first of all sorry if this gets lengthy, i could go on forever about this and still not even come close to putting it into words. Im new here, first post so a tiny bit of background would be good first to put all this into context. Im about 22, fairly experinced with psychedelics now i would say, getting to know these "spirit realms" or whatever you want to try to label them. My favorite (until about a week ago anyway) being the divine fungus. So far ive only had threshold effects on ayahuasca, but had a pretty insane experience with mimosa hostilis and syrian roo (probably butchered that but thats what it sounds like anyway) tea. Wich from what i understand is basically the same thing as ayahuasca but the plants have different personalities, different spirits. Ive tried a few of the chemical phsychedelics too (lsd obviosly, 2cb, etc) but i like to keep it natural, i feel like im actually connecting with a living spirit if its from a plant. As you might have guessed by now this is not something i do to "party" or just to have fun (its often fun anyway though, lol). I have a deep respect for entheogens and im very spiritual in my approach. These are not things to be fucked with, as mushrooms taught me long ago with the classic mushroom bitchslap trip, lol. Very hard experience that one but very educational too. Anyway, about my recent adventures with dmt.... First Experince So my first experience was kind of unexpected, just hanging out with a friend making some music and he offered me a little. I think this helped, i didnt spend all day building up anxiety like i might have if i planned it. I did a very small dose first, just threshold effects basically. I felt kinda lightheaded and weird, felt like i was slightly above/behind my physical body, but i liked it and wanted more. So i put on "Star Shpongled Banner" to clear my head and center myself. I closed my eyes, felt the music, dimmed the lights, smoked a little bit of herb etc. I think this part is very important, create a good set and setting both externally and internally. When "A New Way to Say 'Hooray" came on I first took 2 large hits, at this point i felt pretty nuts but I took one more, put the peice down, sat back and closed my eyes. First i saw the geometric feild, which i now belive has something to do with sacred geometry that everything in the universe aligns too, like the grid of creation, but thats just a theory, ill save all the theorys for another post. Then, moving and dancing with the music a divine feminine precense came down first in front of me, then it was almost like it multiplied or spread all around me. I cant remember exactly what she looked like but i remember what she felt like very vividly. She was all around me, comforting, soothing, protecting, like a loving mother. My friend says this may be the spirit of ayahuasca (we put some aya vine in the "changa" mix). It was a very beautiful experience, it was all i could think about for the next few days. 2nd and 3rd experiences About a week later i did it with my girlfriend, it was her first time. She didnt like it at all, I dont think she was in the right mindset for it. She was very irritable and angry all day, I actually thought it would help, wich was dumb, i should have known better. She said she felt like she was somewhere she wasnt supposed to be, like she walked in on someones conversation and they were very angry. She said she felt an angry force trying to overpower her. I should have seen this coming, she was being controlled by an angry force all day, why would it be any different on dmt? She also did not make any effort to center herself before hand. My experiences were much better. They were extremely vivid and real, i feel like i could have reached and touched these "walls" or whatever they are. I did it twice that night, both times were higher doses than the first time i did it. I went to a place, a place that feels more 'real' than the place that im in now. This place, like Terrence says, is inhabited. The first time that night I was in a very bright and colorful place, with colors very similar to Alex Grey's "Bardo Being". It was a small dome, very small, the walls only being about a foot away from my face. As i looked towards the "ceiling" of this dome it got very bright. There were some sort of entities, but i dont think they were even seperate from the envirioment, they were part of it, going in and out of the 'walls', dancing with the shpongle that was playing in that other dimension that my body was currently laying in. After that i felt very crazy, my entire body was trembling, shivering, shaking, like the song "my head feels like a frrrriiisssbbeeee", that kinda freaked me out a little bit. I thought maybe we messed up the extraction process or something but it went away after a few minutes, and it didnt happen at all the second time. Maybe it was just my bodys natural reaction the most profound experience i ever had. So i did it again about 15 minutes later, despite my girlfriend telling me that i shouldnt ever do it again. She was really freaked out, she was saying that we have no idea what were messing with, that this is way over our heads, its BAD BAD BAD she was saying. So i still cleared my head the best i could, centered myself, but this time in went into it with a little more fear, thanks to my girlfriend whispering propaganda of mother culture in my ear, (I really do love her by the way, but she still has a little trouble differentiating between the voice of her ego and the voice of her infinite self, shell get there). This time was the most intense, the most vivid. It was like I was floating down a river, with high pillars on either side that formed something like a dome at the top. There were fountains of liquid light, i think these were the only source of light. They were in various places on the pillars, some high up and some closer to the water, everthing was like Terrence would say "crawling with geometric hallucinations, and throbbing with energy". Everything was reflecting on the water, there were so many colors, mostly cool colors, blues, purples, greens. This was the most beautiful thing ive ever seen, there is no way i could remember all the detail, how it was all breathing and changing. One thing was different this time, no entities. I could feel their presence, i did not feel like i was alone, but ther werent making themselves seen. I really got a strong feeling, like a direct telepathic communication, that they recognized my fear, and were kindof "backing off" a bit, so they didnt overwhelm me. It was almost like they were thinking, "lets just lay off a little bit, dont wanna freak him out too bad, lets just let him see and experince this beautiful place for now, we can tell him what he needs to know next time." This is pretty amazing, i really think this is the universe's way of communicating with us. I mean its in everything, every living thing in the universe can make it. What if this is the planet helping us to evolve for the benefit of everything on earth? Im going to introduce my mom to it, she is the one that got me started on this spiritual path at a young age, but her fear of the unknown has held her back. I think this will remind her of how beautiful life is. Anyway, sorry for the long post, good to finally be a part of the forum ive been lurking for months.
Nah - it was a great great report! I saw those symbols too - on some sort of ribbon (best way I can explain it), but the ribbons were made of out gold light and the ribbons were incredibly long and occupied a big black void of space, but it still felt contained somehow. Please check out the thread I posted in this forum. The symbols looked like high-ascii characters and perhaps Chinese-variant symbols. Plus the detail was beyond what my human eyes could see. Literally. Just thinking about it makes me stop what I'm doing for a second to try and "relive" (so to speak) that moment, but even my own memory doesn't do a fraction of justice. Anyways, these were the closed-eye visuals I was getting. When my eyes were opened, I was still back on Earth. I am apprehensive to break through, but I know I need to so badly.
