So I finally am able to get a solid hook on coke, I am soo happy, haven't been able to find it for years. So I bought 2 grams some bomb shit, part of it in a huge rock form. This stuff lasted me a couple days, but I was seriously challenging myself to try to be able to make it last. But every instant I would start to come off it, I could hear it calling me "snort me" snorrrt mee" Haha not literally but you know. That is officially the hardest drug to control yourself from doing. And I smoke heroin now and again. I had soo much fun the last three days, constantly feeling on top of the world like I'm the best and its the best day ever. Keep doing it all day long that is the only way to experience this drug! I have learned about myself, I have ALOT less self control for certain things when I'm around them. Oh well. This will only be a special treat now and then. A VERY special treat I know I better cool off now I am actually pretty relieved I am dry out. Of course it sucks really hard that I'm out but I like coke even more than H now. Problem is that it is too good of a high. It feels like everythings perfect. Yeah I gotta watch out this drug is gnarly. I love it!! I will, I know I will, eventually be able to have a pretty big amount of the stuff and not be tempted enough to be able to save it. That is the point I wanna get to. Edit: I forgot to mention, this stuff would make the whole entire front of your face numb to the bone.
^^ lmao, i love the writer's responses always. and i agree, the shit is great, but its also like the worst.
tax time brings around some good cocaine.... had a bump the other day,, Shit was fire... had to turn the amp way up was playing Claptons Cocaine for least 2hrs straight < I mean while on coke.. Then I looked at my fingers and they looked swollen .. didnt seem to have any negative effects but when I leaned over my chest hurt... Think im good with the coke for another year or so..
I hate the coke chest pains lol. they are scary. the guy who first got me to try coke had a heart attack when he was like 19 . . . crazy shit. i'll be doing some grand stuff soon, looking forward to it, but not the day after
Yeah I know what you mean, my heart sometimes beats reall fast and its overwhelming. Thats only happened a couple times though. Thats scary about that kid mr. writer.
And that there is thee quintessential circular argument to rationalize an addiction, believe me, I know that drug & H like the back of my hand & actually prefer shooting them. You will get say, oh, a quarter ounce of rock coke, the shit that when you chop it, it spreads out like crazy in all directions & takes forev's to get down really fine with your razor (also part of the appeal of shooting, not having to chop so much), & then what will happen is that you'll be like, "Hmmm, what sounds good & fun to do right this very moment, oh wait, I KNOW!!!!!" Right back onto that circular mobile of addiction, yo. I used to get a lot for free and buy a lot (of both) too. Like about 1 yr. ago. So I was lucky that friends would help support my habit with coke.
LOL, oh yeah, well the first time I did cocaine Mr. Writer my main man, I had (or I'm sure I came close to it) a heart attack at age 16!!! Really cool, HUH? LOL! (I'm actually being serious though smarmy too, no offense dude, I just laugh at my past stupidities)
I recently ended a year-long amphetamine binge (I was prescribed it) and I am starting to dislike stimulants even though I still take a high dose of Methylphenidate. I don't abuse it though. I enjoy my times high on Suboxone much more.
Yeah. I meant that after so many months of experiencing the awful after-effects of the stimulant, I grew to dislike the whole thing. Of course, the actual experience of dopamine flush in your brain is rather impossible to "dislike."
