I posted this on my pot forum, but not a lot of people can relate. Anyhow I recently underwent a Kundalini awakening, and almost lost my mind going through it. This came about as a result of three yrs of daily meditations, and solid practice circulating energy through a mixture of Chi Kung, Qi Gong, Tai Chi, Kuji in, and walking meditations where I walk as fast as I can and circulate energy as I walk. This work as brought me awakening after awakening, with simple meditation. It has been a fascinating path to say the least. However, I thought that kundalini awakenings were mostly for Yogi's and Tibetan monks and such. I never believed I would connect to spiritual bliss and universal energy. Yet somehow this gift was bestowed on my grumpy old self lol I meditate for healing and peace of mind, relaxation. I did not expect to have my ass charged up like a live wire lol. In one day I came home and danced with my wife for the first time in 28 yrs. I could not stop dancing. I danced for a week straight till 3:30 pr 4 in the am and plumb wore everyone else out! I was so fuill of love and joy that I could not be contained. I had to give half hour backrubs every night or I could not sleep. (Cool side effect for the wifey lol) Music now takes me out of my body almost, and makes tears well up in my eyes. This is the most bizarre thing that has ever happened to me, and I have spent a lot of time doing things with my brain. I seriously wondered if I did not mess up the serotonin/dopamine levels in my brain, as I was in the midst of a terrible depression and was trying to meditate my way through it all when I felt the undeniable stirrings up my spine. It is very aptly named as the serpent energy. The sensation is undeniable and creepy as it first happens. THis happened to me several times in bed, partially. WHen it finally connected me to everything I was meditating driving the car! I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown right there on the side of the road! I thought surely I was having some sort of psychotic break with reality, but man if this is being crazy, I have been loving every minute of it and so have the people around me. My enthusiasm is contagious, and it has been a great experience that has not worn off now two weeks into it. I am a bit back to earth, but still thrumming with peace love and joy energy, and my energy healing practice has goptten much more effective since this happened. The results on my meditations have been fascinating too, and I have been on a few shamanic journeys since this happened that have been most interesting. I have also been so creative I just cant seem to stop myself. What a cool thing this has been. I was kind of hoping someone else may have been through this that could relate to what happened to me. This is the most bizarre thing I could imagine happening to me, and I seriously wonder, what, why, how, who? you know? I do pendulum work with my higher self, and can ask questions, but only get yes or no answers, and I don't have a lawyers mind to figure out the right questions lol. My higher self said this was not a gift from my higer self, but from God, which I found to be a bit strange too. But hey, that is what is going on in my life. It has been a helluva long tie since I been in to say hi to my hipforums friends, but those that know me may remember I have been studying under a shaman for three yrs doing energy building and healing work. Peace and Love....and thanks for being there to hear my madness lol
hello . i've some understanding of what you describe . seems like you're relaxing better and all's well . some people sadly ain't so successful at being functional after such an experience . as you say , the yes/no of a pendulum can be hard to get understanding from . how to understand a gift from god ? yes , i do believe there is a way to do it , softly , free in music .
Thank you for the reply. I am still processing this, and trying my best to learn to call it up and use and apply it where it is needed. I was able to do some great healing on all the healers in my class Sunday when we went to class, and one of them experienced such a release that she was crying and I was getting concerned, but it was a beautiful thing, and she needed it apparently. It has been wonderful to practice my shamanism with this energy thrumming through my body. It remains interesting to say the least...
Kundalini moments are so worth living for, to name a few but one springs to mind after a workshop I facilitated with a friend in a sun lodge at a festival called shamania on near Penal hill on Lancs UK - She was doing the k- yoga workshop and I was smudging and space clearing the lodge and the people coming in. Afterwards outside the sky burst in colours, light grids and strands of light energy and ley lines feeling total bliss better than any drug ive experienced dancing light energy thru me and the stamina to go days in a very full power .... Happy daze :love:
when i thought i was having a kundalini awakening, i did a couple web searches, looking for a variety of experiences. i found all kinds of things...from the heavenly to the horrid. the key ingredient in the ones that were the least awful seemed to be long preparation. those who had it 'thrust upon them' but had not done meditation or anything to prepare...knowingly, or not....seemed to have the worst experiences to relate. if you have someone knowledgeable to speak with, this seems to be the best approach. if not (i did not), i found knowing more about what was happening helped me. eventually, i settled down into a recognizable unit. at least, not drastically different than one i could accept. your experience sounds unsettling, but rather pleasant. be well and happy.
a couple of kundalini group experiences have been described - and , yes , i guess i was within one mysteriously weepy and to do with a people , a rainbow around the sun , and a fresh in the springtime mountain meadow . when the afternoon had passed , everything was just as great as the days had bee fine before .
I don't believe that all that goes for kundalini experiences are kundalini experiences. Kundalini shakti is a motivational force, and it can bring swings of emotions and psychic experiences but the one overwhelming experience is one of buring and sense of purification. On the other side of the experience one feels clean and expansive. Dancing and acting weird are not necessarily kundalini. You can only speak for sure of kundalini if you have 'seen' it. And not all those who believe they are kundalini experiencers are. I have seen kundalini and I have lived with the experience for thirty years and yes I did/do meditation of inner shakti mantra silent japa and was given shaktipat from numerous yogis when I was fourteen and fifteen including one wandering yogi named Guru Datta. I saw kundalini as a black snake wound who lifted the head and started hissing and white smoke issued and filled my up, and the floor dropped out of my mind and I was then and forever more adrift upon the flow of energy. I was on fire for two years and had a headache for that same time. It eventually evened out and became just bliss. It did not rise through chakras as people imagine. Nor in s straight line, nor up the spine as people imagine. It did not tally with other people's descriptions. When I hear people talk about kundalini I think they are not seeing what they are thinking but imagining it. That's not to say that people cannot or have not been given shaktipat, unknowingly. As more people have gotten shaktipat it has become exponentially easier to get it. There are many ways to have shakti enkindled including just by sight of one who has such flow. I am not saying that the thread starter has not had shaktipat or kundalini intitiation, especially given the amount of yogic work they spoke of, but kundalini is a mostly transendental force and works through stillness and quietened respiration so I do not compare it to the rough breating done through billows, Sri Sri method, dragon breathing or strenous exercise. I am sceptical. Sorry.
