to hang out with without having shit to smoke and the friends who are only good when you have some shit to smoke. Being clean brings me to routine one again. Also before I started looking forward to getting sid every week I was pretty much hanging out with a girl I wanted a relationship with, girl after girl trying to see if something could work out wasting months at a time. Now I just don't give a fuck, lol.

No real big difference in my opinion between clean people and kids who smoke weed, besides the fact the clean kids won't take a hit of the shit. No real way to explain it, drugs probably just fill a void for you. I personally don't mind hanging out with a friend I can relate to and just talk / walk / chill for hours on end, go riding, whatever's there. But yeah, theres some advice if you see any.

 

take coke out of the equation and you can still do the rest on special occasions

 

Find friends who also used to do drugs and quit. Then you can relate to them.

hang out with stoners while they smoke and you can still socialize and hangout with them just don't hit the bowl unless you feel you do not have enough self-control to not hit it.

back when I was younger there was this stoner house that always had no parents home so everyone would always kick it there and blaze about like 14 people. and about 3 of the people that chilled there were not pot smokers but would still kick it with us and we were good friends with them. they did occasionally drink beer with us when we had kick backs/parties though. really you could say every day was a kick back though haha.

 

I think if you smoke weed everday all the time for several years it conditions the brain to be used to being high 24/7. especially if you start smoking heavily young while your brain is still developing. So then if you eventually stop smoking cold turkey and decide to go from smoking 24/7 for a long long time to not even taking 1 hit ever the rest of you life that you will notice a drastic difference in the way your brain programs.

then eventually over the time term once you have not taking a hit in the long time I think your brain heals and eventually gets used to being sober again but it takes time.

stoners might say bull shit but I have known several people who smoked weed from young teenager till their 40's and 50's and then they quit and they said once they actually decided to not ever take a hit again is when they noticed it did have an affect on their brain and that while they were smoking they never noticed because they were smoker not sober people.

see if they never smoked pot and were sober their whole life they would not feel funky n stuff once they officially quit. or if they were just occasional pot smokers.

so basically what I am saying is pot does brain damage if someone who smokes a lot over a long period of time and decides they wanna go permanently sober and quit smoking.

but pot does not brain do damage if you decide to never quit. kind of confusing maybe I can think of a better way to explain it in the future.