I'm an observer , drifter , thinker , dreamer , outlaw , stoner and loner . "the sad man , behind blue eyes ."
I AM a husband, father, seeker, healer, psychedelic, refugee worker, communitarian, Christian and/or Buddhist, friend, teacher, gardener, baker, trekker, traveler, warrior, author (all those things in aprox decreasing order of importance to me), usually a nice person, but sometimes not (selfish, assholeish, and so on). Mostly retired, working ~10 hours/week, turning, opening, much closer to death than before, thankful for the things I just said, thankful for RCs and botanicals, thankful for this forum, three fests and at least one long hike planned this spring and summer, and I still believe he not busy being born is busy dying.
I am the lonely stoner stuck somewhere In the limbo like-state between adult and childhood...also very very uncertain at times
I am an anxious but love people, I love learning, I'm selfish and needy. I take a long time to make a decision. I am a daughter, sister, actress, thinker, artist - but I don't know my 'self.' It's too bad it's likely I'll just disappear after death: it'd be pretty cool to see what I am really like - or is that ever possible?
I'm a collection of molecules and a current of consciousness with a human identity. I am the river, and the river is me. I am lead by the river and lead the river to a certain extent. I participated in the evolution of reality, and that participation has never ceased. I am a tangent, a small branch in the ebb and flow of the universal mind and am helping create reality, along with everyone else, as of the moment I typed this.
I will be computer programmer and electro technician. And I love LSD + whole universe of drugs. And I like to live without limitations.
WAIT No need to define yourself The story goes that, after his enlightenment, Siddhartha Gautama -the historical Buddha- was walking down the road when he met a fellow traveler. The other man perceived a great radiance emanating from Siddharta, so instead of asking, "Who are you," he asked, "Are you a god or a divine being?" "No," answered the Buddha. "Are you a shaman or a wizard?" "No," answered the Buddha. "Are you a man?" Again the Buddha answered, "No" "Well, then," the man said, "what are you?" The Buddha Answered, "I am awake." Any time you think of what you are, you lose, because label limits you. Life is a process, it's continually changing, so any statement we make about ourselves in static language puts us in a casket. Give up defining yourself -to yourself or to others. And don't be concerned with how others define you. When they define you, they are limiting themselves, so it's their problem. - Eckhart Tolle - "There is no verb TO BE in your consciousness. No one IS, there are only behaviors." - Marshall Rosenberg - Can you cease looking to conceptual definitions to give you a sense of self? Can you cease looking to thought for an identity? Nothing you can find out about yourself is you. Nothing you can know about yourself is you. "Gnana Yoga" is the path of unlearning. Anything you think you are, you're not. Take out anything besides the I am... Stay in the I am, let go everything else. Give-up the tendency to define yourself. - Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj - Don't confuse knowing about yourself with knowing yourself. Knowing yourself is being yourself, and being yourself is ceasing to identify with content.Defining yourselves through thought is limiting yourself. "Who we really are is what remains when we relax any attempt to define ourselves. " "By remaining internally undefined, we become nothing, but at the same time potentially everything. It is like being the sky instead of a cloud, being the ocean instead of a wave." - Arjuna Ardagh -