hey im 18 living on my own i actually just got tax returns back and got a few grand plus I have been paid unemployment that was owed to me for the last 6 weeks while i was laid of during the winter months {no concrete in winter} over all in two days i got checks equaling to about 3800 dollars paid of some bills and I had 2 grand left over Now used to use a wide variety of different drugs almost everyday and it was quite a problem for me but [as hypocritical as it sounds] used acid to clean my self up and change my views on the world. this has worked for 4 or 5 weeks. All winter Iv'e been broke since it took six weeks to file for unemployment my first time. so I figured since four locos just came back to maine I would buy some. I ended up with a kid I know who had mephedrone. I've heard of it seen it, hell i have done a line or two. well this kid owed me some money so he gave me .13 or so took it got rocked as hell ended up buying a gram for 90 bucks. so I blew through that gave a lines to my friends all around and bought another gram. blew through that again hooking up a 3 or 4 friends bought a half gram. the half gram was gonne in two little line sessions and the drone was gone. so I passed out on my buddies couch for a few hours after staying up drinking locos and blowing drone. When I wake up the kid is heading out to get more. he gets back and he still owed me 50 bucks so he gives me a half grams for free. at this point I am already so hooked I bought another gram on top of the half I was given for when i got home. so hear I am did all the drone like 9 hours later my heart is going to explode and Im wired as fuck feels just like the one time in my left I tried meth. this is not good. I cant do this, I was sober for weeks. now I think im about to have a heart attack since I already have high blood pressure. all i can think about is waiting till the kid gets up to buy more. this stuff should not exist Mephendrone is a Monster!!!!!
those 4locos are not helping your heart situation man. in fact they are worse for your heart than the drone i bet! the combination is definitely not good. and sorry but the problem really is with you. it's not mephedrone picking up the phone and calling your dealer to get more, it's you doing it. you're the one blowing through cash like it grows on trees just so you can hate yourself for it 12 hours later when your heart is complaining. come on man, at least save your cash for worthwhile drugs. buy what you want to do and that's it. when you get some mephedrone, do it, and be done with it, don't call for more when you're done, because why didn't you just pick up that extra bit in the first place? that's where you put your foot down man. "No, I'm not going to get anymore tonight, because I already finished what I bought. Maybe next time I'll buy a little more". reminds me of coke heads running around missioning to scrounge up 30$ to grab half a gram so they have enough coke so they can run around and mission some more for the next 30$ for the next half gram stop!
i'm with writer, man. use what you're gonna use, but stop going back for more. for instance, if i take two hits of L and don't trip as hard as i would have liked, i don't eat another two after it wears off. i wait until next time and take more to begin with. i realize they are different drugs, but c'mon.
be the change you wish to see, I like that it and I think thats what ill do time to hop back on the wagon -to writer, the hardest thing about that night was the kid selling it to me was one of the kids I was chilling with. not that its an excuse but it deff makes it a lot easier to just decide "fuck it I might as well have another" -to djomaley sad as it may be yeah 90 a g. I live in maine however and here the price of everything is sky high. dank weed is 50 a slice average and the really good stuff can go for 60-65 To check in and see how i have been doing I ended up taking the kids whole stash of his hands at cost. He's and old friend and ended up in the hole with someone and needed some quick loot so I wasn't to upset however I'm not doing it all. I got 8 grams for 500 which for her is a steal I have gotten rid of about 2 grams and done about 2.5. the situation has kinda got me stuck for a few days because I have so much kicking around. I have actually been selling for about 10 bucks a gram more then i paid for it to get rid of it fast, tomorrow I'm dropping to cost. If theres still some left after tomorrow I think im gonna hook some of my friends who like it up just to get it out of my hands. I'm making plans to clean up and I don;t need to worry about buying more for now because I have bills to pay and all my play money is gone. another thing that will help is I go back to work on Monday, and I don't use shit a lot due to the fact I work nearly 60 hours a week thanks for the support though.
