got some, now what? ego loss on acid?

this is not a free speech location

 

find a nice secluded spot in nature and let it go....everything...just let go

 

the most hits ive done is 4/5 (unmarked sheet.. so my cutting might not have been perfect) and i tripped my balls off.. dropped at 7am.. was still tripping at 7pm and later on that night I was still picking up vibrations and the place I tripped in was still 'alive'

theres been a few times where I would drop half my planned dose and about 2hrs-3hrs in (or depending on what effects i was getting and when) i would drop the other half.. I've found that it makes the overall experience last longer but not as intense as if it had hit you all together at once

i cant imagine 15..

if you've ever read 'flashbacks' (leary's autobio) he describes his 1st trip (off a spoonful of acid-soaked sugar) as being transported to a plastic world where he was shown how fake game-routines are... (maybe a little diff i cant remember perfectly)

but Ive been to the plastic world of games, but it scared the shit outta me at 1st.. i had forgotten wtf was going on and everything ... all i knew was here that person right infront of me is me or what was me.. cheap fisher price plastic dolls interacting in robotic fashion... so fake and cheap.. alot more details but I never learned so much.. I never knew there was so much more...

idk

all i can say is

wow


but then again I know a ton of people that have done a decent amount and they dont understand what i'm talking about at all... of the few that have gone 'within' they're basic understanding was ego-like..they would let the flow happen

and theres always that feeling towards the end of 'losing the flow' .. 'what did i do wrong... why... why was i sent back... what happened...' extremely upsetting especially in an emotionally open mindstate... but i guess its not exactly about what happens to you and what you experience... its about what you do with the new information.. if you make it important and a large part of your life.. or if you ignore it, throw it away, and jump back to your games


hmm i'm starting to think all my posts are real sloppy, probably go off topic, and maybe not that understandable... but oh well.. lol sorry

 

no way, lostchord, don't be sorry. trip rants are the shit. thanks

 

lol i come around the forums like 2 times a month give or take (i try to stay away now.. get some wierd ass PMs that are suspicious sometimes.. especially when im tripping)

but anyway my posts tend to seem quite long.. where afterwards i dont even wanna take the time to read the whole thing lol...

people in 'real life' or 'my reality' whatever you wanna call it would be happy with these posts compared to what i put them through in person lol.. they never understand what the hell i'm talking about