Heya y'all...I'm new to this thanks to someone who told me about this place I am a single mother of a two year old, starting over for about a year now. I had an extremely unhealthy relationship with my sons father, decided that wasn't what was best for my child, ended that relationship last February...And went back to school..I will receive my degree in about a year..I'm opinionated, bossy, unpredictable but still predictable on some things, crazy but in a good way, fun, exciting, passionate, creative, sexy, silly, and there's not really too many words or a way to describe me other than I'm just stacers...I have been through many things in my life, things that have caused the worst for me when it comes to relationships, and this is something i'm working on...my problem is that when i was little, my innocense was taken away, unwillingly, and in a sence, I still feel like that little girl...So anytime I get in a new relationship with a guy that makes me feel "safe" I cling...I cling onto that because it gives me that feeling like everything will be okay when i'm with them...but it drives guys away..I don't know how to fix this, but it's something i'm working on...I was dating this amazing guy, everything was going great, but I guess I just started doing too much, I think that's just what I do sometimes...the shady thing is though that he won't even get ahold of me, that sucks for me because I have no clue what happened in all honesty, I would like to know what I did wrong, so the next boyfriend I have, this won't happen...I like to stay friends with people after I date them...I feel that everyone comes into your life for a reason...I am always a mother first and foremost, that's my only priority, not my relationships with men...I can see how that can be threatening to someone my age, I'm independent, pay my own bills, don't need to be taken care of, don't live off the system, don't have any drama, and have my shit pretty much together...sorry for my rambles, but it's night time, and I can't sleep...Speaking of which, night time is the worst for me because it's the only time I can process things that i've been going through, I can't really breakdown or deal with everything around my son because i have to be strong for him...After my breakup with my ex about a year ago, some things surfaced that I just had swept under the rug and never really dealt with, night time is when i have to deal with it...so i guess I will resort back to writing, because it's what I know best, it helps me pass the time, and lets me get all this stuff out so i don't have to think so much...because that's what I do..lol..hope you enjoy the read..any feedback is greatly appreciated... simply stacers
